A Firm Hand (closed for littlelove)
I put a dash of cologne on and checked my appearance in the mirror for the twelfth time. Tonight was the night Cassie and I took it to the next level, so I wanted to look my best.
Tonight had been a bit of a long time arriving, but its delay was entirely my own making. By our fourth date, Cassie had clearly been ready to move things along physically. I hadn't missed the trace of surprise in her eyes when I calmly refused her subtle invitation into her bedroom.
I left her with the vague impression that my "taking it slow" had something to do with noble adherence to high standards. The truth was a bit more the opposite: I was attempting to shield myself from my own baser instincts.
I met my college sweetheart Janice two weeks into my freshman year and we stayed together till we eventually recognized that our post-graduate plans were too divergent to remain together. I steadfastly avoided looking for serious relationships for a time and focused entirely on the physical. I hit the bars and clubs and met countless women. Some became one-night stands. Others I dated for short periods, sometimes juggling two or three at once intermixed with my one-time conquests. At the time, I thought I was a young buck having fun.
A pregnancy scare in my early 30s finally woke me up. I looked across the table at the woman telling me she was late and realized that aside from her great ass, I didn't really like this person. Yet here I was facing the prospect of raising a child with her. Though that turned out to be a false alarm, this brush with reality made me take a sobering look at my life.
I recognized two things. First, this mindless pursuit of bedroom amusements had provided little pockets of pleasure, but no sustained happiness. In retrospect, this "fun" period was actually a fairly miserable one. My mindless pursuit of quick satisfaction had yielded a string of hollow relationships that had no chance of succeeding.
Second, had I not let myself be distracted by shallow concerns, I'd have recognized early on the dead ends at the end of these couplings. I had not abandoned my standards so much as declined to apply them. The signs had been there had only I been willing to look. But with visions of pulchritude dancing in my brain, I had glossed over the obvious and let my groin do my thinking. Even in some of the longer attachments, each of us was clearly lingering on for little more than a mutual appreciation for the other's genitals.
Clearly my own judgment was easily swayed by such temptation, so my slow policy existed to protect me from myself. By forestalling the physical, I forced myself to take account of the woman's entirety, not just her figure. And if such an examination revealed some deal-breaking flaw, I found it impossible to pretend otherwise and proceed forward.
The policy went to immediate effect upon meeting Cassie. A grad student in her mid-20s, she was unquestionably beautiful. Her hair was a glossy black that cascaded halfway down her back in silken waves when she didn't have it tucked up into a bun. Light green eyes flashed above a faint trace of freckles on high cheekbones and a gentle smile. Down below this angelic face lay a body apparently constructed by some dark lord. Her 5'4" frame was slender, but flared beautifully into a toned ass and what had to be the firmest pair of breasts that size I have ever seen.
Given the vision of loveliness before me, I knew I couldn't trust my first impressions. But if I held off on temptation for a date or two, no doubt she would reveal herself to be the harpy she truly was.
Except that didn't happen. She was bright and educated. She spoke softly and had a gentle kindness to her. She didn't espouse some radical political or religious agenda. She didn't curse like a sailor, smoke like a chimney, or drink like a fish. She got along with my dog. Over the next few dates, none of the usual warning flags went up
But the lack of flags was in its own way disconcerting to me. From the jump, I'd thought Cassie a bit out of my league. I'm a decent-looking guy - sandy blond hair, blue eyes, broad shoulders, slightly curved nose (remnant of a childhood elbow to the face), 5'11", trim frame, etc. But given that I'm in my late 30s, the age difference would suggest that I've got some special quality to warrant her dating outside her peer group. But I'm not particularly handsome, tall, muscular, rich, or famous. So what did she see instead
Honestly, I was surprised we even went out in the first place. Standing in line at a busy Starbucks, I'd made a remark about the book she was carrying. Instead of just nodding politely, she asked if I'd read some of the author's earlier works. We ended up chatting for 10 minutes before I had to get back to work.
At that point, I said something like, "Good talking with you. We'll have to do it again sometime." I honestly intended as one of those meaningless things you say to people you'll never see again. Perhaps I was flirting a little, but only in the way you might wink at a cute cashier, expecting nothing to come of it. But Cassie bobbed her head and said, "Good idea," and scribbled her phone number on a scrap of paper. I hadn't expected that.
The progression of our relationship continued to have that trace of unreality to it. She hadn't given me a fake number. She didn't blow me off when I invited her out for coffee again. Ditto when I asked her to dinner the next week. And when after a very pleasant evening I leaned in to kiss her cheek, she met me with her warm, soft lips.
