A "cyber-community....." I just did something I haven't done before.

[riff]

I deleted everyone from my buddy list.
I deleted every PM I have recieved.
I deleted every PM I have sent.

I am far too trusting for my own good.

Marxist's thread upsets me. It upsets me because it is so completely undermining of any concept of trust, friendship, or fellow-feeling.

(grab a tissue, please).

See, I PM several people every day. Most of them will PM me back. Not all of them are female. Some are just other men who I think are decent and intelligent types.

I feel a little guilty because one of my "girlfriends" has totally ceased to reply to my messages. Total breakdown of communication. It makes me sad, because I want to imagine that if she didn't like me PMing her or sending her little e-mails she would tell me "Please STOP." And Marxist, the compassionate, loyal, brave, inspirational, and builder of community and goodwill, wrote the thread about needy literotica males.

It really put a lump in my throat. I want to say that there are about 3 people on the board that I feel I could trust- and now feel like I am down to like 1 or 2 because they are for the most part on vacation or unplugged.

It's really a pity, it seems to me, that people cannot be forthright and honest. I know I am very disappointed in myself when I discover that I am not playing straight.

Until I feel comfortable and safe again, I am not PMing, e-mailing, or telephoning anyone I know from this site unless I hear from them first.

If you are someone whom I wished would respond and chooses not to, well so be it. That's cool. I don't come here to fuck with peoples heads or emotions.

And if you want to flame me on this thread, then go ahead. I'll just tell you "fuck you," in advance, because I have no intention of arguing with anyone.

Have a good one.

riff

 

[*bratcat*]

 

[sexy-girl]

riff marxist was being marxist ... i like marxist but sometimes he doesnt think before he posts ... he often doesnt mean anything indepth usually ... i wouldnt take it to heart and i wouldnt let him change who you are ... because although we've never pm'd you seem like a pretty decent guy to me

 

[perks]

riff,
being open and sharing and building a support system isn't needy.

Needy is when you need to monopolize a persons time to the extent they can't breathe and aren't allowed to talk to someone else because you get completely jealous and insane.

You're not needy.

Just because you need and want, doesn't mean you're annoying or overstepping boundaries.

Carlton<Marxist> is just a different fish, not everyone is judged by the same criteria.

put me back on your list, freak.

 

[riff]

Well, can't see where I have monopolized anyone's time. If anything, I have been deferring.

Maybe some people are letting me live rent free in their head (same way I allow some to board up in mine).

 

[April]

Stop it Riff. You know you're always welcome in my PM box. I enjoy hearing from you on the rare occasions you show up.

 

[J.B.]

riff.
We really don't talk to each other, but hang in there man.

 

[Purple Haze]

I think I'll go open Marxists thread.....

 

[Guest]

Riff,
You must do what you think is right. You must take care of you. But, I wish you wouldn't compromise your caring spirit, in the process. You can only control your actions, dear. Hang in there.

 

[freakygirl]

My PM box is open to anyone who needs it.

 

[riff]

I'm fine. I am in the process of cleaning out the deadwood in my off-line life right now, might as well bring it on-line too.

I live a rich existance. But the candle burns at both ends and there is only so much wax. I don't want to waste what little light I've got on shit.

And a person can only stick their hand out so many times before they start saying, "What the fuck am I doing?"

 

[Guest]

I am all for self-preservation.
I fear cynicism, though.
It traps easily.

 

[April]

Cleaning out the dead wood is a great idea. Just don't bar the door, okay?

 

[BeautifulBBW]

My oh my

I opened this thread and then decided to first read Marxists thread first. I am speechless (which takes a lot to do). Just wanted to say my PM box is allows open.


Now if only this virgin title might take leave I might get PM'd more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[riff]

I am all for self-preservation.
I fear cynicism, though.
It traps easily.

I am not a cynic.

I am an optimist, but I don't think it helps much.

 

[Guest]

I know that you're not, presently. That is what I fear. I think you are special and unique.
Damn, don't make me break out into a Billy Joel song.

 

[Shaq]

Cleaning out the dead wood is a great idea. Just don't bar the door, okay?

"When metaphors are stretched to far...tonight on Fox"

 

[April]

"When metaphors are stretched to far...tonight on Fox"

LMFAO!! I knew it sucked, but didn't much care. Hehehe.

 

[cymbidia]

I get a lot of PM's and send a lot of them out, too. I get answers to some and don't to others. I give answers to some and intend to answer others, but then don't for whatever reason. I know i won't answer some of the pm's, again for whatever reason.

I almost never send/get pm's to/from people that i don't like; therefore, if i don't give or get an answer, it's not for that reason.

I'm not particularly needy, either, and i figure everyone at Lit is a lot like me. In other words, i'm really not very unique in my Lit-needs. Mostly everyone is not particularly needy.

I didn't read Marxist's thread because, well, you gotta pick and choose what you let in your brain, right? I spend a lot of time over in the BDSM forum and, so, have to be a little picky about my what i do in GB time.

I read your stuff, fairly often. I pass Marxist's over, fairly often. Marxist and i seem to see the world differently. I'm not better and he worse, nor the converse - we're just different kinds of people. You and i see the world differently, too, riff, but not so markedly as Marxist and i. One spends time here doing what they most enjoy. I don't particularly like personal conflict, political, look-at-me-right-now!, or who is the [fill in the blank] person at Lit threads.

You seem a fairly well-balanced kinda man. You gotta pick and choose what you let into your brain, riff - you know that. Let the stuff that doesn't fit slide right off and just keep on going past it.

Of course, we all have days when our skin is a little thin, right? Then stuff hurts that we might not ever feel, ordinarily.

 

[bluntforcemama]

Well, I've never gotten a PM from you. A pity, really.

 

[Marxist]

I get a lot of PM's - and send a lot out, too. I get answers to some and don't to others. I give answers to some and intend to answer others, but just don't for whatever reason. Some of them i know i won't answer, again for whatever reason.

I almost never get pm's -osend them- from/to people i don't like; therefore, if i don't get an answer, it's not for that reason. If i don't answer one, it's, again, not because i don't like the person who sent it.

I'm not needy. I figure everyone at Lit is a lot like me. In other words - i'm really not very unique in my Lit-needs.

I didn't read Marxist's thread because, well, a woman has to pick and choose what she lets in her brain, right? I spend a lot of time over in the BDSM forum and, so, have to be a bit particular about what i read and post to when i'm over here.

I read your stuff. I pass Marxist's over a lot of the time cuz he and i, well, we see the world differently. Very differently. I'm not better and he worse, nor the converse - we're just different kinds of people.

You seem a fairly well-balanced kinda man. You gotta pick and choose what you let live in your brain, riff - you know that. Let the stuff that doesn't fit slide right off and just keep on going past it.

Of course, we all have days when our skin is a little thin, right? Then stuff hurts that we might not ever feel, ordinarily.

Wow, that was low-calorie but delicious nonetheless. I can't really be so evil as to not be ALLOWED in someone's brain, can I? That's super-duper rich.

 

[TN_Vixen]

it's called a "mental cock-block" and don't get offended marxy, but I do it to you all the time.

 

[bluntforcemama]

hehe... I do that to miles on a regular basis. Vixen, come hither lil' Fudd.

 

[TN_Vixen]

shhhh! Be vewy vewy qwiet!

You're going to tease me again, aren't you Myst?

 

[bluntforcemama]

Oh yeh, now pucker up.