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I found out on Wednesday that my dad had passed on the 15th. He spent four days alone in his apartment before someone found him. It was a tragic ending to an even more tragic life. Our relationship was a complicated one. He grew up in an abusive household and while never abusive to me he was violent with my mother and lived his life as an addict. He did love me though, as much as he was able to, and much of who I am I attribute to being his daughter. I spent my childhood hoping he would change, choose me instead of drugs and held on to any shred of hope he was on a new path.
Unfortunately, that was not to be the case.
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As an adult I learned to set boundaries and worked to provide a very different family dynamic for my children. Its been far from perfect but my children grew up in a stable and supportive family knowing they were loved.
IMG_0079.jpegRecently I had to choose my children's safety and best interest over my dad. It lead to us being estranged for the past year.

The call from the medical examiner was a complete shock. I knew he would not live forever, in fact he is lucky to lived as long as he did, but the hurt and anger of loss is so raw.
Papa, I loved you for who you were and all the things I learned from you.

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May your spirit be free and may you have an easier path on your next go around.
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Trigger warning this isn't a sexy post but it’s real one.




I found out on Wednesday that my dad had passed on the 15th. He spent four days alone in his apartment before someone found him. It was a tragic ending to an even more tragic life. Our relationship was a complicated one. He grew up in an abusive household and while never abusive to me he was violent with my mother and lived his life as an addict. He did love me though, as much as he was able to, and much of who I am I attribute to being his daughter. I spent my childhood hoping he would change, choose me instead of drugs and held on to any shred of hope he was on a new path.
Unfortunately, that was not to be the case.
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As an adult I learned to set boundaries and worked to provide a very different family dynamic for my children. Its been far from perfect but my children grew up in a stable and supportive family knowing they were loved.
View attachment 2499580Recently I had to choose my children's safety and best interest over my dad. It lead to us being estranged for the past year.

The call from the medical examiner was a complete shock. I knew he would not live forever, in fact he is lucky to lived as long as he did, but the hurt and anger of loss is so raw.
Papa, I loved you for who you were and all the things I learned from you.

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May your spirit be free and may you have an easier path on your next go around.
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Extra hugs,
I'm sorry.
 
Trigger warning this isn't a sexy post but it’s real one.




I found out on Wednesday that my dad had passed on the 15th. He spent four days alone in his apartment before someone found him. It was a tragic ending to an even more tragic life. Our relationship was a complicated one. He grew up in an abusive household and while never abusive to me he was violent with my mother and lived his life as an addict. He did love me though, as much as he was able to, and much of who I am I attribute to being his daughter. I spent my childhood hoping he would change, choose me instead of drugs and held on to any shred of hope he was on a new path.
Unfortunately, that was not to be the case.
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As an adult I learned to set boundaries and worked to provide a very different family dynamic for my children. Its been far from perfect but my children grew up in a stable and supportive family knowing they were loved.
View attachment 2499580Recently I had to choose my children's safety and best interest over my dad. It lead to us being estranged for the past year.

The call from the medical examiner was a complete shock. I knew he would not live forever, in fact he is lucky to lived as long as he did, but the hurt and anger of loss is so raw.
Papa, I loved you for who you were and all the things I learned from you.

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May your spirit be free and may you have an easier path on your next go around.
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I'm sorry to hear about your dad. I'm sending mental hugs your way.
 
Trigger warning this isn't a sexy post but it’s real one.




I found out on Wednesday that my dad had passed on the 15th. He spent four days alone in his apartment before someone found him. It was a tragic ending to an even more tragic life. Our relationship was a complicated one. He grew up in an abusive household and while never abusive to me he was violent with my mother and lived his life as an addict. He did love me though, as much as he was able to, and much of who I am I attribute to being his daughter. I spent my childhood hoping he would change, choose me instead of drugs and held on to any shred of hope he was on a new path.
Unfortunately, that was not to be the case.
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As an adult I learned to set boundaries and worked to provide a very different family dynamic for my children. Its been far from perfect but my children grew up in a stable and supportive family knowing they were loved.
View attachment 2499580Recently I had to choose my children's safety and best interest over my dad. It lead to us being estranged for the past year.

The call from the medical examiner was a complete shock. I knew he would not live forever, in fact he is lucky to lived as long as he did, but the hurt and anger of loss is so raw.
Papa, I loved you for who you were and all the things I learned from you.

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May your spirit be free and may you have an easier path on your next go around.
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Your honesty, love and strength shine through 🫂🫂❤️
 
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Hugs to you and yours, love. And strength.

I'm still adjusting to the loss of my Dad in some ways, Mine passed in 2019, and also struggled to overcome parenting that was abusive. I feel like he made a valient effort and certainly did not install many of the less positive things about my paternal grandfather into us. He broke the cycle.
 