I spent the better part of a month waiting for the other shoe to drop, sure that this had to be some sort of Trojan horse, that Cassie was simply too good to be true. It took the eyes of an outsider to finally clue me in.
I took Cassie on a lunch date with some long-time friends of mine. Kenneth and Melody used to double-date with Janice and I back in college, but unlike my ill-fated romance, they had been happily married for several years now. Naturally I spoke to them afterwards to get their impressions. I'd expected Melody to give me a little grief about the age difference, but she waved that away. "She's twice as smart as any three of those college skanks you used to go out with. You finally found one I can talk to without using small words; who cares if she's a little bit younger?"
However, what I paid particular attention to was when Melody talked about how Cassandra was clearly fond of me. "Cassie completely dotes on your every word. She's practically deferential to you."
I was of course elated to get some confirmation that Cassie's affection for me was not just wishful thinking on my part. But the "deferential" term suddenly had me recasting the past weeks in a new light. Cassie had been letting me take lead on much of the decisions in the relationship. When to go out, where to go, what to do - virtually always she me make the call.
I'd just chalked that up to the usual "I want to do whatever you want to do" behavior so common when you're trying to please someone at the start of a relationship. However, I've limited patience for cutesy tip-toeing around the bush waiting for the other person to express a preference, so I usually cut to the chase and make a decision. So in that respect, things with Cassie hadn't been all that different.
But looking back, Cassie had seemed to actually enjoy it when I took charge. And not just in a "Thank God one of us made a decision" sigh of relief. Recalling her warm smiles at such time, it seemed more like she took a warm comfort in entrusting herself to my care.
That also threw a more recent incident into a new light as well. My "take it slow" policy didn't forbid all physical contact, so we'd been in the habit of ending our dates with a vigorous make-out session on the couch. Though we'd never set actual limits, I kept my hands away from the naughty areas and never removed or unbuttoned any clothing (hers or mine). But at our most recent session, I suddenly realized that Cassie's hands were unbuckling my belt. I was still holding off on escalating our physical relationship, but I knew I couldn't stick to that with her hands on my cock.
Unfortunately I couldn't instruct her to stop because her tongue was currently exploring mine, severely inhibiting any attempt at speech. And with her laying atop me, I couldn't get to her hands without shoving her out of the way. So desperate to arrest her attention, in the heat of the moment I chose the body part nearest at hand: her butt.
Again, because of the heat of the moment, what I intended as just a little attention-getter instead turned into a fairly forceful slap that connected with a sharp crack. She broke off our kiss immediately with this slightly stunned expression in her eyes. Not wanting to appear any more foolish, I covered with bravado. "Cassandra," I intoned, "I've told you it's not the right time for that." She smiled meekly and nodded her assent. At the time I was just glad to have dodged a bullet, but looking back, there'd been more to it. That smile on Cassie's lips wasn't abashed apology, but rather pleased acceptance.
I'd read about relationships where women actually preferred their man to be rather dominant. Could Cassie be such a woman? Was my willingness to take charge what she found so appealing?
I didn't dare ask. If I was wrong, she might be offended that I regarded her quiet demeanor as an invitation to be chauvinistic. But if I was right, perhaps having to ask would make me seem indecisive and weak.
Instead, I decided to test things on our next outing by being more aggressive about setting the agenda. When I called her, I didn't so much ask her out as tell her when I would be picking her up. She didn't bat an eye. At dinner, I suggested I order for her and she readily demurred.
My suspicions proved all the moreso when I got her on the couch later that night. Sure enough, her hands began straying to my crotch again. I gave her a few moments, then gave her a sharp smack on the ass. Once again she squeaked and sat upright while I cautioned her that it was not yet time for that.
This time, however, I followed my words up with a second hard smack. "And that's for making me tell you twice."
Her reaction erased any lingering doubts. The look on her face approached bliss. More telling, her nipples had become diamond-hard nubs as thick as my thumb straining mightily against the fabric of her dress. Cassie clearly didn't just take comfort in ceding control to me; she was actually aroused by it.
I left her wanting one last time, leaving before I let my own desires get the better of me. With this newfound knowledge, I wanted to plan something special for her.
Thus had I decided that tonight would be the night where we would take things to the next level. I'd called her earlier in the week and told her I'd be taking her to the theater tonight. I'd also instructed her to wear a little black dress (don't all women have one?) and high heels because I wanted to see her legs. She sounded pleased at this additional direction.
I headed out the door. I was a little anxious about the night ahead, but in a good way. If all went well, it would be one to remember.
