A Closed Heart (closed for Mairu)

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It was a dark corner of the secret night club named “Bondage”. Leo Winchester was sitting there drinking his first vodka. The atmosphere around him was noisy and electric. Many people were moving around him. It was a crowded place. Some of them were drinking and watching the show on the center stage.

On the center stage, a few feet away from Leo, there was a show going on in full flow. Half naked bodies of two dancers, one male and one female, were dancing in the rhythm. The woman was tied to the table on the stage and the man was dancing around her.

Leo was watching the show with very less interest. He was scanning and observing people around him, especially women. There were many women in the club. They were wearing pretty dresses and makeups. Some of their clothes were quite revealing. He was watching them with admiration and lust. It was his play time. He wanted to pick one from the crowd and charmed her to the bed. He was very successful in doing that. He had an amazing ability to seduce women.

So far, it was a not very good night for Leo. He didn’t find any interesting woman. His gaze was shifting from one woman to another to find the most attractive and the right one. He was quite choosy when it came to women.

Then Leo saw her. She was sitting at a table with a few girls. She caught his eyes because of her beauty. The second thing he noticed was, she DID look bored. She wasn’t paying any attention the talk of the girls around her. She looked alone and dejected. She was shifting her gaze from one corner to another. The only time her facial expressions changed when she watched the show on the center stage. She watched the female performer, tied to the table, with some interest. Leo could identify some lust in her eyes. He decided to watch her closely so he got up and set on the table, a few feet away from her.

 

[Mairu]

Sasha sighed as she sat in the BDSM club bored out of her mind. Why was she even here, she thought. Oh right her only friend in the world convinced her to come. So here she was, sipping her Dr. Pepper and bored to death. Part of the reason she was so bored was because she had recently had a horrible experience with a Dom, that had ended with her shutting everybody off. Her one friend she had now had been through a similar situation but believed that person wasn't a Dom and a real Dom would be different, and that is where she and her friend's opinions differed. Sasha thought the person she had been with had shown her the real BDSM and now she wanted no part in it, but she had let her friend drag her here, bored to death.

The only thing that kept her from leaving each time she was about to, was the show in the middle. Her eyes were glued to the show for a good while everytime she looked, but it wasn't the mn she was interested in. It was the woman tied to the table. Now 90% of Sasha was thinking, how could that woman, take it? While the other 10% was thinkimg, I would like to be that woman. So Sasha watched, showing a little interest when her eyes weren't looking everywhere else, which was getting to be less often all the time. Sasha was also thankful she had worn black jeans, a modest black t-shirt and long black fingerless gloves so that she wasn't noticed, since people liked women who wore more revealing clothes.

 

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Leo observed her intensely. She was watching the female performer with deep interest. Her expressions changed immediately when the male perfomer put himself between the spread legs of the female performer. The female performer was wearing a black leather panties and same type of bra.

The male performer was also wearing a black leather underwear. He placed himself between her legs and started a dry humping of her leather clad pelvic. He imposed his muscular naked body on her. He put her legs on his shoulders and started the dry humping. It was a mimicking act of the sex.

The expressions on the face of the female performer were changed. She bit her lip and closed her eyes. She was displaying the extreme pleasure and lust on her face. Her hands grabbed the ropes and pulled them. She started moving her pelvic, synchronizing with the movements of the male performer.

Leo watched the expressions on the girl sitting on the next table. First she was shocked when the male performer started thrusting. Then, the lust took over her face. She crossed her legs. There were a few drops of sweat formed on her forehead. He could tell from the distance she was aroused.

 

[Mairu]

Sasha was very shocked when the male performer started dry humping the female performer and then for now the 10% and 90% switched, but Sasha knew in the corner of her mind she would never be like that female again, even as she grew aroused, crossing her legs and a few beads of sweat forming as she breathed deeply. After a few minutes she shook her head though, once more her blue eyes going cold and the sides switching back, reminding her that this wasn't what she wanted, that BDSM wasn't for her. Even if she liked being called pet and had wanted to wear the pretty black choker collar with red rose on the front, she couldn't. This wasn't for her. She kept repeating those 2 last sentences as she watched the performers and sipped her drink, feeling lonely behind her facade.

 

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Leo saw she was shaking her head. A denial of the feelings, that’s interesting, He thought. He realized something should be done here. He decided he wanted to talk to her. He wanted to demolish her denial of the feelings.

Leo waited until her friends left her for some moments. When he saw she was alone, he approached her and stood right above her. She was still watching the show.

“Interesting performance, Isn’t it. I think it is quite extraordinary, especially the girl. What you think, Miss….” He asked her.

 

[Mairu]

Sasha continued watching the show even after the other girls left. She could get her own ride home. Sasha then tilted her head up as a man came up to her, asking what she thought of it. "I think the poor girl doesn't have a clue what she is doing, that she doesn't know the harshness of true BDSM. That once she does find out she will wish she never knew of BDSM. That is what I think, no offense." Yes she just did that and if the man left she wouldn't blame him she thought as she sipped the last of her drink and then asked for another.

