49[M4F] seeks online relationship

[outofwittyideas]

What had been barely bearable when there was the escape of work became miserable under the strain of isolation within our house. The temper, the anger, everything magnified and I have spent more time protecting than living.

I am not the first married man to ask for an online relationship here; I doubt I will be the last. I would just like to have some sense of normalcy in my life of turmoil and confusion.

 

[outofwittyideas]

Thank you and farewell

To everyone who offered me hope or wrote, I am truly grateful. For what little time I have had on Literotica, it has been fun when it all worked.

Recent events have proven that I really am not in a good place for anything outside of the confines of my abusive marriage. Many of my present behaviors, built under years of scorn and attacks, are not conducive for a proper relationship with a loving lady. I have been configured to live one way; thus, happiness is, and will remain, outside of my grasp.

I have but a few more years of this marriage to endure as my kids approach leaving the nest. Then I will be free to leave, deprogram and try anew late in my fifties. Any chance of happiness is worth more than guaranteed misery.

So, I am saying farewell to Lit, the forum and the chance to find someone who can help me through these last years. I will come back when I can be a better partner to whomever I find.

Thank you for the fun memories. I wish you all happiness, no matter how it comes...or cums.