I put a dash of cologne on and checked my appearance in the mirror for the twelfth time. Tonight was the night Cassie and I took it to the next level, so I wanted to look my best.
Tonight had been a bit of a long time arriving, but its delay was entirely my own making. By our fourth date, Cassie had clearly been ready to move things along physically. I hadn't missed the trace of surprise in her eyes when I calmly refused her subtle invitation into her bedroom.
I left her with the vague impression that my "taking it slow" had something to do with noble adherence to high standards. The truth was a bit more the opposite: I was attempting to shield myself from my own baser instincts.
I met my college sweetheart Janice two weeks into my freshman year and we stayed together till we eventually recognized that our post-graduate plans were too divergent to remain together. I steadfastly avoided looking for serious relationships for a time and focused entirely on the physical. I hit the bars and clubs and met countless women. Some became one-night stands. Others I dated for short periods, sometimes juggling two or three at once intermixed with my one-time conquests. At the time, I thought I was a young buck having fun.
A pregnancy scare in my early 30s finally woke me up. I looked across the table at the woman telling me she was late and realized that aside from her great ass, I didn't really like this person. Yet here I was facing the prospect of raising a child with her. Though that turned out to be a false alarm, this brush with reality made me take a sobering look at my life.
I recognized two things. First, this mindless pursuit of bedroom amusements had provided little pockets of pleasure, but no sustained happiness. In retrospect, this "fun" period was actually a fairly miserable one. My mindless pursuit of quick satisfaction had yielded a string of hollow relationships that had no chance of succeeding.
Second, had I not let myself be distracted by shallow concerns, I'd have recognized early on the dead ends at the end of these couplings. I had not abandoned my standards so much as declined to apply them. The signs had been there had only I been willing to look. But with visions of pulchritude dancing in my brain, I had glossed over the obvious and let my groin do my thinking. Even in some of the longer attachments, each of us was clearly lingering on for little more than a mutual appreciation for the other's genitals.
Clearly my own judgment was easily swayed by such temptation, so my slow policy existed to protect me from myself. By forestalling the physical, I forced myself to take account of the woman's entirety, not just her figure. And if such an examination revealed some deal-breaking flaw, I found it impossible to pretend otherwise and proceed forward.
The policy went to immediate effect upon meeting Cassie. A grad student in her mid-20s, she was unquestionably beautiful. Her hair was a glossy black that cascaded halfway down her back in silken waves when she didn't have it tucked up into a bun. Light green eyes flashed above a faint trace of freckles on high cheekbones and a gentle smile. Down below this angelic face lay a body apparently constructed by some dark lord. Her 5'4" frame was slender, but flared beautifully into a toned ass and what had to be the firmest pair of breasts that size I have ever seen.
Given the vision of loveliness before me, I knew I couldn't trust my first impressions. But if I held off on temptation for a date or two, no doubt she would reveal herself to be the harpy she truly was.
Except that didn't happen. She was bright and educated. She spoke softly and had a gentle kindness to her. She didn't espouse some radical political or religious agenda. She didn't curse like a sailor, smoke like a chimney, or drink like a fish. She got along with my dog. Over the next few dates, none of the usual warning flags went up
But the lack of flags was in its own way disconcerting to me. From the jump, I'd thought Cassie a bit out of my league. I'm a decent-looking guy - sandy blond hair, blue eyes, broad shoulders, slightly curved nose (remnant of a childhood elbow to the face), 5'11", trim frame, etc. But given that I'm in my late 30s, the age difference would suggest that I've got some special quality to warrant her dating outside her peer group. But I'm not particularly handsome, tall, muscular, rich, or famous. So what did she see instead
Honestly, I was surprised we even went out in the first place. Standing in line at a busy Starbucks, I'd made a remark about the book she was carrying. Instead of just nodding politely, she asked if I'd read some of the author's earlier works. We ended up chatting for 10 minutes before I had to get back to work.
At that point, I said something like, "Good talking with you. We'll have to do it again sometime." I honestly intended as one of those meaningless things you say to people you'll never see again. Perhaps I was flirting a little, but only in the way you might wink at a cute cashier, expecting nothing to come of it. But Cassie bobbed her head and said, "Good idea," and scribbled her phone number on a scrap of paper. I hadn't expected that.
The progression of our relationship continued to have that trace of unreality to it. She hadn't given me a fake number. She didn't blow me off when I invited her out for coffee again. Ditto when I asked her to dinner the next week. And when after a very pleasant evening I leaned in to kiss her cheek, she met me with her warm, soft lips.
