bicurious19
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So, as the title says it. I’m a hypocrite. I’m ‘straight’ and present and act masculine in every way. I seek romantic relationships with women, and very much do enjoy sex with women. I find men repulsive. I find gay sex between men disgusting.
Having unrestricted access to the Internet and the privacy of a locked door with virtually zero oversight as a 13 year old boy I soon discovered porn, and regardless of knowing it was for show and an act, questions from what I saw began to form.
Naturally started off vanilla. I saw regular sex with girls going absolutely crazy, to obviously being bored. This was consistent across most genres I found. The progression to watching more anal sex didn’t take long, and again the same thing was observed. These girls getting fucked in their pussy, I could not relate with. However, i too had an asshole I thought. To keep things following the rules, let’s fast forward to me being 18(of age). By the time I was 18 I had years of playing with household objects. Candles, cucumbers etc.
I never fantasised about the guy in the video fucking me, rather comparing the size of cock and comparing the reaction of the receiver to the size that was in me. Shemale porn was discovered next. Here my curiosities rose even higher. In the back of my mind knowing it’s a guy, the horny part of me that couldn’t relate to a girl in the videos suddenly could. And again, I saw similar things. Some tgirls getting absolutely destroyed and loving it, others groaning in pain, more and more thinking to myself I could take that.
Even when it popped up, shemales fucking guys i always skipped over. By this stage shemales fucking guys was my preferred porn for jerking off, when time permitted hours and hours of dildo play were routinely enjoyed, and I still had no desire to be fucked. I can’t even remember when or how it happened. I finally gave a try to a vid that had been popping up in my searches for a long time. I opened it. It was a gorgeous shemale in sexy lingerie with a big hard cock fucking a guy. A 1.75 inch thick vibrating dildo was deep in my ass with a pair of panties as usual keeping it in place. (Living with full house I used to love being interrupted, pulling the panties or g string up tight, briefs over the top and pants to finish. Walking around with a dildo on highest vibe setting, no choice except having it as deep as possible to prevent displaying a hard to explain tail LOL. Knowing that the g string could slip and I might face a dildo falling out of my ass infront of all my family was such a thrill-okay I will admit. Outwardly
Having unrestricted access to the Internet and the privacy of a locked door with virtually zero oversight as a 13 year old boy I soon discovered porn, and regardless of knowing it was for show and an act, questions from what I saw began to form.
Naturally started off vanilla. I saw regular sex with girls going absolutely crazy, to obviously being bored. This was consistent across most genres I found. The progression to watching more anal sex didn’t take long, and again the same thing was observed. These girls getting fucked in their pussy, I could not relate with. However, i too had an asshole I thought. To keep things following the rules, let’s fast forward to me being 18(of age). By the time I was 18 I had years of playing with household objects. Candles, cucumbers etc.
I never fantasised about the guy in the video fucking me, rather comparing the size of cock and comparing the reaction of the receiver to the size that was in me. Shemale porn was discovered next. Here my curiosities rose even higher. In the back of my mind knowing it’s a guy, the horny part of me that couldn’t relate to a girl in the videos suddenly could. And again, I saw similar things. Some tgirls getting absolutely destroyed and loving it, others groaning in pain, more and more thinking to myself I could take that.
Even when it popped up, shemales fucking guys i always skipped over. By this stage shemales fucking guys was my preferred porn for jerking off, when time permitted hours and hours of dildo play were routinely enjoyed, and I still had no desire to be fucked. I can’t even remember when or how it happened. I finally gave a try to a vid that had been popping up in my searches for a long time. I opened it. It was a gorgeous shemale in sexy lingerie with a big hard cock fucking a guy. A 1.75 inch thick vibrating dildo was deep in my ass with a pair of panties as usual keeping it in place. (Living with full house I used to love being interrupted, pulling the panties or g string up tight, briefs over the top and pants to finish. Walking around with a dildo on highest vibe setting, no choice except having it as deep as possible to prevent displaying a hard to explain tail LOL. Knowing that the g string could slip and I might face a dildo falling out of my ass infront of all my family was such a thrill-okay I will admit. Outwardly
