SolarisDom
Experienced
- Joined
- Sep 12, 2006
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- 44
Just to explain quickly, I named this thread for one of my favorite books.
I wasn't born for a few years to come, I'm merely 20. There are many things in this world I haven't experienced and like so many others, I may never see. It's a fact of life, It's not because of any lack of desire but the circumstances of the world.
There are many things I have experienced however, The first girl I was ever with asked me to tire her up, and ever since, I've had a great desire to be involved in kinky relationships. I've been rather back and forth. Some vanilla girls, some girls who are to different degrees kinky, but I'm tired of a life that lacks the trust and respect that BDSM can help build. It's a very effective tool for those open and willing to use it.
I've changed over the last several months. I've experienced another big loss in my life due to suicide and it made me look back at how I've acted in the past, childish, selfish, greedy. It's almost shameful how I've been and acted towards people in my past. I have no regrets however, I wouldn't be who I am today without the mistakes of the past, and I am quite fond of the me here and now.
I'm responsible for myself, I do take responsibility for mistakes, I'm not an arrogant egotistical control freak. Maybe I wasn't that before, but I was close enough that it wasn't healthy. I'm not a Daddy Dom, but I do think I possess that level of patience and compassion, or nearly so considering my age.
I'm taking a few classes while I work full time at a decent job, I'm not sure what I want to do yet quite, I was in school for computer science, but I'm thinking of going back full time for teaching(social sciences), or at least working my way towards it in my spare time.
I'm between 6'0 and 6'1. I'm about 270 pounds, more heavyset than fat but I've decided I need to get back in shape and recently started working out again, if one can't respect oneself, it's hard to expect anyone else to respect them.
I'm looking for something with a chance at a future, I'm too young to expect or demand one, but I'm not one to stick around in something I know isn't going to end well.
I like women who are from petite to curvy, not taller than 5'7 or so, I like to be taller, more powerful physically, there's something empowering about it. Hair doesn't matter, though I do like it to be shoulder length ideally, it grows or can be cut and I refuse to judge an individual on any idealistic standard, some women look great bald, it's true, not my taste per say, but I can't deny it.
I really dont have standards. Not to say I can't decide when i like a woman or not, but everyones different, and I refuse to rule out someone who is at least a good person based on looks or a bad history. Everyones had bad things happen to them. I'm not quite sure what to say in here, I've put things in here before. Basically Yeah I'm looking for someone, but even if you just think I'm unusual enough to talk to I'd more than welcome that. I've tried this before with a few responses and I have made a good friend from it so.
I'm odd. I wrote this some time ago, and it's as true as it ever has been. so I do feel the need to add it.
I procrastinate. I don’t care. I try too hard. I give up too quick. I get things done in time. I live. I hate. I love. I planned my funeral as a practical joke and the trip there to laugh. I enjoy the cold, the dark, and solitude. I’m the kind of person that wonders how we got here, but isn’t desperate enough or raised in a way to just say “God”. I enjoy people, new places, and new experiences; however, nothing can replace the familiar. I’m in favor of change but too stubborn and hypocritical to go through with it always. I’m too young to be set in my ways, but too old to change. I read more sci-fi and fantasy than could possibly allow me to be sane and enjoy every minute of it. I’ve been screwed over too many times to count, rejected enough times to stop trying, and hurt more than someone deserves in a whole lifetime. I laugh all the time. I scare people sometimes. I’m kinky. I take blows as they come and am yet to throw one back with success. I was once young, I may grow old. I'm not afraid of death. There are worse things to live through. I’m paranoid. I speak my mind and my peace. I want to see the universe, and know it all. I want to live forever, and I want to die tomorrow. I think ignorance is bliss, and life has taught me too much to ever really be happy. I read philosophy and histories. I can plot out ancient battles that I have memorized. I tried to learn Latin from reading Caesars’ Gaelic Wars in both Latin and English. I’m sporadic. . . I know people plot against me, because I have eyes and ears and friends in high places. I eat too much and sleep too little. I’ll sit in the snow for an hour in negative temperatures in shorts and a t-shirt because it feels like I freeze time. I don’t think the way your life is set makes you who you are as much as the actions you take and the things you do to put yourself there, or get out of there. At the end of the day, I’m me-- nothing more and nothing less.
