The Isolated Blurt BDSM Thread

[00Syd]

Blurt: I've gotten seriously close to dropping out of school a few times before because I hate it so much, and I miss being home so much. But when I look at friends of mine who are killing themselves doing really tough graduate programs, but who still love it, I feel weak and pathetic.

I have a math exam on Wednesday and failure is imminent. I need to study but I am starting from square one, and I feel sad and tired and defeated. I keep looking at what I need to study and getting distracted. Might just need to take a fail on this one and then hope I ace the third exam so that I don't have to stay in school past next semester.

I'm afraid that the pressure to try and do well in a subject that I never get better in will push me back into an emotionally masochistic depression. I'm already noticing myself doing stuff that I know will only make me feel even more sad and defeated. Like writing this post.

Awful.

 

[Sir_Winston54]

Blurt: I've gotten seriously close to dropping out of school a few times before because I hate it so much, and I miss being home so much. But when I look at friends of mine who are killing themselves doing really tough graduate programs, but who still love it, I feel weak and pathetic.

I have a math exam on Wednesday and failure is imminent. I need to study but I am starting from square one, and I feel sad and tired and defeated. I keep looking at what I need to study and getting distracted. Might just need to take a fail on this one and then hope I ace the third exam so that I don't have to stay in school past next semester.

I'm afraid that the pressure to try and do well in a subject that I never get better in will push me back into an emotionally masochistic depression. I'm already noticing myself doing stuff that I know will only make me feel even more sad and defeated. Like writing this post.

Awful.

Syd, darlin' girl, I really think you can do this, because you've done so much already. Acing the course is probably not in the cards, but doing sufficiently well to get through it probably is... one step at a time. Try not looking at *all* you have to study for this exam, but rather just the first individual piece. Then the next, and the next, as far as you can before the exam. While you may not get a *good* grade, or even a passing grade, you might well get a good enough grade that you won't feel a *need* to ACE the third exam, but merely do reasonably well.

As far as posting this being something that you "know will only make [you] feel even more sad and defeated," I believe it's more (a) a bit of needed venting, and (b) an opportunity for your friends to give you a morale boost... and I *love* to take advantage of those opportunities for my friends.

Now get to studying - one bit at a time!

hugs

 

[chy_girl]

He tasked me with the dice game. I hate the dice game. And I will not be assimilated.

 

[the captians wench]

He tasked me with the dice game. I hate the dice game. And I will not be assimilated.

Okay, I'm curious. Care to share what the dice game is?

 

[chy_girl]

Okay, I'm curious. Care to share what the dice game is?

You roll one die once a day. Whatever number you roll is the number of times you are required to cum. Punishment for not completing...

 

[the captians wench]

You roll one die once a day. Whatever number you roll is the number of times you are required to cum. Punishment for not completing...

I like the sounds of this game, but then I orgasm very easily.

Unfortunately, this isn't a game Jounar would be interested in. Was kinda hoping for a new one to share with him.

 

[chy_girl]

I like the sounds of this game, but then I orgasm very easily.

Unfortunately, this isn't a game Jounar would be interested in. Was kinda hoping for a new one to share with him.

Yeah, not so fun when you're sore and looking at yet another 6 day with the full knowledge of either do all 6 or face a rather unpleasant punishment. Thankfully, this round is only 5 days instead of 7.

 

[the captians wench]

Yeah, not so fun when you're sore and looking at yet another 6 day with the full knowledge of either do all 6 or face a rather unpleasant punishment. Thankfully, this round is only 5 days instead of 7.

I haven't fucked myself raw, so I guess I really don't understand.

Good luck

 

[chy_girl]

I haven't fucked myself raw, so I guess I really don't understand.

Good luck

I would happily trade you. Cumming was one of the things I turned off. Now my body doesn't want to play nice.

 

[Bandit58]

I would happily trade you. Cumming was one of the things I turned off. Now my body doesn't want to play nice.

I tend to turn myself off when I am under stress. I can't think of anything worse than having to masturbate to orgasm 6 times a day. My body would definitely shut down!

But then I don't have a really high sex drive anyway, never have had in fact.

 

[chy_girl]

Wow... I don't think I've ever had my talking privileges revoked before. At least outside of a classroom, anyways.

 

[YourCaptor]

Blurt: I've gotten seriously close to dropping out of school a few times before because I hate it so much, and I miss being home so much. But when I look at friends of mine who are killing themselves doing really tough graduate programs, but who still love it, I feel weak and pathetic.