 

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Leo watched the girl closely. She was beautiful. She had big blue eyes and juicy lips. She was wearing a black T-shirt and black jeans. She was trying her best not to get noticed. Her legs were still crossed. Another thing he noticed was the fingerless gloves on her hands. He wondered, why was she wearing them?

Leo was expecting that kind of remarks from her. He saw she ordered another drink. He signaled the bartender that the drink was on him.

Leo took a chair next to her and told her,” Hi, I am Leo. If you don’t mind, can I sit here?” Then he added,” So, tell me, what do you think about the true BDSM?”

 

[Mairu]

Sasha raised an eyebrow as he signaled the bartender that he was paying and she bit back a laugh. Guys always thought if they bought your drink you would fall head over heels for them, well Sasha was smarter now and wouldn't fall for it. Then he asked about sitting down. "Go ahead, not like I have anyone else to talk to or anything anyway." Which was the way she had come to like it, why she wore fingerless gloves, they covered the scars so people didn't ask questions, but didn't restrict the movement of her fingers.

The next question he asked surprised her but she decided to be blunt. "I think the true BDSM is when the Dom beats the crap out of the Sub and she is supposed to take it, because it is what she signed up for. It's also were the Dom gets to take the Sub for his own needs and pleasure and not care a damn about what she might need or like and because of these things I want no part in it." Right then the bartender came with her drink and she sipped it again, mostly hoping this man would leave her alone now. It was part of the reason she said it that way instead of the nicer ways she could have said what she thought, her eyes and the air around her as cold as ice.

 

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Leo knew she was trying to blow him away, but he didn’t interest in her ploys. He was shocked by her answer. She doesn’t have a clue about the real BDSM, He thought. He had some intentions to charm her to the bed, but he changed his mind after hearing her answer.

“I politely disagree with you, Miss. You have some wrong ideas about the BDSM. It’s about the pleasure; you get by putting some other person’s need ahead of you. It’s about letting go your control over things that happens to you. It’s about the trusting. It’s about feeling pleasure in extreme pain. And what kind of Dom beats the crap out of a sub without his or her consent? A true Dom really cares about his/her Sub. The Dom knew what the Sub wants and provides it.” He ended his little speech with a sip of the vodka.

 

[Mairu]

Sasha listened to his answer her coldness growing to sadness as she remembered what had happened to her. "Trust? Ha! When you give control and trust them all they do is abuse you, they don't care about your needs, all they care about is there own pleasure, delighting in your pain and anguish and trapping you and punishing you for even saying your mind, even bringing up a small worry, or a limit you don't want to go past. Whipping you until your bleeding terribly and even then they won't let you go to a hospital because they know it's abuse." Sasha's eyes had a few tears in them, glazing over a bit as the memories haunted her and she shook. "Trust? There cannot be trust. Only terror. You're fooling yourself if you think that a person wants to be whipped until he or she can no longer sit or lay down without terrible pain shooting through their body."

 

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Leo was shocked by her answer. He could sense, she was talking about her own experience. He didn’t know she had such a painful full experience. He felt sorry for bringing this up and causing her some pain. He wanted to get up from his chair and hug her to make her less miserable, but he knew he couldn’t do that because they were still strangers.

Leo felt anger against the guy who did this to her. The morons like him were dishonored the real BDSM. He knew a few of them and hated them for using innocent girls for their sick needs.

“I am really sorry. I think I brought some painful memories in your mind. There are some jerks, who use Ds to fulfill their pleasure. They must be punished by all means. They must be brought to the justice.” He told her in a soft voice.

 

[Mairu]

Sasha was shocked to the core with what Leo said. She didn't fully understand. 'Wasn't BDSM about the extreme pain? That was why she left because she found out what BDSM really was about.' "What do you mean? I admit that the pain is excruciating and no one should have to go through it, but you make it sound, like that isn't what BDSM is about. Why is that?" Sasha was now confused by Leo, she thought just maybe she had been wrong and judged BDSM too quickly, but she still highly doubted it.

 

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Leo smiled at Sasha’s question. She doesn't have a clue about BDSM, he thought. Someone did mislead her. Leo thought her definition of BDSM was messed up.

“Well, In reality, It isn't. I think BDSM is about giving the control of the situation, to a trustworthy person. You could feel free like a bird after giving the control to the right person. It’s about the pleasure you get by surrendering yourself to the right person. It’s about getting pleasure from other’s happiness. How could a Dom be happy after hurting you without your consent? I don’t think the person you have chosen as your Dom was a real one. He might be some psycho who wanted his own pleasure by hurting you.” He told her with a faint smile on his face.

