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Old 11-19-2017, 04:53 PM   #1
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When did you know you were gay (if you are)?

It took me a long time to realize I was crazy for cock.
Well, maybe not that long. There was always a fascination. But I didn't think I really wanted it. I was emotionally drawn to women----still have crushes on women, but I'm old enough now to realize my pattern of being drawn to women I would never be with and thus remaining alone to yearn piteously (and beautifully) and then have some hot fantasies about getting fucked by a roomful of hung guys.

I even spent time in a Catholic seminary where a lot of the guys were gay but I never had sex with any of them. I wasn't really aware of wanting to. Except for this one younger guy I really didn't like, or think was real attractive, and he was kind of an ass, but sometimes he wore these ridiculous short-shorts that made everyone--including me--roll their eyes, but me had meaty thighs that really turned me on and I wanted to suck his cock really bad.

Where was I?

O. I don't really know when I knew. It's not necessary to know the time. But as a guy from a very religious / repressed background who was late ADMITTING TO HIMSELF he loves the cock, we'll I feel like the big kid in the dumb row---miles behind everyone else, isolated. O, and horny. ;o)
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Old 11-19-2017, 06:09 PM   #2
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Realization

It was early in my life... I spent my summers with my cousins in southern Germany. Both were a little older and we all sleeped together.

After a couple of weeks my first summer, my older cousins began playing with their cocks and I found I wanted to play to. I was amazed at how hard my cock would get when I began touching my cousin's cocks. I was attracked to their cocks and they knew they had me.

I started and loved sucking cock, the way a cock feels in my mouth and feeling a cock pulsing as it gave up my cousins essence. I wanted more, to feel a cocking in me, the feeling of a cock in my rectum was wonderful. The feeling of a cock using me was so wonderful. So initimate and knowing I was pleasing them was a sign I was going to be this way for all of my life.

I wish I could find someone now in the northern Virginia area.
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Old 11-19-2017, 07:13 PM   #3
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I had a fascination with cock when I was a young teen and had my first sexual awakenings. I believe my first masturbation was thinking of another boy's cock pressed against mine and I often thought of cock when masturbating.

Actual sexual contact with boys though didn't happen and my thoughts were limited to fantasies. When I finally started with men, by my late 20s, I still reserved contact with receiving oral. I enjoyed the blow jobs and felt that didn't mean I was gay.

I suppose I truly realized I am probably gay is when I first kissed a man. It was everything I dreamed and more and it didn't take him but a moment to gently press on my shoulders for me to suck my first cock. I haven't looked back since and now know I am much more comfortable sexually with a man than with a woman.
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Old 11-19-2017, 07:19 PM   #4
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I had a fascination with cock when I was a young teen and had my first sexual awakenings. I believe my first masturbation was thinking of another boy's cock pressed against mine and I often thought of cock when masturbating.

Actual sexual contact with boys though didn't happen and my thoughts were limited to fantasies. When I finally started with men, by my late 20s, I still reserved contact with receiving oral. I enjoyed the blow jobs and felt that didn't mean I was gay.

I suppose I truly realized I am probably gay is when I first kissed a man. It was everything I dreamed and more and it didn't take him but a moment to gently press on my shoulders for me to suck my first cock. I haven't looked back since and now know I am much more comfortable sexually with a man than with a woman.
a lot of similarities w/my 1st realization
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Old 11-20-2017, 03:24 PM   #5
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I was young when I realized I was "different" and enjoyed the men in certain magazines, got what I realized later were crushes on men, did some crossdressing and played with other boys. I was attracted to women but something always held me back from any serious sexual interest. Once I became active with men it just seemed so much more comfortable and easier than with a woman, and by my 20s I was comfortable that for whatever reason I identified myself as gay and went on from there.

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Old 11-20-2017, 03:25 PM   #6
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I had a fascination with cock when I was a young teen and had my first sexual awakenings. I believe my first masturbation was thinking of another boy's cock pressed against mine and I often thought of cock when masturbating.

Actual sexual contact with boys though didn't happen and my thoughts were limited to fantasies. When I finally started with men, by my late 20s, I still reserved contact with receiving oral. I enjoyed the blow jobs and felt that didn't mean I was gay.

I suppose I truly realized I am probably gay is when I first kissed a man. It was everything I dreamed and more and it didn't take him but a moment to gently press on my shoulders for me to suck my first cock. I haven't looked back since and now know I am much more comfortable sexually with a man than with a woman.
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Old 11-21-2017, 11:24 AM   #7
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Nice story
Thank you for that Jerseyshore.
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Old 11-21-2017, 05:30 PM   #8
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Thank you for that Jerseyshore.
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Old 11-21-2017, 07:45 PM   #9
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I've always been too attracted to women to ever consider myself gay, but I found cocks and pussies equally exciting almost as soon as I became sexually aware--and I still do.
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Old 11-21-2017, 10:31 PM   #10
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I'm not gay.

I am probably bi. To coin a stereotype, I love women and I crave cock.

Had I been born female I'd be a lesbian that likes cocks too, rather than a straight(ish) guy that like cocks too. Girls rock! I'm comfortable with them and usually not so much with men. At least "typical" men.

Even as a young teen I fantasized about "somehow" winding up in the hospital and waking up to find out the docs "had to" rearrange things surgically to save my life. Having the build of a lumberjack, though, I've never even considered trying to pass. NOBODY would believe me!

I had some gay experiences growing up and in college. Decades later I tried it again and am a bit miffed at wasting all that time.

So, when did I know something was different? Somewhere around 10.

"Meaningful" action, maybe 19-20.

Acceptance, in progress!

At some point, watching porn, I simply realized that I was identifying with HER and not so much with HIM.
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