okay this is a bit an introduction of me
First time here, so if I share too much, just let me know
I had a relationship with an older man for quite some time, started when I was ~18, he was 30. It lasted almost 10 years. Initially we had very good vanilla sex. Then after a year he started to try new things, he bought sexy clothing for me and shoes. He was very proud of me and he said he wanted to try that I dressed very sexy and went shopping in Rotterdam (I remember well). He would then walk 20 meter behind me and look how others looked at me. That was a huge turn on for him and for me too. I always feel it as a big compliment when men look at you.
(It is the same when you are in a sauna, when a guy next to you gets an erection, that the biggest compliment; guys can tell you a lot of bullshit and lies, but when a guy gets an erection by looking at you, that is the biggest honest compliment you can get).
Anyway, months later he asked me to dress sexy at home, when his friends came for watching football, and that was supersexy, especially as I saw how proud he was for me. We did this several times, and the attention I got was great!
Then for my holiday I got a breast enlargement from him and that was super!
After some time he asked me if it was okay if his friends could see the result, so again when they came over, dressing sexy, i showed them my boobs, they even touched it. This was for me a sensation, looking at my friend peter being very proud when his friends touched me, and feeling very desired. It also felt great to do what he wanted. At this point the D/S started for me. Next time his friends came I had to show more, it took only a month when his friends touched me everywhere and it was followed by sex. Peter mentioned to me that it really turned him on to see me have sex with other men. I felt it very exciting to "be given away" to others for sex. I started to look on the internet and created my own fantasies. One is to be naked, handcuffed, collared and brought on a leash to a group of men that can do what they want.
Unfortunately Peter did not like bondage, and my fantasy became so strong that it hampered our relationship and it is now over.
So not a good ending and not really a BDSM experience, though I thing that being given to other men for sex has a D/S aspect