 

[Mairu]

Sasha listened, her heart thawing a bit towards this man as she listened, but with that came the pain and she started silently crying, putting her drink down. She had never cried, sealing her emotions away as she froze her heart, but with it thawing her emotions showed and she looked distressed, not knowing what to do, the crying bringing a wave of loneliness, having been so long, not even having a hug and she started breathing quickly, once again trying to seal her emotions as she rubbed her tears away.

 

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Leo felt Sasha’s pain. He watched her gloomy and sad face. She tried to resist her emotions, but she failed miserably. He couldn’t help himself. He was in the chair next to her. He leaned forward and gave her a hug. It was a friendly, caring hug. Then, he told her, “It’s alright, the pain in your heart will go away slowly. You will be out of this misery in no time. Time is the greatest healer.”

Leo did that on impulse. He saw her in misery and wanted to make her comfortable. He didn’t even know her name but for some strange reason he couldn’t see her in pain.

 

[Mairu]

Sasha gasped as Leo hugged her, letting the tears flow and clutching at his shirt, find just a bit of comfort in his arms and pressed against him, the tears slowing and she realized he still didn't know her name. "Uh, I'm sorry but I forgot to tell you my name. It's Sasha." With that she closed her eyes, leaning into him.

 

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Leo held Sasha in his arms. He let her cry on his shoulder. He knew she would feel better after her emotional outburst. He caressed her back to calm her down. He let her clutch his shirt. He also felt good because he hugged a girl without any sexual intentions. For some strange reason, he didn’t want to let her body go. He wished she wouldn’t break their hug.

“Hi Sasha, I am Leo,” He told her with a soothing voice.

 

[Mairu]

Sasha slowly calmed down and let go of her clutch on his shirt and realized that he was still hugging her, but she didn't want to pull away. 'Why did she not want to pull away?? What was wrong with her?!' She tried to make herself pull away but her body wouldn't budge. Actually all it wanted to do was go onto his lap and lay her head on his chest. 'Oh hell what was wrong with her?' This time she used all of her strength and pulled away slowly and began sipping her drink, freaking out inside. "Thank you for that, but you didn't have to comfort me if you didn't want to. The last guy I was with would actually punish me if I cried or was too happy and stuff like that, so you don't have to be nice. I'm actually used to it." Sasha's face was still sad, sipping her drink absently.

 

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Leo let Sasha go when she pulled away from him. He liked their little closeness. He saw she was still sad he observed her face, she wasn’t crying, but her expressions were telling him, she was still in pain. He wanted to comfort her. He heard her, talking about the guy who punished her for crying or for being too happy.

“He must be a jerk. A psycho would do that kind of stuff to another human being,” He told her that with some anger in his voice. “Well, forget all that. You are here. So enjoy the evening. I will try my best to make you happy, “He added.

 

[Mairu]

Sasha was surprised to hear anger in his voice, not because the emotion itself was new, but because who it was aimed at was new. Then he brought a slight smile to her face as he continued to talk, a little warmth coming into her heart. "Thank you." She then sipped her drink again, some of the pain and coldness now gone from her eyes, replaced with warmth. Though not all the ice had perished.

 

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Leo felt the warmth of Sasha’s smile. He was happy because he brought the smile on her face. He also felt she was opening up. He emptied his glass of vodka. He smiled at the response to her thank you.

“Since you have no idea about BDSM, I want to show you something. Can you trust me?” he asked her seriously.

 

[Mairu]

Sasha was again surprised as Leo said he wanted to show her something and she hesitated slightly not sure, but she felt as though she could trust him and put her drink down. "Alright, I think I can trust you, what do you want to show me?"

 

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Leo got up from the chair and stretched his hand to Sasha. He guided her to a dark corridor. They entered the corridor together. There were a few rooms at the end of the passage. There was a huge guy standing at one of the doors. Leo approached him and smiled at him. The huge guy knew him so he smiled back.

Leo wanted to surprise Sasha but he couldn’t resist telling her.

“Well, Sasha, First, I wanted to thank you for trusting me. We are going to watch a real life version of BDSM. There will be a Dom and a Sub in the next room. They might do some sexual things. There’s a two way mirror between the rooms. We will watch them doing some things. I hope you don’t mind seeing some nude bodies. You will get the idea of how things work between them.” He explained to her.

 

[Mairu]

Sasha watched Leo as he led her and was surprised when he said about what he was going to show her and Sasha got nervous but decided to trust that Leo knew what he was doing. "I'm fine with nude bodies, I just hope it's different then what happened to me." Sasha sincerely did, wanting to believe that BDSM was different, but she didn't have a lot of faith in it.

 

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Leo approached Sasha and slowly put his hands on her cheeks. He caressed her cheeks. He looked into her beautiful eyes. He wanted to give her confidence.

“I won’t let anything happen to you, trust me. If anything reminds you your horrible experience, we will leave the room immediately,” He told her with a comforting voice.