NYC: I need a woman as fucked up as I am.

I suppose I could write a book about what I would like in a woman. I suspect you could do the same for a man. I don't expect any responses. It's not as if Craigslist has been good to me. But sometimes writing, just getting it out helps. Here goes:

I am an often depressed depraved man. I have to masturbate daily or I can't sleep or focus. The weight of the world and the burden of knowledge crush me. I play video games and jerk off to avoid facing how shitty the world is. If I stop to think I am overwhelmed. I am fiercely intelligent, I am well spoken, well read and very observant. I can carry on intense elaborate witty conversation but am so often nonplussed by my partner in the matter I intentionally falter. I would rather see a woman sucking my cock then stroking my cheek. I would rather a woman be a whore like me in the bedroom, and a whore with me outside it. I don't need Donna Reed. I need a woman who doesn't give a shit about how fucked this world is, or at least doesn't want to talk about it. A woman who wants nothing more than to enjoy herself. To eat out and see movies and jerk me off in the movies while I finger her. Who doesn't want to tell me about her day, but would rather play a video game and play online. A woman who would wear a corset because they're fucking sexy and give me a lapdance. Who will sit on my face and grind until she cums when she is horny rather then roll over on a little vibe. I don't care what you look like. Just don't be a mutant. I don't care if you are deaf, have one arm or pink hair. Just be like me. I need someone I can confess my sins to. And no good girl should hear them.

I've been blown in a gloryhole. I've meet men and women from the net and fucked them. I've blown and jerked off strange men. I've fucked a shemale, and been blown by one. I fucked a 45 year old woman while her kids were in the next room when I was 18. I fucked a professor in college then took money from him to do it again. I was molested. I had a crush on nearly every woman in my family. I'm horrid. The things I've done. I just want someone as fucked up as me, so I can feel less fucked.

If you're like me, write. We should meet.

I know I'm scary. But I'm very nice if you can swallow who I am.

Although you are a little scary, I'm still drawn to your post. I enjoy this well thought-out honesty--light-years ahead of the "bored, horny male here need a chick to watch me jerk-off" crap floating around here.

You're fucked-up, but this isn't exactly a community of the unfucked-up.

If nothing else, good luck. I hope your thread becomes more than a catharsis.

I liked what you said about boring ads. It's little wonder the net is so sparsely populated with women. As a man who's written his fair hair of "horny guy" ads in the past I confess it's a weakness. In the end men are just dogs or apes. Men don't want to talk much and want to beg even less.

But I've done all that it is works sometimes, but it's ultimately unsatisfactory. I need a woman who is as passionate as me. Who can accept the things I did in the past and look past them. Finally I need someone who can challenge me sexually, and not care about ego or the man/woman war. If I'm a brute than I need a woman who is fierce.

bump and abump

ok...well I will let this become another dead thread. I know it was a long shot.

Isn't it a bit contradictory to say you want someone like yourself, yet say that while you are depressed about the state of the world you want a woman who just wants to have fun?

I dunno, it's certainly an interesting post, I could almost agree with the world sucks/want to hide in videogames part, but the whore/anonymous sex parts put me off. I try to be an optimist and use my creativity in various attempts to improve the suckiness of the world, and I like cuddling and believe in love. I have emotional scars from the fact that the last guy I was with was not fond and nurturing toward me, I would never again go out with someone who isn't kind and caring.

whats ur #

i'm urs......

Well...Hello! I'm Poppy....

Welcome to Lit. You shouldn't have a problem finding a suitable partner. Good luck with that!



Huh? What?

Sun,

I have to disagree with you. I said I am looking for a woman who wants to enjoy herself. not a happy woman. The two are very different, to me anyway. Maybe you misread it, or I wasn't clear. Which is most likely the case. I often don't clearly about what I want, so I myself am not always sure. But thank you for the response.

godizpunishingme,

Check your PM box.

thanks poppy..but dont let the number beside my name fooly you. Ive been here for years. This is a new name is all.

check urs

Hmm, well maybe I misinterpreted then.

When I was 19 I think I was home from college and online. I met a woman who claimed to be a dom and I was curious about the lifestyle. I felt like a dom myself inside, and wanted to learn from her if I could. Not to mention at 19 any chance for pussy is worth the risk. I drove about an hour south to meet her. I waited in a parking lot where she told me to wait. I had just given up on her when she showed. She drove a van with 4 kids in it. They were between 6 and the oldest looked my age or just a year shy. She told me to follow her. When we got to her house she had me follow her in and led me straight to her room. The kids played in the living room right next to her room. She was a big woman which is fine by me. I like women of all sizes. I suppose it has something to do with my over active drive, but I can find a woman who is very thin or very thick to be sexy if she has a sexy attitude. This woman was cool. She seem totally at ease having me there with her kids in earshot. She acted like they didn;t exist. While I wasn't about to leave, I was a little put off. I mean there I was 19 years old in the bed of a woman over twice my age, with a big ass and long painted nails. She was also the first non-white woman I had been with in any sexual way, she also wanted to dom me. So all these things added up to me being a bit off. But we talked a long while about being a dom and what is sexy. She showed me her toys and some photos, asking me what I liked. From that conversation I learned how much tits and corsets turn me on, and how to me oral sex is every bit as important as sex. She had me then go down on her for no short length of time. I suppose I ate her pussy for about and hour and a half and my mouth was mush by the time she let me stop. She complimented me on how well I did which was reassuring since at 19 I had only ever been with girls my own age who dont know much of anything. She returned the favor by blowing me and talking nasty to me as she did. I came far to quickly in my opinon but in retrospect it was good that I did, because then we had enough time to fuck. I'm a big guy, a rugby player and weight lifter, so I'm not afraid to play rough..she rode meas soon as my cock got hard again and fucked me hard. She was throwing her weight and letting it all fly, my hands were glued to her big tits, I twisted and pinched her nipples harder than I had ever done and she loved it. She cursed me out, and I cursed right back at her, I called her my black slut and she slapped me but kept right on fucking me, she called me her white boy and I slapped her back. Maybe not as hard as she had hit me, but still hard. It was totally new for me to do that, I had never even had the impulse to do it before, but when she hit me it started a fire. We abused each other as we fucked and came hard and long.

