nasty
yeah, baby, yeah
- Joined
- Nov 27, 2000
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A few things have happened to me in the past few months that I am ashamed of. First of all, last night I had an outting with a friend. This was because of something I did to someoen else a few weeks before that. With that Litster, the story goes that she & I were talking casually. She said that she falls in love very easily. I do, as well. But, I wasn't prepared for her to say it to me the very next day. I paniced, &, if you know me, I try no to deliberately hurt people's feelings. So, I said I love you back to her, even though I wasn't in love. I knew if I said that I would have made that person very happy. Now I know what a mistake that was. I should have been honest from the start. To that litster, I am sorry. I talked to the friened previously mentioned about this. She was none to happy for my actions. This litster, who I have been talking to for a lot longer & we had become great friends, I had fallen in love with. But, I knew that, realistically, I had to keep those feelings locked up, &, just remain very good friends. I told her as much, but, she doesn't believe me. I understand why. If I had lied to the other litster about my feelings, I could easily do the same to her. So, to her, I am also very sorry. For these reasons, I don't think I can ever show my face in her, again. I have some maturing yet to do. I also have many other friends who adore me. But, I don't think I deserve there adoration, because of the things I have done to those other listers. It felt like I was living a lie. I can't do that, anymore. To you all, I say , again, goodbye. I enjoyed the time I was here. I will miss all of you.