A little bit of sadness.

[Guest]

I wanted to share.... even if someone wants to Flame me

four days ago......... was the three year anniversary of one of my closet friend's death. We started out as dating..... he was the brother of my then best friend...... and I honestly loved him. I thought he was my soul mate...... but it turned out I was wrong.

Its amazing how one day....everything comes to you. All the answers that you once sought..... are given to you in a blinding flash.

I am sorry to say that I didn't realize that it had been three years since he had died.... until today. A year ago..... at this time..... I was unconsolable..... I cried for what seemed like forever in private. I felt responsible for his death. He committed suicide..... and I always thought that 'If I had been there' things would be different.'

But today I realized that it wasn't my fault. I wasn't meant to be with him. I was just supposed to be with him for a little while..... to make me stronger? To teach me that not all men were assholes? Maybe these were just a couple of the reasons. But I do know that I am better for it. And his memory goes on............

 

[Willing and Unsure]

*hugs jadedpast*

 

[Guest]

*hugs back*

 

[Harpoon]

*Hugs Jade* Some times what we learn just takes a while to make itself evident to us.

 

[Adoratrice]

I sent you a PM but I'm not sure how that works...I hope you get it. XOXO

 

[batter]

*Hugs Jade* Some times what we learn just takes a while to make itself evident to us.

how true Harpoon, how true.

(hugs Jade too)

 

[p_p_man]

Sometimes when you think you've...

...got over something it only takes a little nudge to unlock all that emotion once again...

 

[scylis]

*reads Jaded's post and sees*

the future...? maybe...?

*eyes well up with tears*

is that what I will....?

*turns and runs away from this thread as hard and as fast as i can, screaming and sobbing the whole way*

 

[Guest]

"Still Holding Out For You"
(Kristyn Osborn & Richard Marx)



Never thought I'd be in this place
It's someone else's life I'm living
Wish i were living a lie
The hardest part is when the bough breaks
Falling down and then forgiving
You didn't kiss me good-bye
I'm choking on the words I didn't get to say
And pray I get the chance one day

(chorus)
I stil run, I sill swing open the door
I still think, you'll be there like before
Doesn't everybody know to never come around
Some thing's heart won't listen to
I'm still holding out for you

I can hear you smile in the dark
I can even feel your breathing
But daylight chases the ghosts
I see your coat and I fall apart
To those hints of you I'm clinging
Now's when I need them most
I should get up, dry my eyes and move ahead
At least that's what you would have said

(repeat chorus)

Bridge:
Faithfully, I trace your name while you sleep
It's the the only true comfort I feel

I still run, I stil swing open the door
I still think, you'll be there like before

(repeat chorus)






Thanks for all the reponses....... *hugs*


and scylis hon...I hope you never have to go thru that.

 

[scylis]

hah! i really doubt i'll go thru that!

if anything, i'll PUT somebody thru that...

 

[Morden]

<hugs Jaded>

"It happens to the best of sometimes hun. Just got look back smile and step forward."

 

[Make_My_Day]

I wrote this (very short) poem, thinking about a friend of mine. His wife died one and a half year ago. I've known him for a year now.. I thought it would be nice to "give" it you as well..

many very, very tight hugs

Departure

In the light of the sun
the moon must hide
Still, you’re not here
by my side

The beautiful things
this life has to give
Seem pale, in a world
where you do not live

 

[MrBates]

Offers His Shoulder

and a big {{{{hug}}}}

Why is life so hard, sometimes?

 

[Guest]

hah! i really doubt i'll go thru that!

if anything, i'll PUT somebody thru that...

Don't ever say that..> EVER.......
nothing is worth killing yourself over

 

[Guest]

I wrote this (very short) poem, thinking about a friend of mine. His wife died one and a half year ago. I've known him for a year now.. I thought it would be nice to "give" it you as well..

many very, very tight hugs

Departure

In the light of the sun
the moon must hide
Still, you’re not here
by my side

The beautiful things
this life has to give
Seem pale, in a world
where you do not live

That was beautiful


and thanks to everyone else *lots of hugs to pass around*

 

[scylis]

nobody knows what the future may hold..
and i am overly critical of myself...
*shrugs*

 

[pabloback]

jade, just enjoy the moment and the memories , who knows what destiny has in store for us all. you cant fight it so concentrate on the good parts of life , remember life is not a rehearsal feeling for you {{{{HUGS}}}}

 

[Chuckus]

Hey Jadedpast (((((((hugs))))))))

I always try and remember this one true statement or belief. Everything happens for a reason, good or bad, and maybe at the time it happens we don't know that reason, one day and in some way we will know why it happened. Don't look back and be sad but we should look back and be happy, that for a fleeting moment we got to experience what we did for a reason, good or bad. It makes us stronger and better than we were before.

Sometimes it just takes time, something we all have been given equal amounts of, to figure it out or for that reason to surface. Maybe we will never know the reason it happened but just simply knowing that there is a higher purpose helps.

 

[YoungGun69]

sometimes we have to go out with the wrong person so we can regonize the right person!!!

 

[Make_My_Day]

sometimes we have to go out with the wrong person so we can regonize the right person!!!

Very true words!

I figured out exactly what I DON'T want.. now if I could only figure out what I DO want..

I'm possitive I'm not alone in this!

 

[MysteryJKR]

aww. how in tarnation did i miss this thread. *hugs Jaded tight*

 

[Svedish_Chef]

Something like this Jaded?

In This Life
written by M. Ciccone and S. Pettibone


Sitting on a park bench
Thinking about a friend of mine
He was only 23
Gone before he had his time
It came without a warning
Didn't want his friends to see him cry
He knew the day was dawning
And I didn't have a chance to say goodbye

In this life I loved you most of all
What for?
'Cause now you're gone and I have to ask myself
What for?

What for?
Driving down the boulevard
Thinking about a man I knew
He was like a father to me
Nothing in the world that he wouldn't do
Taught me to respect myself
Said that we're all made of flesh and blood
Why should he be treated differently
Shouldn't matter who you choose to love

In this life I loved you most of all
What for?
'Cause now you're gone and I have to ask myself
What for?

People pass by and I wonder who's next
Who determines, who knows best
Is there a lesson I'm supposed to learn in this case
Ignorance is not bliss

In this life I loved you most of all
What for?
'Cause now you're gone and I have to ask myself
What for?

People pass by and I wonder who's next
Who determines, who knows best
Is there a lesson I'm supposed to learn in this case
Ignorance is not bliss

Have you ever watched your best friend die [what for]
Have you ever watched a grown man cry [what for]
Some say that life isn't fair [what for]
I say that people just don't care [what for]
They'd rather turn the other way [what for]
And wait for this thing to go away [what for]
Why do we have to pretend [what for]
Some day I pray it will end

I hope it's in this life
I hope it's in this life time
I hope it's in this life
I hope it's in this life time

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Sorry

 

[Guest]

*dries tears with a tissue*

All of you are just sooo great

*GROUP HUG*

 

[Blackbich]

*Many hugs for Jaded*

I believe he was brought into your life for a reason, even if it was for a lesson you didn't realize you needed at the time.

I'm glad you finally realized that what happened to him was not your fault. If he could speak, he would tell you that.


Make My Day, that was a beautiful poem.

 

[Make_My_Day]

Thank you Blackbich..

And those were very wise and beautiful words!