I have a math exam on Wednesday and failure is imminent. I need to study but I am starting from square one, and I feel sad and tired and defeated. I keep looking at what I need to study and getting distracted. Might just need to take a fail on this one and then hope I ace the third exam so that I don't have to stay in school past next semester.

I'm afraid that the pressure to try and do well in a subject that I never get better in will push me back into an emotionally masochistic depression. I'm already noticing myself doing stuff that I know will only make me feel even more sad and defeated. Like writing this post.

Awful.

I almost dropped out, had all the paper work and stuff.

But life is funny, while taking random classes I found the bio approach in psych. It’s something I’m really interested in, and it’s challenging too. It taught me how to study, so now I can get an A in any class. After my first quarter I had a GPA of 1.8 and was on academic probation. Now I pull in quarterly GPAs of 3.8 at a full load of 18 units over 10 weeks.

I think half of college is learning how it works, ¼ exploration, ¼ hard work aka thick headed forward pressure.

 

[Lizzie_Borden]

Blurt: I've gotten seriously close to dropping out of school a few times before because I hate it so much, and I miss being home so much. But when I look at friends of mine who are killing themselves doing really tough graduate programs, but who still love it, I feel weak and pathetic.

I have a math exam on Wednesday and failure is imminent. I need to study but I am starting from square one, and I feel sad and tired and defeated. I keep looking at what I need to study and getting distracted. Might just need to take a fail on this one and then hope I ace the third exam so that I don't have to stay in school past next semester.

I'm afraid that the pressure to try and do well in a subject that I never get better in will push me back into an emotionally masochistic depression. I'm already noticing myself doing stuff that I know will only make me feel even more sad and defeated. Like writing this post.

Awful.

I know exactly how you feel Syd, I'm right there at the moment. With my anxiety and stuff, it's been hard to study, and then when I feel ok, I realise how far behind I am, and how much I have to do and it sends me into another spiral. I'm trying to battle through though, because I'm too scared to give up and have nothing to show for the years of study.

I almost dropped out, had all the paper work and stuff.

But life is funny, while taking random classes I found the bio approach in psych. It’s something I’m really interested in, and it’s challenging too. It taught me how to study, so now I can get an A in any class. After my first quarter I had a GPA of 1.8 and was on academic probation. Now I pull in quarterly GPAs of 3.8 at a full load of 18 units over 10 weeks.

I think half of college is learning how it works, ¼ exploration, ¼ hard work aka thick headed forward pressure.

And this, after recent appointments with my psych, I've realised is the bulk of my problem. I never learned how to consistently apply for effort to study. Being a rather intelligent person, life was always 'effort reward effort reward effort reward' through school, and often 'no effort rewasrd anyway'. I haven't learned 'effort effort effort reward' and haven't learned how to study.

I struggle tremendously with studying off campus.

Got any tips/links/suggestions/ideas for learning how to study YC?

 

[the captians wench]

I would happily trade you. Cumming was one of the things I turned off. Now my body doesn't want to play nice.

I tend to turn myself off when I am under stress. I can't think of anything worse than having to masturbate to orgasm 6 times a day. My body would definitely shut down!

But then I don't have a really high sex drive anyway, never have had in fact.

See I have a very high sex drive, I blame it on too much testosterone in my body which has lead to other medical issues. Jounar likes to see how long before I start firing people at work for clocking in with their shirt untucked I think.

Right now he's on a once ever other month kick. My whole body aches with want atm. And I swear my cunt hasn't been this tight since I was a teenager. I mean I've always had good strong muscles, and a nice tight fit, but I think I could snap pencles now!

With the brain washing my ex husband did, (litterally for those who have not heard that story) and my hormone imbalance, and my family history, orgasming is as easy as breathing for me. It's a lot harder trying to not want it.

 

[Homburg]

Blurt: I've gotten seriously close to dropping out of school a few times before because I hate it so much, and I miss being home so much. But when I look at friends of mine who are killing themselves doing really tough graduate programs, but who still love it, I feel weak and pathetic.

I have a math exam on Wednesday and failure is imminent. I need to study but I am starting from square one, and I feel sad and tired and defeated. I keep looking at what I need to study and getting distracted. Might just need to take a fail on this one and then hope I ace the third exam so that I don't have to stay in school past next semester.

I'm afraid that the pressure to try and do well in a subject that I never get better in will push me back into an emotionally masochistic depression. I'm already noticing myself doing stuff that I know will only make me feel even more sad and defeated. Like writing this post.

Awful.

The only things that hits that magical intersection between "overpriced" and "largely useless" than a college degree in this market is getting this close to your degree and dropping out.

You can do this. Hell, raw inertia should be of some assistance. You've been doing it this long, you can probably fake half of what you need to do anyway.

