there is no picture tonight.
this evening I watched my friend graduate from our little two year campus. I met her boyfriend, a girlfriend of hers, and her mom.
She was very thankful that I showed up... I couldn't imagin not showing up. I was thankful... not only to be included in this event, but also for being someone she wanted to hangout with before her friends and family showed up.
our talk was light, and flirted from subject to subject... the kind of talk to kill time before a goodbye.
intimately meaningless conversation.
the conversation was meaningless, but the moment wasn't... and that was what it was all about... hanging out one last time.
The exchange of sideways glances, watching each others lips move as we spoke... eyes twinkle as we laughed. The mutual enjoyment of silence as we sat in the oriental friendship garden... a fitting place to share our time together in solitary company before the social event.
I watched her go through the ceremony... saw a couple other friends there too.
afterwards I found her and hugged her and then stepped aside to fade into the paint on the wall as her family came forth to bathe her in their appreciation of having such a wonderful daughter... granddaughter... friend.
I retreated to eat little brownie bits, mini cream puff thingies, and assorted other kinds of pasteries, as well as drink my fair share of punch.
after watching everyone for a while I decided it was time to bid ado one last time.
I found her sitting on the wall getting her picture taken with her respected company.
I just wanted to make eye contact one last time... and nod signaling my departure... but soon found myself with her arms wrapped around my waist getting my picture taken with her.
Only then did I really realize just how important she was to me.
the pic was taken and we let go to face eachother for one last time in such a setting and we said our personal good byes.
I write this not in the sense of being separated from a lover. Nor am I writing this to say that I fell in love with her. I guess I am writing this just to say how profound friendships really are, and how deep they can become.
anyhow, I just felt the need to share