What Are You Thinking? Continued 4

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^^^ This. What you wrote absolutely hit home. I was talking with a friend from Lit a couple nights ago about my “abandonment issues” I have those because everyone, doesn’t matter who it is, always ends up leaving me. I’m good enough for a little but not for a long time. A couple years ago I met someone from Kik for drinks and the entire time he was like, “I can’t believe I’m here with (Shi).” He was acting like I was famous or something and it weirded me out and I felt like a sexual conquest and not a person. Sometimes, I feel that way on Lit as well. I’ve had people tell me I could count on them and they were a friend, but that wasn’t the case.

And yet here I am, like the cat that came back....

I have been, and always shall be, your friend, Shi....as long as you'll have me :rose:
 
I need to get more sleep.. the lack of it has made my nerves frayed and temper a touch short. I'm not being as careful with my tongue as I should be and its caused some hurt feelings. I've got to do better.
 
^^^ This. What you wrote absolutely hit home. I was talking with a friend from Lit a couple nights ago about my “abandonment issues” I have those because everyone, doesn’t matter who it is, always ends up leaving me. I’m good enough for a little but not for a long time. A couple years ago I met someone from Kik for drinks and the entire time he was like, “I can’t believe I’m here with (Shi).” He was acting like I was famous or something and it weirded me out and I felt like a sexual conquest and not a person. Sometimes, I feel that way on Lit as well. I’ve had people tell me I could count on them and they were a friend, but that wasn’t the case.

That’s the thing that gets me. Someone once said to me “we all want to think we would be there for anyone, but you’re the only person I know who is actually like that”. Funnily enough, she dropped me days after my mum passed away. Had been friends since we were 11, I’d supported her through everything - there was a court case she fought for five years and almost lost her kids. I was there for her through it all, only to be dropped when I needed a friend the most. When things are wrong is when people suddenly remember my phone number. It’s really hard to find people who are genuine and real. A lot of the time they’re just looking for an escape from their own reality, and when the fun stops and things get real - off they go.
 
I think people don't value their hearts enough. People let others in so easily. Make people work. I've said this a number of times, but I'll repeat again.

Jesus had 12 friends. One sold him out for 12 pieces of silver. JESUS CHRIST. He was betrayed and screwed over for 30 pieces of silver.

If you have more than 12 friends, you have too many. Unless youre better than Jesus.

Value your hearts. Your emotions. Your time. Invest in those who appreciate it.

On this I'll largely agree with you. But sometimes people disregard and still try anyway. Whatever happens is simply that, whatever happens. Free will kind of works out that way. People have been surviving broken hearts and lost friendships longer than any of us have ever been around.
 
First week of school done...students didn’t quit.
I’ll take that as success.
Kick ass!
Hello weekend...we’ll be getting to know each other intimately.;)
 
And yet here I am, like the cat that came back....

I have been, and always shall be, your friend, Shi....as long as you'll have me :rose:

I know you are. I just need to remember to reach out. Maybe I should get another Skype account. 🤔

That’s the thing that gets me. Someone once said to me “we all want to think we would be there for anyone, but you’re the only person I know who is actually like that”. Funnily enough, she dropped me days after my mum passed away. Had been friends since we were 11, I’d supported her through everything - there was a court case she fought for five years and almost lost her kids. I was there for her through it all, only to be dropped when I needed a friend the most. When things are wrong is when people suddenly remember my phone number. It’s really hard to find people who are genuine and real. A lot of the time they’re just looking for an escape from their own reality, and when the fun stops and things get real - off they go.

I really do understand. I lost mine either because of my divorce or my Dad’s suicide or due to my own depression and anxiety. They never said why, they just stopped reaching out or asking me to do things and if I’d call them they were always busy. When I was in rehab for my depression and anxiety, the only friend who called me was a friend from here, Azul. I’ll never forget that. I don’t know why friends leave when it gets tough, but it does definitely show you who people really are. I know you don’t know me, but if you ever need an ear I’m a pm away. I’m sorry for the loss of your mom. It’s a kind of grief that people don’t really understand until they go through it.
 
I know you are. I just need to remember to reach out. Maybe I should get another Skype account. 🤔



I really do understand. I lost mine either because of my divorce or my Dad’s suicide or due to my own depression and anxiety. They never said why, they just stopped reaching out or asking me to do things and if I’d call them they were always busy. When I was in rehab for my depression and anxiety, the only friend who called me was a friend from here, Azul. I’ll never forget that. I don’t know why friends leave when it gets tough, but it does definitely show you who people really are. I know you don’t know me, but if you ever need an ear I’m a pm away. I’m sorry for the loss of your mom. It’s a kind of grief that people don’t really understand until they go through it.

I have been on a tiny lit break to cool my temper and planned to stay that way for a bit... instead, I saw this... and needed to say that I absolutely believe that sentence I bolded.
This last year has been a nightmare, and so many people have stepped up in ways that I never expected and others, who I really thought would be there, have dropped the ball in ways that bruised my heart. :(
I will be forever grateful for those that stayed with me while I work through the darkness that has been this year.
 
They def don't pay me enough to be a kindergarten assistant. The week I've had! The topper was finding a piece of poop on the classroom floor an hour before we left today. It's pizza and tequila for dinner tonight...
 
Murder spree commencing in 5... 4... 3... 2..

I know a girl who used to tell me she knew where to hide the body :heart:

oh oh!!!!
it's me!!!
right?


{say it's me....grrr}

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Uh oh... does this mean the wood chippers going to need to be steam cleaned again??? It's a real pain getting it all lubricated afterwards. :eek:
Just remember to keep turning the compost pile and checking its internal temperature. ;)
 
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