We had a great talk afterwards and her level of sexual enlightenment really opened my eyes to what was out there and possible. I wasn't the shy boy I was before I had met her.

Once I was waiting for the 'E' Train into Manhattan from Queens and I saw this Tgirl waiting as well. She was decent looking, waif like and blond. The Russian looking, but actually Latin flavor. I made eye contact and she didn't look away. We gave each other the once over and seeing her last flitting smile I approached her. We didn't speak, but I reached out and took her hand in mine, she whispered, "You know?", and I nodded.

She smiled and squeezed my hand pulling it to her waist. It was the dead of winter so we both had on larger coats. We pressed together, letting the coats hide our hands as we leaned against the girder waiting for our train. As it turns out she was waiting for the 'G' which takes forever but the 'E' runs pretty regular. I asked her if she was busy or if she wanted to come over. I would have royally screwing a friend over, but a girl like this doesn't just fall into your lap everyday and my boy would have understood. She was going to see her friend and it was an important matter, so she couldn't skip out. So I made the most of my time with her. We ground ourselves together and I pressed her hand to my cock through my jeans which she squeezed and tugged through the denim. I cupped her ass cheeks under her coat with one hand and worked my free one into her shirt to feel her skin.

Two 'E' trains came and went and I ignored them determined to make it last until she was gone. She was pumping me and I was getting near orgasm, so hot was our scene. She asked me for my number and I got hers, as the 'G' pulled in she suddenly kissed me on the lips, her tongue darting into my mouth. She smiled and stepped aboard her train.

It was a shock, as I regard kissing as something more intimate. But it was an intense way to meet someone.

Wow, I'm turned on..

I think your fucking sexy. I LOVE the stories and what you've done and experienced. I'm SO hot for bi-men. You don't seem like a horrible person, simply blatantly honest and I for one am a woman that appreciates that in a man. It helps that I think more like a man or so my guy friends tell me! lol

I also love that you can appreciate the thicker women out here. I'm a voluptuous woman and I love a man that can see past what society deems 'beauty'. Thick is beautiful.. daddy always said that only a dog likes a bone and all they do is play with and bury them. hahahaha

Anyway, just had to respond to your post because I don't think you were getting enough love on your post.

Kisses...
Hunny

i'd like to run into you

god that ride sounded awesome... hmmm, you got me going, lol

thanks honey.

I was getting a little lonely in here waiting for some love. I would love for the thread to at least start some type of dialog.

SmirkingJack11 said:

thanks honey.

I was getting a little lonely in here waiting for some love. I would love for the thread to at least start some type of dialog.

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Well, I've got to say, your posts have been interesting. I'm kinda in the same boat as you. I guess I've been around enough and had some experiences, too - don't want to be judged by some "good girl" type. Of course, I've also got the stigma of separated and waiting on the paperwork to go through for divorce.

Anyway, I hope you find what you're looking for! Good luck to both of us, eh?

yes, lets get the dialogue going

your stories started me going... i love the public place thing... and parks at night... and tell me another one

Ill type up another one soon.

I have my hands full at this second.

hey... my friends have always seen me as "dead straight, no kinks" up until about a year ago when I started researcing BDSM... I HAD to figure out why 2 of my B/F's had such an urge for it...
Well, turns out I am a bit kinky & learning still
once I let the kinky side out to play, the anti depressants, bi-polar meds & other shit I was on got forgotten about pretty quickly (reason is NON kink related) with no side affects.
I have found that by expressing my "dark" side & realizing it IS me, I have since stopped condemming myself for thinking such bad things, realized I am "normal", just not by a churches standards & that I am NOT alone in this world

ALT.com & AFF.com are good sites too outside of here

Bravo for showing us there are other kinky ppl out there too

SmirkingJack11 said:

Ill type up another one soon.

I have my hands full at this second.

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LMFAOOOOO I can JUST imagine....

Glad Im not alone.

are you up for sharing that nastiest thing you've ever done, in your own opinion?

...you seem perfectly normal to me...but we are both New Yorkers so maybe my perspective is ascew...

thanks for the support gary, but I gotta say you're not really my type.