Trigger warning this isn't a sexy post but it’s real one.




I found out on Wednesday that my dad had passed on the 15th. He spent four days alone in his apartment before someone found him. It was a tragic ending to an even more tragic life. Our relationship was a complicated one. He grew up in an abusive household and while never abusive to me he was violent with my mother and lived his life as an addict. He did love me though, as much as he was able to, and much of who I am I attribute to being his daughter. I spent my childhood hoping he would change, choose me instead of drugs and held on to any shred of hope he was on a new path.
Unfortunately, that was not to be the case.
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As an adult I learned to set boundaries and worked to provide a very different family dynamic for my children. Its been far from perfect but my children grew up in a stable and supportive family knowing they were loved.
View attachment 2499580Recently I had to choose my children's safety and best interest over my dad. It lead to us being estranged for the past year.

The call from the medical examiner was a complete shock. I knew he would not live forever, in fact he is lucky to lived as long as he did, but the hurt and anger of loss is so raw.
Papa, I loved you for who you were and all the things I learned from you.

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May your spirit be free and may you have an easier path on your next go around.
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🫂🌻
 
Trigger warning this isn't a sexy post but it’s real one.




I found out on Wednesday that my dad had passed on the 15th. He spent four days alone in his apartment before someone found him. It was a tragic ending to an even more tragic life. Our relationship was a complicated one. He grew up in an abusive household and while never abusive to me he was violent with my mother and lived his life as an addict. He did love me though, as much as he was able to, and much of who I am I attribute to being his daughter. I spent my childhood hoping he would change, choose me instead of drugs and held on to any shred of hope he was on a new path.
Unfortunately, that was not to be the case.
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As an adult I learned to set boundaries and worked to provide a very different family dynamic for my children. Its been far from perfect but my children grew up in a stable and supportive family knowing they were loved.
View attachment 2499580Recently I had to choose my children's safety and best interest over my dad. It lead to us being estranged for the past year.

The call from the medical examiner was a complete shock. I knew he would not live forever, in fact he is lucky to lived as long as he did, but the hurt and anger of loss is so raw.
Papa, I loved you for who you were and all the things I learned from you.

View attachment 2499578View attachment 2499579

May your spirit be free and may you have an easier path on your next go around.
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🫂🫂
 
Trigger warning this isn't a sexy post but it’s real one.




I found out on Wednesday that my dad had passed on the 15th. He spent four days alone in his apartment before someone found him. It was a tragic ending to an even more tragic life. Our relationship was a complicated one. He grew up in an abusive household and while never abusive to me he was violent with my mother and lived his life as an addict. He did love me though, as much as he was able to, and much of who I am I attribute to being his daughter. I spent my childhood hoping he would change, choose me instead of drugs and held on to any shred of hope he was on a new path.
Unfortunately, that was not to be the case.
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As an adult I learned to set boundaries and worked to provide a very different family dynamic for my children. Its been far from perfect but my children grew up in a stable and supportive family knowing they were loved.
View attachment 2499580Recently I had to choose my children's safety and best interest over my dad. It lead to us being estranged for the past year.

The call from the medical examiner was a complete shock. I knew he would not live forever, in fact he is lucky to lived as long as he did, but the hurt and anger of loss is so raw.
Papa, I loved you for who you were and all the things I learned from you.

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May your spirit be free and may you have an easier path on your next go around.
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Hugs
 
Trigger warning this isn't a sexy post but it’s real one.




I found out on Wednesday that my dad had passed on the 15th. He spent four days alone in his apartment before someone found him. It was a tragic ending to an even more tragic life. Our relationship was a complicated one. He grew up in an abusive household and while never abusive to me he was violent with my mother and lived his life as an addict. He did love me though, as much as he was able to, and much of who I am I attribute to being his daughter. I spent my childhood hoping he would change, choose me instead of drugs and held on to any shred of hope he was on a new path.
Unfortunately, that was not to be the case.
View attachment 2499577
As an adult I learned to set boundaries and worked to provide a very different family dynamic for my children. Its been far from perfect but my children grew up in a stable and supportive family knowing they were loved.
View attachment 2499580Recently I had to choose my children's safety and best interest over my dad. It lead to us being estranged for the past year.

The call from the medical examiner was a complete shock. I knew he would not live forever, in fact he is lucky to lived as long as he did, but the hurt and anger of loss is so raw.
Papa, I loved you for who you were and all the things I learned from you.

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May your spirit be free and may you have an easier path on your next go around.
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Very sorry for your loss PG. My condolences...
 
Trigger warning this isn't a sexy post but it’s real one.




