Wanted to vent some of my writings

You don't have to respond or say a word, I just felt like posting some of my writings to get them out of my system

I saw through your lies.
You said your goodbyes.
Yet you keep coming back to look at my eyes.
You long to see tears.
I've proven your fears.
I've stopped caring for you.
I did what you thought I couldn't do.
You made me not care
Made me see life isn't Fair.
I've learned to move on.
I've never been happier to see someone gone.
You were a fool in your desires.
Always needing more flame for the fire.
You threw Love away
And now Beg that it would stay.
I've turned my back and left your sight.
I'm not wasting my time on a fight.
This is my Final Good Night.

I'm like crack to addict.
You need to kick the habit.
I'm the Hole in your soul,
You try to fill with control.
My name is poision on your lips,
but you need another lick.
You crave my desire,
I set your soul on fire.
Your skin burns from my touch,
but you just can't get enough..
You watch me walk by,
I'm your instant High.
The sway of my hips,
grabs your heart with tight grip.
I'm your drug of choice,
If you had a voice.
You've tried to break free,
but there is something about me.
I call to your soul,
you lose your control.
I'm the girl of your dreams,
more of a nightmare it seems.
You need a the venomous words that I spew,
You hope they cut through.
You heart is in my hands,
You hope it withstands.
I glare through your soul
You ignorance is quite amusing.
My sweet smile quickly turns evil,
You heart burns to dust.
I walk away with no glance behind,
leaving you standing with a love that is blind.

My heart is incased in Ice.
You thought you were being nice.
The lies that you told,
were often to bold.
I caught you off guard,
I played that card.
You weren't aware that I knew,
Every word spouted untrue.
I caught your deceit,
leaving you to beg at my feet.
You lost the best that you had,
I should not have been your new fad.
You got past my walls,
they rebuilt over your crawl.
You are trapped in purgatory,
All others will hear your story.
They will laugh at your pain
and I will show no mercy.
I gave you my all
and watched as you let me fall.
I won't do it again.
You will never be more then my friend

In Time you will realize what I said was the truth,
I didn't try to hurt you, that was not my intent.
I could not go on any more with this weight on my chest.
Please think on what I said and Know it was for the best.
You will find your true other half in time.
Don't rush the search in order to find.
Your soul mate is out there, I can promise you that.
I know you wanted it to be me but the Fates saw differently.
You can not force that what you desire
The truth is by forcing it you will burn in the fire.
I won't say I didn't Love you because that would be a lie
But I will say that Love is sometimes confusing.
There are many kinds of Love out there as I explained.
Your Heart will show you the way.
Once you allow it to have a say.
Your Brain took hold of the controls
what you wanted was not what you seek.
Give yourself time to heal.
You will see I am right.
Will all my Heart I wish you the very best.
For Once in your life, let your Heart, what beats in your chest,
Make the right choice.
Your Heart and your Brain will know when its true.
Don't let the control go without knowing for sure.
"I Love you" Is a powerful phrase.
Don't Put your Heart back on the line,
Not until you know it is the right time.
You will always hold a part of me.
Don't ever think you won't.
But that part is not what you wanted.
I will think of your from time to time
But you will always be a passing memory in my mind.
Good- bye My Friend.
May your story have the right End.

How can I be strong when tears fill my eyes?
It hurts to feel I am nothing.
My Heart feels as if its breaking.
I want to give up.
I think in truth I have already.
If you look into my eyes you will see emptiness.
A shattered lonely heart.
My world has collapsed around me.
I am Nothing

I sit here wondering, hoping and wishing.
I knew what was coming.
You couldn't hide it.
The funny thing is, I saw the lies.
I knew what you were.
I knew what you weren't.
I had to fake who I was.
I won't do that again.
I can't.
If you can't Love me for me, the you don't deserve me.
I deserve better.
And Eventually I will have it.

broken

How does a heart go on beating when its shattered into a million pieces?
As hard as I tried I couldn't keep my walls up when it came to you.
I tried not to give into those feelings, tried to convince myself that it would just lead to pain.
The harder I tried to keep myself from those feelings, the stronger they got.
I hurt so much and I know it's my own fault.
I want to blame you, I wish I could, but I am just as much to blame.
I should have known better.
I should have seen this coming.
Maybe it wouldn't hurt as bad.
But somehow, I think it wouldn't matter anyway.