 

[Sir_Winston54]

The only things that hits that magical intersection between "overpriced" and "largely useless" than a college degree in this market is getting this close to your degree and dropping out.

You can do this. Hell, raw inertia should be of some assistance. You've been doing it this long, you can probably fake half of what you need to do anyway.

QFT and for amusement. He's right, you know, on both counts, even if he did say truth in an entertaining fashion.

 

[Homburg]

QFT and for amusement. He's right, you know, on both counts, even if he did say truth in an entertaining fashion.

Contrary to the examples set by modern media, entertainment and truth do not have to be unrelated.

 

[Sir_Winston54]

Contrary to the examples set by modern media, entertainment and truth do not have to be unrelated.

*Patented CM/Bunny snort*

 

[midwestyankee]

Blurt: I've gotten seriously close to dropping out of school a few times before because I hate it so much, and I miss being home so much. But when I look at friends of mine who are killing themselves doing really tough graduate programs, but who still love it, I feel weak and pathetic.

I have a math exam on Wednesday and failure is imminent. I need to study but I am starting from square one, and I feel sad and tired and defeated. I keep looking at what I need to study and getting distracted. Might just need to take a fail on this one and then hope I ace the third exam so that I don't have to stay in school past next semester.

I'm afraid that the pressure to try and do well in a subject that I never get better in will push me back into an emotionally masochistic depression. I'm already noticing myself doing stuff that I know will only make me feel even more sad and defeated. Like writing this post.

Awful.

Failure is not imminent: your next breath is imminent, though not guaranteed.

Syd, it's not like you to fold like this. Did someone steal all your Leslie Gore albums or something?

And as others have said, you don't have to do as well in math as you do in other courses. You just have to survive.

Live to sneer at underclassmen another day.

 

[Keroin]

Note to Syd:

You can do it!


I know all too well how frustrating math can be. My brain is not wired for math, at all. I needed Algebra 11 in order to get accepted into University. I had a freaking full scholarship but I couldn't use it until I had that stupid course under my belt. I took the course three times in highschool, studied my brains out...and failed every time. Finally, I took a night school course and managed a passing grade. (I think I passed with 54% or something). That's all I needed and I'm glad I stuck it out.

You can do it. You may need a few tries but you will get there. DON'T QUIT!!

There are acceptable reasons for dropping out of school, (says the university drop out), but yours don't fit that category. So do what you need to do to deal with the frustration, then get back in the game. As you can see, you have many cheerleaders here for pep talks when you need them.

 

[rida]

How do you apologies for something you do not feel to be the sole responsible, to the person you think is sharing in the fault???

Doing the "right" thing sucks ... ...

 

[Sir_Winston54]

How do you apologies for something you do not feel to be the sole responsible, to the person you think is sharing in the fault???

Doing the "right" thing sucks ... ...

If you feel that you are equally, or relatively equally, to blame, you can simply tell him/her: "I'm sorry for my part in this. I should have been able to handle it better than I did, and I hope you'll forgive me." If they're truly an adult, they'll return the apology while accepting yours gracefully. If they're semi-adult, they'll accept your apology *without* acknowledging their fault. If neither... well, perhaps they're not the type of person you much want in your life. Either way, you'll have done what you could to make the situation better.

Good luck!

 

[Cattypuss]

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

 

[Keroin]

How do you apologies for something you do not feel to be the sole responsible, to the person you think is sharing in the fault???

Doing the "right" thing sucks ... ...

Well, you can tell yourself you're the better person. It won't feel better in the short term but it will in the long term.

This happened to me recently. In my case, I felt the fault was 90% hers and 10% mine but I am still the only one who (very genuinely) apologized. In this case, I knew the friend well enough to realize that any attempt to explain my side of things would have just made her defensive and damaged our friendship. We see each other so rarely, I figured it wasn't worth starting a war over something that, in the big picture, was quite trivial. In the moment, I hated the unjustness of the situation. Now, three weeks later, I could really care less.

That said, if this is someone you deal with regularly and not hearing them admit to their role in the problem is going to breed resentment then, yeah, you should probably mention something.

 

[MisterSir]

The good - my streak of being part of NaNoWriMo continues unabated; 1,545 words of 'Eden Explored: On Tour With Pistol Glory Kill' in approximately four hours.

The bad - Most of it is plot outline and character notes.

The good - With that outline and those notes, I should have very little trouble multiplying those fifteen hundred words and get me back on pace.

The bad - 'should have' means nothing when it comes to writing.

The ugly - still haven't heard back from the latest paramour. This is tremendously frustrating.