A bit of sadness

[joolushko]

Tonight my husband took me over the New York-New York Casino to see sixteen tons of mangled steel from one of the World Trade Center towers and a battered New York City fire engine. I really didn't want to go. I know the truck and the engine from my father's house were both destroyed. I have ridden in both. I did not want to see either of them in a horrible state.

The closer we got to the casino as we went down Las Vegas Blvd, I started to feel the tears well up in my eyes. I took deep breaths to try and calm myself and be nonchalant about it. At first glimpse, I felt relief when there was a ladder, if it was one from my father's house, it wouldn't have been his direct one, his was an engine. As we got closer, I realized there was no way it was the ladder from his house. During the new coverage on 9/11, they always showed Rescue 5 all destroyed and a burnt out shell. This truck was more intact. On the side of the truck, there was written in black spray paint 152 - Queens. I

couldn't help crying. It was so sad to see. It was hell for me to be stuck in Vegas when my entire family was in NY, including my husband, during 9/11. I was here all alone. Seeing the truck brought back those feelings.

 

[Ginny]

oh jo.....<lil tears welling up>....i'm so sorry.....how hard for you...bless your heart....

 

[Guest]

I'm sorry for your pain. I don't know what else to say.

 

[#1tankcomander]

I know your pain and suffering all too well. Even though mine was in war time and to see the wall brought back memories as well.

You never seem to get over it through the years. They are remembered in our memories both good and sad.

Hope things get better as time goes on for you.

Take care, #1

 

[joolushko]

Thank you for all your kind words. I am just feeling really sad, in a funk, right now. I told him I didn't want to see it because it would upset me but he thought it would be better that I did see.

 

[CarolineOh]

Thank you for all your kind words. I am just feeling really sad, in a funk, right now. I told him I didn't want to see it because it would upset me but he thought it would be better that I did see.

I know it doesn't feel like it now, but in the long run, I think you will be glad he got you to go.

My heart goes out to you and yours,Joolushka.

 

[weed]

Hey, Jool...sorry to hear you're so blue

Though it may be tough to see those things, to bring up the pain you felt before, maybe it will be good for you as your husband thinks. For your sake, I hope so.

Hopefully he can be with you now to help you through what you're feeling.

 

[Ginny]

honoring the heroes in my heart....

http://www.house.gov/callahan/images/firefighters.jpg

 

[Up Too Late]

I'm with you

Jool, my heart goes out to you and your family. You know I'll always be here for you.

 

[rider]

{{Hugs}}

Joolushko, I can understand how hard that must have been for you. Every day I think of my 343 brothers lost that day...it is hard. You have family in any fire station in the world, and if you need to talk about anything, use that resource. We will welcome you, at any time. My thoughts are with you.

 

[InnocentAngel81]

i'm sorry ::hug::

 

[Guest]

{{{{{ Jool }}}}}

I will think of you and the 152 Queens house today.

 

[Vinny]

Re: honoring the heroes in my heart....

http://www.house.gov/callahan/images/firefighters.jpg

This picture brings back memories, I seen this flag being raised up close and eveytime I see it it gives me motivation to kick some ass. J I am with you and if you ever need to open up about this, I can relate so drop me a PM Vinny

 

[Ginny]

http://www.portfolios.com/Pics/deandavis1/deandavis1_1_p.JPG


jo....i'm not all emotionally touchy feely on the boards.....your story hurled me back to 9/11 last night...and it's been on my mind since.....made me feel it all again.....great time to do so.....to remember.....on today.....our Independence Day....as we celebrate all that America is.....

thank you for sharing...and making us all remember...feel it from your perspective.....

 

[Ginny]

http://www.portfolios.com/Pics/peterkrogh/peterkrogh_1_p.JPG

 

[Ginny]

http://www.portfolios.com/Pics/druidlaw/druidlaw_11_p.JPG

 

[joolushko]

Wow everyone, thanks.

Ginny, wonderful pics and I am sorry to hurl you back like that.

rider, my father was FDNY for 25 years and my grandfather, my mom's side, was FDNY who died fighting a fire on June 27, 1961. So firefigthers are in my blood on both side of my family.

Manx, you are always sweet.

UpTooLate, I know you are always game to talk.