I spent the better part of a month waiting for the other shoe to drop, sure that this had to be some sort of Trojan horse, that Cassie was simply too good to be true. It took the eyes of an outsider to finally clue me in.
I took Cassie on a lunch date with some long-time friends of mine. Kenneth and Melody used to double-date with Janice and I back in college, but unlike my ill-fated romance, they had been happily married for several years now. Naturally I spoke to them afterwards to get their impressions. I'd expected Melody to give me a little grief about the age difference, but she waved that away. "She's twice as smart as any three of those college skanks you used to go out with. You finally found one I can talk to without using small words; who cares if she's a little bit younger?"
However, what I paid particular attention to was when Melody talked about how Cassandra was clearly fond of me. "Cassie completely dotes on your every word. She's practically deferential to you."
I was of course elated to get some confirmation that Cassie's affection for me was not just wishful thinking on my part. But the "deferential" term suddenly had me recasting the past weeks in a new light. Cassie had been letting me take lead on much of the decisions in the relationship. When to go out, where to go, what to do - virtually always she me make the call.
I'd just chalked that up to the usual "I want to do whatever you want to do" behavior so common when you're trying to please someone at the start of a relationship. However, I've limited patience for cutesy tip-toeing around the bush waiting for the other person to express a preference, so I usually cut to the chase and make a decision. So in that respect, things with Cassie hadn't been all that different.
But looking back, Cassie had seemed to actually enjoy it when I took charge. And not just in a "Thank God one of us made a decision" sigh of relief. Recalling her warm smiles at such time, it seemed more like she took a warm comfort in entrusting herself to my care.
That also threw a more recent incident into a new light as well. My "take it slow" policy didn't forbid all physical contact, so we'd been in the habit of ending our dates with a vigorous make-out session on the couch. Though we'd never set actual limits, I kept my hands away from the naughty areas and never removed or unbuttoned any clothing (hers or mine). But at our most recent session, I suddenly realized that Cassie's hands were unbuckling my belt. I was still holding off on escalating our physical relationship, but I knew I couldn't stick to that with her hands on my cock.
Unfortunately I couldn't instruct her to stop because her tongue was currently exploring mine, severely inhibiting any attempt at speech. And with her laying atop me, I couldn't get to her hands without shoving her out of the way. So desperate to arrest her attention, in the heat of the moment I chose the body part nearest at hand: her butt.
Again, because of the heat of the moment, what I intended as just a little attention-getter instead turned into a fairly forceful slap that connected with a sharp crack. She broke off our kiss immediately with this slightly stunned expression in her eyes. Not wanting to appear any more foolish, I covered with bravado. "Cassandra," I intoned, "I've told you it's not the right time for that." She smiled meekly and nodded her assent. At the time I was just glad to have dodged a bullet, but looking back, there'd been more to it. That smile on Cassie's lips wasn't abashed apology, but rather pleased acceptance.
I'd read about relationships where women actually preferred their man to be rather dominant. Could Cassie be such a woman? Was my willingness to take charge what she found so appealing?
I didn't dare ask. If I was wrong, she might be offended that I regarded her quiet demeanor as an invitation to be chauvinistic. But if I was right, perhaps having to ask would make me seem indecisive and weak.
Instead, I decided to test things on our next outing by being more aggressive about setting the agenda. When I called her, I didn't so much ask her out as tell her when I would be picking her up. She didn't bat an eye. At dinner, I suggested I order for her and she readily demurred.
My suspicions proved all the moreso when I got her on the couch later that night. Sure enough, her hands began straying to my crotch again. I gave her a few moments, then gave her a sharp smack on the ass. Once again she squeaked and sat upright while I cautioned her that it was not yet time for that.
This time, however, I followed my words up with a second hard smack. "And that's for making me tell you twice."
Her reaction erased any lingering doubts. The look on her face approached bliss. More telling, her nipples had become diamond-hard nubs as thick as my thumb straining mightily against the fabric of her dress. Cassie clearly didn't just take comfort in ceding control to me; she was actually aroused by it.
I left her wanting one last time, leaving before I let my own desires get the better of me. With this newfound knowledge, I wanted to plan something special for her.
Thus had I decided that tonight would be the night where we would take things to the next level. I'd called her earlier in the week and told her I'd be taking her to the theater tonight. I'd also instructed her to wear a little black dress (don't all women have one?) and high heels because I wanted to see her legs. She sounded pleased at this additional direction.
I headed out the door. I was a little anxious about the night ahead, but in a good way. If all went well, it would be one to remember.
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