Shankara20
Well, that is lovely
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From my point of view our bodies are excellent devises for feeling – feeling all sort of things, including emotions. It has been my experience that when emotions become overwhelming to the point that we cannot handle them, we “shut down” and our bodies become holders of those emotions. These “put away” emotions do not go away, they do not diminish, they just hold-up till it is time to come out.
I have experienced in BDSM play the sudden and unexpected reemergence of long held difficult emotions. The times it has happened to me have been when I am in the care of a Top I totally trust, in a location I feel save (private dungeon), and in circumstances that have me very exposed (totally naked for instance).
The play has often been impact play, mostly during heavy floggings, but has happened during fisting attempts, CBT and needle play. Several times the emotional release has been almost explosive resulting in cathartic expressions moving faster that the ability to call safeword. I am, despite what a few might think here (smile), mentally stable, and these breaks have not happened often. I am grateful from the few I have had, today I feel loosed from some of the unseen nonconsensual emotions that have had me bound in a “not good” way. My BDSM play has left me freer in my life today.
And I am deeply thankful that I was in the skilled caring hands of experienced Tops that knew when to stop the scene and start the aftercare.
To some this may be BDSM 101. But I just felt the desire to toss this out for discussion. In the last several days a few here have mentioned emotionally painful events that had been dealt to them. That brought to my mind how BDSM has played a very important part in my healing process, besides expanding my kink factor exponentially
In this moment I am remembering back about 10 years ago to the basement dungeon of a Domme I had been seeing for sometime. I was naked setting on a stool. She was in an elevated position fully dressed in leather. I was blindfolded and setting between her open legs. She was piercing my chest with medical needles for the very first time – four needles down each side from shoulder to breast ending in two needles into each nipple. After showing me her handy work in her full length mirror we returned to the same positions, me setting naked on a stool between her legs while she was seated on a raised platform. Taking my now pierced nipples by her fingers she started to give them attention while stating “you may now masturbate for me and are allowed to touch my legs”. I lost it at about that point. Emotionally I became a small boy, never got a hard-on and started to cry. All of a sudden, while receiving a painful twist of my two pierced nipples, I was flooded with deep feelings of loss from when my father died; I was 14 when that happened. Needless to say the session went to a totally unexpected place. Her care of me in that moment was exceptional. In the weeks following I was able to finely open up a part of my emotions that had been closed off for over 30 years.
A scene can be a very cathartic, healing place.
Any thoughts or experiences you care to share?
I have experienced in BDSM play the sudden and unexpected reemergence of long held difficult emotions. The times it has happened to me have been when I am in the care of a Top I totally trust, in a location I feel save (private dungeon), and in circumstances that have me very exposed (totally naked for instance).
The play has often been impact play, mostly during heavy floggings, but has happened during fisting attempts, CBT and needle play. Several times the emotional release has been almost explosive resulting in cathartic expressions moving faster that the ability to call safeword. I am, despite what a few might think here (smile), mentally stable, and these breaks have not happened often. I am grateful from the few I have had, today I feel loosed from some of the unseen nonconsensual emotions that have had me bound in a “not good” way. My BDSM play has left me freer in my life today.
And I am deeply thankful that I was in the skilled caring hands of experienced Tops that knew when to stop the scene and start the aftercare.
To some this may be BDSM 101. But I just felt the desire to toss this out for discussion. In the last several days a few here have mentioned emotionally painful events that had been dealt to them. That brought to my mind how BDSM has played a very important part in my healing process, besides expanding my kink factor exponentially
In this moment I am remembering back about 10 years ago to the basement dungeon of a Domme I had been seeing for sometime. I was naked setting on a stool. She was in an elevated position fully dressed in leather. I was blindfolded and setting between her open legs. She was piercing my chest with medical needles for the very first time – four needles down each side from shoulder to breast ending in two needles into each nipple. After showing me her handy work in her full length mirror we returned to the same positions, me setting naked on a stool between her legs while she was seated on a raised platform. Taking my now pierced nipples by her fingers she started to give them attention while stating “you may now masturbate for me and are allowed to touch my legs”. I lost it at about that point. Emotionally I became a small boy, never got a hard-on and started to cry. All of a sudden, while receiving a painful twist of my two pierced nipples, I was flooded with deep feelings of loss from when my father died; I was 14 when that happened. Needless to say the session went to a totally unexpected place. Her care of me in that moment was exceptional. In the weeks following I was able to finely open up a part of my emotions that had been closed off for over 30 years.
A scene can be a very cathartic, healing place.
Any thoughts or experiences you care to share?
