UnderYourSpell
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You've seen it already I forgot everyone is probably at work over there oh well go and play with this for a while lol move your cursor around
http://www.electricoyster.com/electric3d/index.html
shit how is it that I always sign on just after everyone puts their clothes on
This is all your fault and you are a verrrrrrrrrrry bad influence on quiet English ladies like myself who wouldn't dream of flashing ermmmmm well not to so many people at once anyway
Erm I've just been floating around the BDSM threads so what is rainbow play and impact/edge play please?
Have done I'm not nosy you understand I just like to know
I went through a very hurtful break up a little over a month ago. I am still dealing with a lot of pain from it. In fact, some of my recent poetry has been inspired by it, including my last villanelle.
The hurt is compounded by the fact that he still talks to me. Sometimes, he'll say bullshit things like he's not ready for a relationship, and he'll alude that he may choose to be wih me at some point in the future. Other times, he'll mention that he had a date or whatever. I've asked him not to disuss those things with me at all. I'm hesitant to cut off all ties with him, because I do love him and he has been a source of support for me when I'm feeling depressed.
He text me today. He lost his job. He is a truckdriver, so not only had he lost his job, but he was stuck there at his place of employment. He also needed to store some of his stuff from the truck somewhere. He asked me to bail him out. He asked if I culd pick him up, store his stuff, and let him stay at my house tonight. So, I suppose I'm not good enough for him to be with, but good enough to rescue him.
I wanted to help him so bad! I want to hold him and tell him that everything is going to be fine. BUT, I know I would only end up in more pain. I have no doubt that if I rescued him, he would spend a considerable amount of time tonight on the phone with the girl he is seeing. I already have enough pain.
I asked why she couldn't help him. He said he hadn't told her about it yet.. and I have a feeling he isn't going to ask her for help. So, he's stuck there.. and I feel it. I feel so bad for him that I have to remind myself to breathe. But, I know that I can't help him and open myself up to more hurt.
I'm wondering if anyone at all can understand how I feel right now. I am proud of myself for saying "no." But, I'm still feeling too much of his stuff right now.. anxiety mostly.
-Sheila
Just remember that you asked when I tell you.
be strong, you made the right discision, right now you need some good energy, go to a place that is filled with postive energy and the right kind of people, you might want to go for a walk in the park, or if it is too hot, perhaps to a coffee house or the movies, the point is to feed yourself some good vibes.
I'm wondering if anyone at all can understand how I feel right now. I am proud of myself for saying "no." But, I'm still feeling too much of his stuff right now.. anxiety mostly.
-Sheila
You may blame me if you like, because i will always admit to being a terrible influence on people's behavior, but anyone who takes for their moral compass someone with Amoral Squalor as a motto probably doesn't have too much to kvetch about...
I'm just helping people find and own their True Nature.
That's what I'm going to tell them when they come to burn me at the stake.
Think it'll work?
bj
Your suggestions are good, but I isolate. I don't really have a positive place, and I am a bit afraid of people right now (due to the recent sexual assaults). I think, however, that I will take some time to meditate and watch one of my favorite movies after I do a writing assignment that needs done.
Heh heh...
Joan is that you? I meant to send you an invite to the bonfire being held in your honor tonight......but I'm guessing you heard about it.![]()
*crosses arms, blinks and nods, a la "I Dream of Jeanie*
(positive place appears in the form of the bistro)
For whatever it's worth, this is safe ground. You can't see us, but we are plenty real, and we root for you just the same.![]()