I wasn't born for a few years to come, I'm merely 20. There are many things in this world I haven't experienced and like so many others, I may never see. It's a fact of life, It's not because of any lack of desire but the circumstances of the world.
There are many things I have experienced however, The first girl I was ever with asked me to tire her up, and ever since, I've had a great desire to be involved in kinky relationships. I've been rather back and forth. Some vanilla girls, some girls who are to different degrees kinky, but I'm tired of a life that lacks the trust and respect that BDSM can help build. It's a very effective tool for those open and willing to use it.
I've changed over the last several months. I've experienced another big loss in my life due to suicide and it made me look back at how I've acted in the past, childish, selfish, greedy. It's almost shameful how I've been and acted towards people in my past. I have no regrets however, I wouldn't be who I am today without the mistakes of the past, and I am quite fond of the me here and now.
I'm responsible for myself, I do take responsibility for mistakes, I'm not an arrogant egotistical control freak. Maybe I wasn't that before, but I was close enough that it wasn't healthy. I'm not a Daddy Dom, but I do think I possess that level of patience and compassion, or nearly so considering my age.
I'm taking a few classes while I work full time at a decent job, I'm not sure what I want to do yet quite, I was in school for computer science, but I'm thinking of going back full time for teaching(social sciences), or at least working my way towards it in my spare time.
I'm between 6'0 and 6'1. I'm about 270 pounds, more heavyset than fat but I've decided I need to get back in shape and recently started working out again, if one can't respect oneself, it's hard to expect anyone else to respect them.
I'm looking for something with a chance at a future, I'm too young to expect or demand one, but I'm not one to stick around in something I know isn't going to end well.
I like women who are from petite to curvy, not taller than 5'7 or so, I like to be taller, more powerful physically, there's something empowering about it. Hair doesn't matter, though I do like it to be shoulder length ideally, it grows or can be cut and I refuse to judge an individual on any idealistic standard, some women look great bald, it's true, not my taste per say, but I can't deny it.
I really dont have standards. Not to say I can't decide when i like a woman or not, but everyones different, and I refuse to rule out someone who is at least a good person based on looks or a bad history. Everyones had bad things happen to them. I'm not quite sure what to say in here, I've put things in here before. Basically Yeah I'm looking for someone, but even if you just think I'm unusual enough to talk to I'd more than welcome that. I've tried this before with a few responses and I have made a good friend from it so.
I'm odd. I wrote this some time ago, and it's as true as it ever has been. so I do feel the need to add it.
I procrastinate. I don’t care. I try too hard. I give up too quick. I get things done in time. I live. I hate. I love. I planned my funeral as a practical joke and the trip there to laugh. I enjoy the cold, the dark, and solitude. I’m the kind of person that wonders how we got here, but isn’t desperate enough or raised in a way to just say “God”. I enjoy people, new places, and new experiences; however, nothing can replace the familiar. I’m in favor of change but too stubborn and hypocritical to go through with it always. I’m too young to be set in my ways, but too old to change. I read more sci-fi and fantasy than could possibly allow me to be sane and enjoy every minute of it. I’ve been screwed over too many times to count, rejected enough times to stop trying, and hurt more than someone deserves in a whole lifetime. I laugh all the time. I scare people sometimes. I’m kinky. I take blows as they come and am yet to throw one back with success. I was once young, I may grow old. I'm not afraid of death. There are worse things to live through. I’m paranoid. I speak my mind and my peace. I want to see the universe, and know it all. I want to live forever, and I want to die tomorrow. I think ignorance is bliss, and life has taught me too much to ever really be happy. I read philosophy and histories. I can plot out ancient battles that I have memorized. I tried to learn Latin from reading Caesars’ Gaelic Wars in both Latin and English. I’m sporadic. . . I know people plot against me, because I have eyes and ears and friends in high places. I eat too much and sleep too little. I’ll sit in the snow for an hour in negative temperatures in shorts and a t-shirt because it feels like I freeze time. I don’t think the way your life is set makes you who you are as much as the actions you take and the things you do to put yourself there, or get out of there. At the end of the day, I’m me-- nothing more and nothing less.
