Presented the opportunity....

[InternetAlias]

Mock rape videos are something I'm not interested in watching. I felt intensely uncomfortable during the scene in the film Irreversible. Non-consent is not something that floats my boat in the slightest.

Having said that, I don't think comparing it to a peering at a car crash is all that ridiculous. I've certainly passed by and looked when I knew I shouldn't, and then immediately, intensely regretted doing so.

With this in mind, I certainly wouldn't seek it out but if it was presented to me would I turn it off? Sure, but straight away? I dunno, pretty sure I'd regret it after though.

EDIT: Interesting question.

 

[00Syd]

I probably would if I knew that nobody would ever know that I watched it.

And then I would hate myself in the morning.

 

[chy_girl]

would you want to watch a video of an actual rape?

Only if it meant I got to vote to convict with 11 of my peers.

Other than that? No. I invested too much time, effort, and heartache into years of therapy to re-traumatize myself for a sexual kink.

You wanna role play? I'm game. For real? You will be missing body parts by then end of the evening.

 

[Lizzie_Borden]

I would have an internal battle between my fear of watching a real rape, and my arousal at the idea of it.

Yes, this.


Ack. Given the reaction I had to something horrific I read in a book recently, there's every chance I would feel both guilty for watching, and guilty for responding to it.

 

[Kajira Callista]

How terrible am I?
I would watch it and prolly get turned on by it...
now admitting the turn on to anyone might not happen so easy.
utoh I just sorta did, didnt I?

 

[Cattypuss]

would you want to watch a video of an actual rape?

No way in hell.

 

[PertPerth]

No, I'd not watch.
23 years ago, for the first time, and I still remember it like yesterday.

 

[eastern sun]

This doesn't make any sense, if you know you'd regret it, why do it?

The New York Post is absolutely shameless in its reporting on rape/murder cases. I will admit to poring over every detail. Buying the newspaper just because I know that the steady stream of details will be there day after day.

And all the while that I'm aroused by what I'm reading, I am feeling really guilty.

I like violent sex where the boundaries between consent and non-consent are blurred. I too have been raped while I was drunk. I recognize the real horror.

But I'm not going to deny the fact that "given the opportunity" I'd want to watch the video. And recognize fully that I'd probably regret it.

I fear Judgement Day.

 

[intothewoods]

I can't decide if you're in one of your moods and fucking with people's heads, or not...

There are Marquis posts that are not like this?

This is just too much for me.

It's the non-consent that turns me on, the rest is just an issue of legality, morality etc..... things that my cock doesn't care about.

You are aware that you are turned on by something that intellectually may be repugnant or socially unacceptable. Many people may actually be turned on by the video, but an intellectual choice as to whether to watch the video is something else entirely.

I recently read a book called The Other Side of Desire about "abnormal" desires. The author looked at a foot fetishist, a guy who seduced his 13 year old stepdaugher, a dominatrix and a guy attracted to paraplegics, and why people get turned on by feet rather than schoolgirl outfits, or whatever. Some interesting stuff. One of the studies discussed in the book involved measuring sexual response to various images. People, women especially, I think, would say they weren't turned on when clearly they were.

 

[WriterDom]

Play rape has aroused me. I drive away and park a block away. Come in and rape you by knife point or with a fake gun. Tying you up and having my way. Pretending you are a virgin makes it even better.

But I also like virgin Daddy fucks too.

 

[rosco rathbone]

Definitely.

 

[ownedsubgal]

absolutely. would be riddled with shame, guilt and self-disgust while doing so..but absolutely would watch and probably would watch several times.

btw, i ALWAYS avert my head at highway accidents. i do not understand how the two concepts are related.

 

[eastern sun]

I worked briefly in a prison for violent sexual offenders, and met a man who used to cut off the breasts of his victims and make them into coin purses. One day, I had to tell him that he could not touch the breast of my colleague, all the while relying on the help from another inmate who had raped kids in Vietnam during the war and his stepdaughter after he returned and who I truly felt was in charge of my security.

I have watched a snuff film. And I have always wanted to see one of his purses.

 

[Marquis]

I do wonder if I could post a link of an actual rape video (which obviously I do not have) and count the downloads, how quickly the numbers would add up.

I'm sure even a few of you who said you would absolutely not watch it would eventually succumb to the temptation to give it a look see.

For those of you who said you would not want to watch such a thing, is it because you would feel so much empathy for the victim that the experience would be unbearable, almost as if you were being raped yourself?

For those of you who said you would watch the video, is it more because of a morbid curiosity or because you think you'd be turned on by it? Do you feel that by watching the video, even though it had already happened, you would be in some way implicitly approving of the act?

 

[Marquis]

And I have always wanted to see one of his purses.

I was reading a few months ago about the huge market for murderabilia, art created by serial killers.

 

[BiBunny]

The New York Post is absolutely shameless in its reporting on rape/murder cases. I will admit to poring over every detail. Buying the newspaper just because I know that the steady stream of details will be there day after day.

And all the while that I'm aroused by what I'm reading, I am feeling really guilty.

