Preparing the canvas
All whitewashed and clean
Becomes graywashed with potential
Calling to me to be the channel
To fill in and set afire
With all my talent and skill
Marks and lines
Smudges and breaks
Corrections and perfection
Lost in the process
In a world of my own
Conduit for creation
After all the fury and flurry
Has run its course
There is the touchup
And a signature
Cleanup
And then sleep
Nursing a drink with a salty rim
while the 90s cover band in the corner
sings about taking a little dirt
to keep what you love
I can only nod in agreement
holding back the mud
that threatens to leak from my eyes
I hope when you think of me
you remember that night
we laughed as hard and long
as either of us ever had
and the way that pure joy
is still tears, snot, and muscle aches
(With a wee nod to "If You Could Only See" by Tonic)
How were you ever that young?
Scrambling on scree slopes
My red headed paleontologist
North slope Alaska
Collecting ice age fossils
Already a public servant
Criss crossing the country
Outer banks Red wolf project
Appalachian small mammel study
Hooting for owls by night
mapping northwest habitat
Helo flights 'round Mt Rainier
Just how many elk were down there?
fragile meadows restored
dug fire breaks in Yellowstone
Salmon runs to the Salish sea
Environmental complexity
and science of road ecology
Transportation biology
Seasonal posts gave you skills
An internship became a job
Time ticked away as
Months became years
the century turned
And then it was decades
state and federal consultation
Scientific investigation
Field reviews and mitigation
Policy coordination
All that salmon litigation
Scribbles in notebooks
You know the kind
clipboards and binders
Field guides and binoculars
Rain jackets, boots, grab your tuks
Whatever weather, you don't mind
Sex & Crime
we lust & we watch
in our heads & in our minds
caught with pants down & fingering in cookie jars
Need & More
*Elfchen, a simple - is it? - form, made of eleven words, there are formal rules, but maybe the Forms threads is a better place, and, certainly, Tzara a better-versed poet to explain
The poet almost sang—
her lines tenderly sprang from lips
the way a flat stone skips
across a still pond, rippling. We
sat circled, quietly
attentive, honored. She looked sad,
almost as if she had
been lost, as a nomad wanders.
She can’t get you out of her mind.
When she wakes you are there,
maybe lounging on the side
of the bed, patiently waiting for her
to wake and then help her open
her day with your gentle kiss.
Driving to work, rain starts to kiss
her windshield and it reminds
her of the day she opened.
her door and you stood there,
just as she dreamt, smiling at her
in the pouring rain. She invited you inside,
her mind spun, being undecided.
What if you touched her, even a kiss
on the cheek would undo her.
As if you could read her mind,
you embraced her then and there,
eyes shut in shock, yours? Wide open.
You lifted her up, bedroom door was open
and you carried her, unresisting, inside.
So many delicious memories are there,
the slow disrobing, many a deep kiss,
violence and roughness, but she did not mind,
She bit your lip in passion as you took her
The way she liked, rough while you restrained her,
tied to the bed with her legs wide open.
Your deft cunnilingus blew her mind,
then a change of tactics, slid up to her side,
lay there, touched her, she longed for a kiss,
your fingers, magic when you stroked her there,
finding her G spot. Oh magic! Oh yes! There
You brought her to climax but never fucked her.
You gently untied her, and shared one last kiss
then you were gone. All possibilities open,
she hoped you’d be back to lie by her side.
but she has to be happy to have you on her mind.
She imagined you there, out in the open
Leaning on the door side, grinning at her.
She kissed you before you could leave her mind.