I found out on Wednesday that my dad had passed on the 15th. He spent four days alone in his apartment before someone found him. It was a tragic ending to an even more tragic life. Our relationship was a complicated one. He grew up in an abusive household and while never abusive to me he was violent with my mother and lived his life as an addict. He did love me though, as much as he was able to, and much of who I am I attribute to being his daughter. I spent my childhood hoping he would change, choose me instead of drugs and held on to any shred of hope he was on a new path.
Unfortunately, that was not to be the case.
View attachment 2499577
As an adult I learned to set boundaries and worked to provide a very different family dynamic for my children. Its been far from perfect but my children grew up in a stable and supportive family knowing they were loved.
View attachment 2499580Recently I had to choose my children's safety and best interest over my dad. It lead to us being estranged for the past year.

The call from the medical examiner was a complete shock. I knew he would not live forever, in fact he is lucky to lived as long as he did, but the hurt and anger of loss is so raw.
Papa, I loved you for who you were and all the things I learned from you.

View attachment 2499578View attachment 2499579

May your spirit be free and may you have an easier path on your next go around.
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I am so sorry for your loss. Family can be so complicated. :heart: 🫂
 
Trigger warning this isn't a sexy post but it’s real one.




I found out on Wednesday that my dad had passed on the 15th. He spent four days alone in his apartment before someone found him. It was a tragic ending to an even more tragic life. Our relationship was a complicated one. He grew up in an abusive household and while never abusive to me he was violent with my mother and lived his life as an addict. He did love me though, as much as he was able to, and much of who I am I attribute to being his daughter. I spent my childhood hoping he would change, choose me instead of drugs and held on to any shred of hope he was on a new path.
Unfortunately, that was not to be the case.
View attachment 2499577
As an adult I learned to set boundaries and worked to provide a very different family dynamic for my children. Its been far from perfect but my children grew up in a stable and supportive family knowing they were loved.
View attachment 2499580Recently I had to choose my children's safety and best interest over my dad. It lead to us being estranged for the past year.

The call from the medical examiner was a complete shock. I knew he would not live forever, in fact he is lucky to lived as long as he did, but the hurt and anger of loss is so raw.
Papa, I loved you for who you were and all the things I learned from you.

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May your spirit be free and may you have an easier path on your next go around.
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My thoughts are with you. 💞
 
Trigger warning this isn't a sexy post but it’s real one.




I found out on Wednesday that my dad had passed on the 15th. He spent four days alone in his apartment before someone found him. It was a tragic ending to an even more tragic life. Our relationship was a complicated one. He grew up in an abusive household and while never abusive to me he was violent with my mother and lived his life as an addict. He did love me though, as much as he was able to, and much of who I am I attribute to being his daughter. I spent my childhood hoping he would change, choose me instead of drugs and held on to any shred of hope he was on a new path.
Unfortunately, that was not to be the case.
View attachment 2499577
As an adult I learned to set boundaries and worked to provide a very different family dynamic for my children. Its been far from perfect but my children grew up in a stable and supportive family knowing they were loved.
View attachment 2499580Recently I had to choose my children's safety and best interest over my dad. It lead to us being estranged for the past year.

The call from the medical examiner was a complete shock. I knew he would not live forever, in fact he is lucky to lived as long as he did, but the hurt and anger of loss is so raw.
Papa, I loved you for who you were and all the things I learned from you.

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May your spirit be free and may you have an easier path on your next go around.
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I’m very sorry to hear of your loss, no matter what type of relationship you have or had, loss is loss. My only advice is to be kind to yourself, quell any doubts that might arise before they take root, revel in all that is wonderful in your life, the life’s that you created that thrive and congratulate yourself for breaking the cycle, which is never easy.
 
Trigger warning this isn't a sexy post but it’s real one.




I found out on Wednesday that my dad had passed on the 15th. He spent four days alone in his apartment before someone found him. It was a tragic ending to an even more tragic life. Our relationship was a complicated one. He grew up in an abusive household and while never abusive to me he was violent with my mother and lived his life as an addict. He did love me though, as much as he was able to, and much of who I am I attribute to being his daughter. I spent my childhood hoping he would change, choose me instead of drugs and held on to any shred of hope he was on a new path.
Unfortunately, that was not to be the case.
View attachment 2499577
As an adult I learned to set boundaries and worked to provide a very different family dynamic for my children. Its been far from perfect but my children grew up in a stable and supportive family knowing they were loved.
View attachment 2499580Recently I had to choose my children's safety and best interest over my dad. It lead to us being estranged for the past year.

The call from the medical examiner was a complete shock. I knew he would not live forever, in fact he is lucky to lived as long as he did, but the hurt and anger of loss is so raw.
Papa, I loved you for who you were and all the things I learned from you.

View attachment 2499578View attachment 2499579

May your spirit be free and may you have an easier path on your next go around.
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So sorry to hear of your loss.
I remember each day I lost one of my parents.
I hope you find peace.
 
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