Old 03-07-2015, 07:01 AM   #1
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My soul

Pices of thoughts arranged in the way that they are by me.
Call them label them what you will but here they are and here they will be when the time
Strikes me to do so.
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Old 03-07-2015, 07:05 AM   #2
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Mona

Been surfing for songs, none say what I would say to you if I could in away that I knew you would understand.
None hold back the hands of time like your eyes!
None give the love I would drown in for you !
How could I expect to find something in words others give that would ever measure up to the thoughts I have of you!
Cheap it would be if I sold out the true love and desire I have for you with songs from someone else's thoughts.
To pick you up I would end this world shattering it into pices to remove the gravity,
Just so I would never let you down.
What hope is there for others when I hold all the love that ever was in my heart for you!
Even these words that seem so bold are invisible compared to the beauty I see in you.
Time has no chains I can not brake there no distance I can not cross For you ,
to see you smile there's nothing I can't go through
Dear Mona I will always find you even if for just a moment ,
just to see you smile.p
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Old 03-07-2015, 07:12 AM   #3
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Lint

Am I safe from the whole
I've splinterd off but it's taken its toll
The judge has swung his gavel in a deep voice I hear rattling gravel
The sounds seem so critical the views seem just plain political
And Love has seem to have lost
to the flesh at such a low cost
A foggy steam clouded room moist with need to expel
Bursting forth like a demon from hell
yet I am a babe sliding out this cunt
Just like a pice of lint falling from a sleeve
It's birth not death that's the time to grieve
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Old 03-07-2015, 07:21 AM   #4
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Dew

The mornings dew has begun
The breath of life and whispers of pleasure fill the air
Desire grows as the heart beat speeds into focus
Softly touching the center of the universe
Shinning joy covers the intersection of all things
The whispers tighten every muscle
Grinding passion tears the gift from its source
As the dew drops from its sacred place
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Old 03-07-2015, 07:40 AM   #5
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Shattered

All things once beautiful soured in action of betrayal crush the will to love
I am sadden in this pool of tears that has yet to begin
Lost in lessons of fornication between where it ends and where it begins
My heart has its own life thankfully it dosnt include me anymore
I could not bear the weight of its power that's for sure
Tossed in a grab bag of toys easily discarded
Like any other day one just maybe be where our paths parted
Like a billion points I'll never make
And even more chances I'll never take
Living with this smile I have to fake
shatterd with in a fools dream of what I thought love would mean
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Old 03-09-2015, 04:15 AM   #6
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I can not abide

Sadness try's to hard to swallow me whole
Giving pause to my sole
It's the only thing I know I can not abide
Didn't care for it oh believe me I tried.
When I get to choose the answers always clear
When I don't I have chosen fear
What awaits me in the coming moments is all I can handle
The past and the future are just trophys on the mantle
Smoke clouds the jury's choice guilty and innocent screams the same voice
Happiness engulf me in your sweet embrace before I disapear with out a trace
Time and time again this I will choose to be the bomb and the fuse
All or nothing they want you to believe and they will say it to you with tricks up their sleeve
Half full half empty you've heard them ask, im more about the glass
With a wink and a whistle I'll turn the tide because being sad I can not abide
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Old 03-10-2015, 01:21 AM   #7
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Tonight

The day brakes into the dusk
I cling to it trying to believe There will be more in that i trust
Night falls and a clam embraces me with memory's of what once was
Tore down naked unseen in the shadows of my weakness
Betrayed and battered I crawl and claw my way from beneath the weight of my world
Spread across the sheets she lies with his whisper in her ear replacing all that we shared with
Moans of her new found freedom
Not discarded not replaced just augmented she wants me to embrace
I'm free too I try and try do my best not to wonder why
And I free her as if she was mine to free I let out a sigh
Slowly I submit to contuine our love in a way I would never have thought of
Epic was how love it was once told now just a partnership for all to behold
Her reach has fallen on another soul she says it like shes in control
She would like me to believe We are still one and I should hold on tight
but she is busy with him so what shall I do for me tonight

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Old 03-25-2015, 09:12 AM   #8
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Beauty

My scars harden as I feel the will of the universe
The last I know will be the same as the first verse
The pains of birth and the pains of death are the same
born again into a world we can never remain
The jagged edge of life cuts deep
Somtimes the price we pay is to steep
From the moment your happy lest you forget
You can live this life with no regrets
Taste it's luscious juice
As you step up to the noose
Raging forward the engine roars
Searching franticly from shore to shore
Yes I will
Yes I will
Theres a beauty in it all
I'll get back in line for another round
It's just a tease I have found
Beauty has lifted me up and tore me down to my knees
But all I can think is more please

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Old 03-28-2015, 10:46 PM   #9
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Today is the day

Today he came at me begging to be free
Today I found I was fighting myself or what came from me
When my pain set in I found I was alive
I did wonder with hope that he will find his way
So many moments so many days
Short is time as forever i live in the fray
Now will I move forward and embrace myself caring little for the past things I felt
Never revieling The words of the day and the cards I was delt
What was wasn't working so I boke the mold
Took it on the chin
I hope on this new path i don't fold
Today is day thats true
there's no going back
Today is the day what will you do
Im hoping the best im hoping for you
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Old 03-31-2015, 10:40 AM   #10
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Paths