I like violent sex where the boundaries between consent and non-consent are blurred. I too have been raped while I was drunk. I recognize the real horror.

But I'm not going to deny the fact that "given the opportunity" I'd want to watch the video. And recognize fully that I'd probably regret it.

I fear Judgement Day.

My earliest realizations that something about me was "different" came from reading trashy tabloid mags at a fairly young age and masturbating. My favorites were stories of little girls my own age being tortured and raped (and sometimes murdered), even though a voice in the back of my mind whispered, "That's horrible."

 

[Cattypuss]

For those of you who said you would not want to watch such a thing, is it because you would feel so much empathy for the victim that the experience would be unbearable, almost as if you were being raped yourself?

Yes.

For me it falls into the same category as not being able to bring myself to watch video footage of mistreatment of animals. I know this stuff goes on in the real world, but witnessing it, witnessing the distress of the victim and the sick enjoyment of the perpetrator in that distress, would be unbearable for me. It would haunt me forever.

 

[eastern sun]

I was reading a few months ago about the huge market for murderabilia, art created by serial killers.

I'm not surprised. In the 80's, we travelled to Scotland to visit and perform in the gallery founded by a notorious murderer who had become a celebrated sculptor in prison.

Artwork, and literature, by criminals has a certain ready-made audience. (Why even the Marquis de Sade wrote most of his works in prison. )

People want to see into their minds.

Though, I dare say, that's different than viewing the criminal acts themselves.

 

[subish2009]

I do wonder if I could post a link of an actual rape video (which obviously I do not have) and count the downloads, how quickly the numbers would add up.

I'm sure even a few of you who said you would absolutely not watch it would eventually succumb to the temptation to give it a look see.

For those of you who said you would not want to watch such a thing, is it because you would feel so much empathy for the victim that the experience would be unbearable, almost as if you were being raped yourself?

For those of you who said you would watch the video, is it more because of a morbid curiosity or because you think you'd be turned on by it? Do you feel that by watching the video, even though it had already happened, you would be in some way implicitly approving of the act?

I understand your point, and I'm sure you're right that some people who thought they would not watch would end up watching. Maybe some who think they would watch would not.

I can't watch violence in movies. I can't watch or read anything about children coming to harm. I have an anxiety disorder, I am a hyperempathetic person, and I have a tendency for my emotions to spiral out of my control quickly and dramatically and very painfully. I was raped more than ten years ago and the last thing I need is to drudge up feelings that are best left alone.

I do, however, thrive on consensual non-consent when with a man whom I deeply trust. I need sex to be very rough, but the consent is essential. The line between what turns me on and what horrifies me may be a fine one, but it is very, very indelibly marked.

 

[sailorpaul]

No way That's so far out of the SSC rule that I live.

 

[culloden]

No. Consensual non-consent is hot, but the real deal hurts real people.

 

[FurryFury]

I don't like to watch porn period. I don't like to see other people have sex or hear them.

Additionally I don't like to watch people or animals be hurt, or tortured. Rape, even done in a movie, is a big turn off for me. It simply hurts my spirit to see or hear.

That being said, I do have my own rape fantasies. Some written, fictional accounts of rape and even snuff are things I get off on.

 

[intothewoods]

The New York Post is absolutely shameless in its reporting on rape/murder cases. I will admit to poring over every detail. Buying the newspaper just because I know that the steady stream of details will be there day after day.

And all the while that I'm aroused by what I'm reading, I am feeling really guilty.

I like violent sex where the boundaries between consent and non-consent are blurred. I too have been raped while I was drunk. I recognize the real horror.

But I'm not going to deny the fact that "given the opportunity" I'd want to watch the video. And recognize fully that I'd probably regret it.

I fear Judgement Day.

Why is Law & Order Special Victims Unit so popular? People are turned on, at some level, by a lot more than they will admit.

 

[00Syd]

Why is Law & Order Special Victims Unit so popular? People are turned on, at some level, by a lot more than they will admit.

Oh, word. I'll admit it.

What a great show.

 

[Aquila1]

Eight months after being raped, a friend of mine drove her car into the forest, stuck a hose into the exhaust, and gassed herself. She wasn't found for two weeks, in spite of extensive searches by the police, her family, and her friends.

My friend was raped in a brutal and sustained attack by several men. She had just turned 20 and was attending a local musical festival when she wandered off from her friends in the early hours of the morning and was attacked. From her statement made to the police (which I have read), several men stood around and watched the entire event and did nothing - this was in spite of her screaming and crying and pleading. Nobody was charged with assault because she could not identify the men involved, she was drunk, and not a single person came forward as a witness.
She was one of the strongest, funniest, bravest people I knew at that age, and I watched this destroy her.

I think that if I ever heard that there was a video of the event in circulation (which is obviously unlikely given that this was a number of years ago), I would also suggest that the viewers had the opportunity watch "parts II and II of the series." I mean seeing her corpse being removed from the car and watching the funeral would be oh so titillating as well - would it not?.

There is a world of difference between reality and fantasy, and it scares me that the boundaries are so blurry for some.