A happy memory, a thought, a wish

[sxcascinn]

I read Vana's post in the dear x thread...

Dear G

I miss nurturing and protecting you with my body. I miss having the drive and
passion to fight with everything I have, and everything I am, for what matters most. I miss knowing that there is nothing I wouldn't do for you. I miss loving completely. But mostly, I miss knowing what you would be like tomorrow.

"What ifs" are ok. Today I'm sitting with a heavy beautiful "what if". Let's call tomorrow your "what if" birthday. Happy Birthday, my Baby. I love you.
Your Mommy

It inspired me to think of a new thread. At first, I considered just asking people who had lost children to post... A happy memory a thought or a wish. Whatever you wanted to share.
But then the idea morphed the more I considered this. Everyone has lost someone they love. Be it through death, losing contact or other circumstances not in our control.
I thought maybe we could have one place to post our happy memories. The thoughts we hold dear to our hearts. Ok I am rambling so let me lay out the rules, to be added to if the need arises......

1. Happy memories,
or
Thoughts
or
Wishes
or
What you miss
etc

2. If you can, tell us who your post is to...
ie. Child, spouse, friend, lover, sibling, parent to name a few.

3. No Flaming

4. No Spamming

5. Please everyone lets be nice and make this a happy place to reminisce about those who are no longer with us.​

Ok so seeing as this was my Idea I will show you what I mean.

Dear Jordan
I love you with all of my heart...
I miss you everyday
I often wonder what 6 year old little boy escapades you would be getting up to if you were still here with us.
I miss the way that even as a baby you shared my love of music.
The way you kicked those little legs in time to the music...
The look in your eyes as you lifted up your little head and drank in everything around you.
I wanted to see your first steps, hear your first laugh, your first word.
Do all of the things mummy's do for their little boys.
Would you have grown up to be smart? Funny? Athletic?
You would have been in school this year, I bet you would have looked lovely in your uniform...
Remembering you always
Your Mummy

PS. If there is a thread like this already my apologies...

 

[scheherazade_79]

Dear Mamgu,

I miss walking into your home through the unlocked doors that were a feature of every house in your neighbourhood. I miss the sound of organ music drifting through the rooms, and the quiet warble of your voice above it. I miss standing in the doorway and watching and listening, and smiling at the ingruousness of the frail, silver-haired person thumping out the powerful music.

I miss the way you'd jump out of your skin and swear at me for creeping up on you - right in the middle of a hymn, when you'd been singing God's praises one second and using sailor language on me the next.

I miss you scrutinising my expression and knowing exactly what mood I was in. I miss your roast potatoes cooked in lard. Your ability to hide sherry glasses in microseconds whenever the vicar called round. Your refreshing tendency to say exactly what was on your mind, no matter how rude it seemed to other people.

I miss your tenacity. Your spirit. Your love. Even your obsession with the Royal Family, and insistence on watching geriatric Welsh soap operas when Dr Who was on. I miss your fiery temperament and complete lack of fear when it came to anyone or anything. And most of all, I miss the crazy adventures you took me on.

You were a complete and utter inspiration, and you still are.

 

[sxcascinn]

Grandad...
I was only young when you left us so suddenly.
You were a very tall, quiet loving man.
Your death left a big gaping hole in the family.
I know we all miss you.
I remember when I used to come out to the back room to hide from everyone.
Your inner sanctum. I would watch you do your puzzles.
Hence my love of the big old jigsaw was born.
Sometimes we would sit quietly and sometimes we would talk.
Those memories and you I carry in my heart always
Thank you for being the wonderful man you were.
I miss you and could only wish that your time on Earth had not been cut so short.

T

 

[LoquaciousLady]

Dear Becca,

I know I shouldn't call you that. You have no idea who Becca is but I don't know the young lady you've become and you'll always be my Becca when I think of you. Sometimes I'm terrified I'll never meet you again and other times I'm terrified I will. I wonder who you are now, what you're like. You'll turn 12 soon and I wonder what kinds of boys you like and what books you read and what TV shows you watch. I wonder if you still have my eyes and your father's mouth. I wonder if you ever think of me at all and if you do is it with anger and hate?

I wish I could tell you that I didn't abandon you and I did love you. I wish I could tell you that I only wanted the best for you and I couldn't give it. I wish I could hold you and hug you and take you shopping for shoes and do all the things a real mom does. I wish I could be now what I couldn't be then.

Please never, ever doubt that I love you. If you never know anything else in life, know that you are loved not by one mother but two. And if it's in the cards that we meet again someday please don't think too badly of me.