The forks are sharpe as knives
The curves they bring you to the edge
Each path has its own life
Each choice asks you to stand on a ledge
Looking for safe footing you May loose your self
No going back to dreaming of love and wealth
Arrive in its cold embrace leaving a waton look on your face
Is this is it is this why are there others reason is this why we try
What direction you are going will lead you anywhere
What drection you came from has brought you here
Why are you here
What path have you traveled
The stories and tales of your former self
People gathered captured and put in a frame up on a shelf
No one will know all the paths you traveled
You don't have to choose if you get baffled
Paths , a choice is made
if you left by now or you stayed
Either way the story unravels

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Old 04-06-2015, 11:03 PM   #11
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Pieces

Smashing a thousand universes to dust dosnt come close to the pieces a heart can brake into
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Old 04-07-2015, 12:02 PM   #12
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Helpless

I find when I do it's not enough
I find when I don't im nothing more then lame
I find that doing either is making me feel the same
I'm your excuse to unleash your inner demon
I'm the the one you need to blame I'm your reason
When it's my heart you crush and my love you smash
If it's not your way I'm caught in the back lash
Service me or i'm useless I'm begging to feel
Unconditional love seems so simple but also unreal
I love you so deep and pure and of that I know there is no cure
Your lost in a violent storm of lust
Lost your way for getting who to trust
I offer no chains that bind I give no promises
I'm helpless in that you are deciding
I see no happiness in the thoughts you are providing
I'm am here I'm am love I am yours stop hiding
Flesh will lead you nowhere we can't all go
in our minds down the rabbit hole
What is right or wrong is not in question
you get to choose is not a suggestion
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Old 04-15-2015, 11:56 AM   #13
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The return

He ran out the door want to hear no more
Across the field through the woods to make his stand
Up the tree he climbes with the rope in his hand
They won't leave him alone they assault his very soul
He knows they don't belong there his fight is constant for control
Each rung of the ladder he sees their end
Through the woods she approaches like an angel a real God send
As he climbs she shouts stop while running faster
He keeps climbing of his thoughts he wants to be the master
He's reached the top his head goes in the noose no more hearing voices time to let them loose
At the tree she climbs to block his fall trying to make sense of it all
I love you please don't do this
The stand off weighs heavy as both contemplat
The source of his exstiance show up watch and wait
They who brought him into this world and watched him grow
Mother and father at the foot of the tree beg please come down we love you don't let this be
He finds his strength and drops the noose
Climbs down for the moment a welcome truce
Off he goes seeking help looking for answers to control the things he's felt
The end is not an answer for anything your delt
The love waits knowing he will learn
The love waits for his return
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Old 04-23-2015, 10:11 AM   #14
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Next

She is the mother of the return it broke her to wait
The last straw as they say set her on her way
Wasn't a rope she chose or a tree she would climb is was a hand full of pills she was next in line
Caught in time she still has a chance given a gift to change her stance
Find her way to live another day
No spells that were cast no thoughts on the past so simple and true cast out these demons I command them to leave you
The strength I find comes from the Devine and generations of those who walk that fine line
Faith it seems the answers it brings no more questions of unwanted things
Sadness is like quicksand the more you struggle the deeper you go
I get it I understand I've felt the smashing waves of grief
I feel it and let it go
in love I beleive
I wont be next im not her relief
No turns I'll take when my heart it brakes
Happiness rises and fills every space
cleanse our souls leaveing not a trace
Felt delt dealing nothing's more appealing then a smile on her face

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Old 04-28-2015, 09:32 AM   #15
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Whisper

The day's continue and the fading ache in my heart keeps diminishing
It is a good thing this calm after the storm
I found my self standing at the edge with you wanting to jump holding your hand so you would know your not alone
I don't know where we will end up but I do know how we go from here
We go together where ever that may be
You carry me in you with you always
I hold you in a place so gentle and pure know you are safe and loved
There's no wishing for better of what could be and what was
There's only thankfulness for what is
We are here to co create a world who's contrast is so vast and evolving that the word eternity has meaning
I wake with the intent to enjoy every day my inner thoughts will allow nothing less
Ever Onward I go
you can find me stumbling at the very least toward a happy end
When it's quite and I can hear a whisper and feel my heart beat
The voice in my head is screaming I feel thankful that we are still here
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Old 05-20-2015, 01:29 AM   #16
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Why

There no reason to ask why I've already done that a thousand times
No answer will change what is or what was
What will be is now where I form all my thoughts
What will be is now
Now you see me as I am and still you want more
The more you seek is empty and shrouded in unknowns
Does Filling a dogs dish with water make him a slave to you
Or are you the slave
One hand washes the other or both hands are dirty
When the flesh is gone who will you be
When the moans stop what will you say
When I am gone who will hold you as well as I
I am Half gone from a place I never want to leave
You choose for me cause I let you
What is it you choose for me
What is it I deserve
How am I held in your heart
What sins can wash away a love so pure
Who will they say I was
In the end I hope you choose well for me
I choose you
why
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