Laying in bed, gazing into the night
Thinking of you and finding the stars
Peace and quiet, just sounds of cars
On a distant road clean out of sight
Laying in bed, gazing into the night
Rubbing my chest and finding scars
Dreams of dancing and Spanish guitars
With you in my arms your eyes so bright
Laying in bed, gazing into the night
Eyes like opals enchanting me from afar
Breathing your Oly Rain like a drunk in a bar
Besotten and restless, do you feel my plight
As I lay here in bed, gazing into the night
The winter wind whips
and whirls the snow
outside my window
obscuring the world
reminding me of a blank canvas
empty with possibilities
full of nothing
don't tell me that force
repeated impacts
will crystalize flesh:
hammer blows render it a soupy mess
of pulverised meat and shattered bone—
it doesn't make a body stronger
now souls
if they exist
may be another matter
metaphorical or metaphysical—take your pick
all i know
is that some people are diamonds
harder, brighter after exposure to pressure—
too easily cut the glass of lesser beings
still counting imperfections
and i'd sooner be loved
scarred
by one who knows they're flawed
than be remorselessly carved
by cold carbon
The winter’s overcast
Used to make me despondent
Ptsd’d and Sad’d out
But you helped me
Look at the chessboard of winter from another side
Where I used to just see brown, dead woods
You have me see the beauty
Of the late day sunlight hitting it just right
Generating radiance and illumination
To my tired eyes
You have taught me to seek out the sycamore
With their white trunks contrasting against brown forest
Finding beech trees
That stubbornly hold on to their caramel leaves
All winter long
Extending their middle finger to winter
It used to seem so dark all the time
But you taught me to enjoy the slanted sun
The soft pink morning clouds
The spectacular sunsets
Showed me how to do timelapses with my phone
Capturing barely perceptible movement
Even the gray overcast jersey winter no longer bothers me
The sunlight sneaks thru
To contrast light and dark
You taught me how to hike in the winter
How to find hawks and eagles on icy jersey hills and farmland
You helped me buy the farm - literally
Farm fields used to be brown and lifeless
But you taught me to look at them as
Blonde, soft and stunning
Like you
You have helped unfuck my head
And for that I am forever grateful.
Woke up and thought of Lucy and Snoopy,
Nice of Freddy the Labrador to rouse me from sleep,
and totally on time, too, since the alarm went off
mere moments after I got the closest thing to a
canine French kiss that I ever want to encounter,
Man, I thought those doggy treats were supposed to
help with this breath, not to make it all floral--like geranium blossoms or
something, just better than to be expected--but
with a tongue that tastes like that,
I'm not so sure they're working;
I sat up as best I could and reached for my phone,
but the first thing I found on the nightstand was a cheap Bic,
Which worked well, since I could have used a smoke just then,
And a drink too. Really was gonna be a day.
Breathing deep the salt sea air
My soul soaking in Summer's heat
Toes twisting in clean hot sand
Crashing surf calling my name
Wading out and joining the sea
One with the waves, steady and sure
Past the point of untamed majesty
All of my focus unconsciously bears
Up and standing, balanced and certain
Gliding through, gliding fast, gliding now
Adjusting, minor changes, courses
Finding the pocket and bringing it home
Big waves and small, great waves
Surfing them all, one with the sea
Untamed wild majesty washing away
Washing through me, baptised again
Staggering through the crashing surf
How it never ends, steady, constant
Muscles played out and satisfied
Soaking my heart in the Summer's heat
The suns morning tendrils
snake, sneakily amongst the trees
defeating dark with its orange red fingers
setting ablaze, the ground, the leaves
and everything it touches burns
a fire, devoid of any real heat
I’m not the right hands
I don’t want them over your chest
My palm pushing down
I don’t want them pushing the epi
I’m not the right hands
I used to think I was
Sometimes it still fits
When I push my feelings aside
When I let everything happen
Calm in the storm
When it’s a hurricane
And yet I’m still not heard
When I whispered
So I’m silently waiting
For the eye to pass by
As the life my hands hold
Softens into the mattress
I’m not the right ones
To be holding you
But I am the ones here
So I do.
I long to take a stroll
with pack, inside, bedroll and map,
a blanket I can wrap.
And take a sturdy sapling to
help when the path’s askew.
The walk will let me meditate
and things that aggravate,
that put me in a state, will leave.