mellowjello
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- Sep 8, 2005
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hi. I’m almost 20 years ago and I have no sexual experience whatsoever... which is beginning to become very frustrating. I don’t have any religious or moral issues with sex and im constantly horny when im by myself but I never feel like doing anything sexual when there’s an actual guy involved. I cant switch off friend mode with guys I actually know but yet I don’t think I can have sex with strangers either so im in quite a predicament. even with boys that I think I have a crush on I cant imagine fucking them.
but at the same time, watching porn or reading erotica turns me on so much and I imagine myself giving blowjobs to and being fucked by faceless guys. whats worse is that im turned on the most by rough porn where the girl is submissive and being controlled and treated badly. its like I have two opposing personalities- a complete asexual and a raging pervert.
how do I mix the two up a bit or at least allow them to meet each other and get comfortable? have I just not met the right guy yet (no boyfriend potentials in sight but not sure how much longer I can last without sex)? is my prudish asian upbringing having a subconscious effect? Am I just not ready for sex with other people yet (but im 19 already, when will I be)? anyone care to offer a guess as to whats going on?
anyway, the reason that this post is in personals is because i want to find someone who is patient and understanding to cyber and/or exchange erotic emails with. for a while now i wanted to try cyber sex but could never go through with it because i would feel shy and uncomfortable whenever anything sexual was initiated. while i read and watch enough porn to have elaborate fantasies i still think my lack of experience in real life hinders my cyber confidence. i guess im looking for sort of a mentoring relationship in which the guy doesnt mind my handicaps or telling me what to do while helping me explore sex and intimacy with another person (online at least). while i have no problem discussing things of a sexual nature i doubt i will be able to jump into a sex scene right away but i might be worth it in the end
pm me if you're interested.
but at the same time, watching porn or reading erotica turns me on so much and I imagine myself giving blowjobs to and being fucked by faceless guys. whats worse is that im turned on the most by rough porn where the girl is submissive and being controlled and treated badly. its like I have two opposing personalities- a complete asexual and a raging pervert.
how do I mix the two up a bit or at least allow them to meet each other and get comfortable? have I just not met the right guy yet (no boyfriend potentials in sight but not sure how much longer I can last without sex)? is my prudish asian upbringing having a subconscious effect? Am I just not ready for sex with other people yet (but im 19 already, when will I be)? anyone care to offer a guess as to whats going on?
anyway, the reason that this post is in personals is because i want to find someone who is patient and understanding to cyber and/or exchange erotic emails with. for a while now i wanted to try cyber sex but could never go through with it because i would feel shy and uncomfortable whenever anything sexual was initiated. while i read and watch enough porn to have elaborate fantasies i still think my lack of experience in real life hinders my cyber confidence. i guess im looking for sort of a mentoring relationship in which the guy doesnt mind my handicaps or telling me what to do while helping me explore sex and intimacy with another person (online at least). while i have no problem discussing things of a sexual nature i doubt i will be able to jump into a sex scene right away but i might be worth it in the end
pm me if you're interested.
