What Are You Thinking? Continued 14

Everyone has moved on but I am still stuck. I'm broken and feel I will never get back to a baseline.

The impulsive need to withdraw is very, very strong. Seeing other people being happy and frivolous is kind of triggering right now. Moods and such change, I hear. You're not always stuck. But I'd like to move on from this abject loneliness and hopelessness.
 
I did an almost full withdrawal from the world in general over 10 years ago. I am very rarely in public and only for a short period each time. I have not spoken to another person, in person in over a week and have only seen three from a distance.
 
The urge to sell everything and move to a completely new place and start over again is so strong today.
If I didn't have so many responsibilities I'd actually be really tempted
If you didn’t have the responsibilities, where would you go and what would you do?

I would do it if I could be arsed. Laziness keeps me where I am. There are some days where I do seriously consider it and actually look at places. My employer has said I could work from home 100% so I wouldn’t need to job hunt.
 
If you didn’t have the responsibilities, where would you go and what would you do?

I would do it if I could be arsed. Laziness keeps me where I am. There are some days where I do seriously consider it and actually look at places. My employer has said I could work from home 100% so I wouldn’t need to job hunt.
I actually don't even know.
I love village life but I'm completely bored here too. Saying that though I know I would not cope in a huge city because I'd be too overwhelmed.

I'm just craving change I think and that's a quick way of getting it.
 
I actually don't even know.
I love village life but I'm completely bored here too. Saying that though I know I would not cope in a huge city because I'd be too overwhelmed.

I'm just craving change I think and that's a quick way of getting it.
I think that is what makes me want to move. There isn’t a lot where I live. It isn’t a village but it isn’t a big city either. It is very quiet and my family are a couple of hours away. If I was nearer to family then I would probably feel settled.

My son moves out to go to uni in two weeks and that will give me even less to do at home. Time to get more of a social life but I will probably end up just working more.
 
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