I'm Sorry

I'm Sorry for the things I can't say,
I'm sorry if it seems I push you away.
I'm Sorry for wanting what I can't have
I'm even sorrier for wanting them to begin with
I knew what this was, I knew this wouldn't be fair
I walked into thinking things could change
and that I didn't care as long as I had something with you
I can't do this anymore,
My Heart is broken on the floor
It hurts to much to see you
It hurts to know what I am losing
even though it wasn't mine to begin with,
I'm Sorry if I hurt you
I'm sorry for opening myself to this pain.
No Matter what happens I won't do this again
I can't be your something when no one else is there
and I can't continue to pretend that you do really care
I know what the truth is and I know whats the lie.
I'm sorry for leaving but I didn't want you to see me cry.
Everything hurts and this isn't a way to live.
I've given you everything all of me, but theres nothing left to give.
You can hate me if you want I know right now that I sure do.
But by living this way it feels like I was never true to myself.
I'm Letting you go, I'm saying goodbye, please don't follow.
Don't watch me cry.
Forget my heart, forget my smile, I know it might take a while
I'm sorry if I hurt you that wasn't my intent
I know now I'm truly broken, not only just bent.
Goodbye to you, I wish you the best.
I can only hope the pain leaves my chest.

open eyes and a full heart

I've been searching forever for my perfect match.
He knows my heart, my thoughts, everything that makes me who I am
He loves me regardless of my faults just as I love him.
I've never been happier then I am with him
He's everything I've wanted, everything I need and he will have my heart always.
I am his, I give all I am to him and trust him with my life.
He has my heart and I know he will cherish it always.
He's honest and wonderful and I am so happy to be His.

She finally gave him up, the man that destroyed her heart with all of his lies. She sat in silence as she taped the tiny pieces back together and built a wall around it and her soul. She carefully placed both back in the shadows of her exsistance. Locking them away from anyone that could hurt her again. She took the key to the deepest darkest place in the universe and watched as she let it fall from her hand and disappear for what she thought would be forever. Time moved slowly forward as she went back about her life until the day she felt another soul calling to her. "How could this be? Her soul was locked away, the key lost forever." she followed the call of the other soul and what she found at the end of her search was a friend that held the key and made her smile once more. The taped pieces of her broken heart started to mend themselves and the wall she build to kept herself safe started to crumble. It was then she realized that no matter how hard things get and how much his lies destroyed her there was still someone who would never mistreat her. Someone who loved her dispite her flaws. Someone who looked into her soul and saw the pain that laid there hidden in her past and reminded her just that.. Without her past her future could not exsist.

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Thank you so much

I swear it feels like every time I let you in my heart commits a sin.
I question what I feel, I know your love isn't real.
I'm a filler if you will..The one that is your needed drug pill.
You get what you need and then leave me be.
Why do I give you the best of me?
I wish I could lock my heart away.
I know I can't make you stay.
The promises you make in passion are not real.
I need to accept this and let go
My heart beats for you while my Brain says to run.
What do I do?
Stay and let you destroy me or Go and destroy myself?

That moment in time when your eyes refuse to hold back the tears.
Everything seemed like it was fine and now suddenly you've left me behind.
I stand watching as you turn and walk away.
I want to call out, to beg you to stay.
I can't, or I won't I haven't figured it out.
I drop to the ground and let the tears fall in silence.
Your existence in my life held me together.
Now I am falling to pieces.
I reach into my chest to rip out my heart, only to find its not there.
You took it with you when you left.
I look up at your vanishing form in the distance just to see
You drop your head back with a laugh as you toss the one thing that was always yours, to the ground and step on it.
Grinding it beneath your feet.
The tears stop and the blood starts.
Tears of blood stain my cheeks
I fall forward into the darkness.
Gone Forever

I sit here with my heart in my hand, offering it to you, my Love, my man.
You turned and walked away, dropping your head back with a laugh.
"I do not want what is broken, what is not yours to give."

You snickered as you walked away.
I dropped my heart to the floor and turned my head.
Without your love I wish to be dead.
I've seen the evil in your eyes, I foolishly believed your lies.
You didn't want me from the start
All you wanted was to rip out my heart.
Now it lays upon the floor.
Beating one last time.

Words can not explain the feelings I have for you.
My breathing quickens and my heart pounds in my chest.
I can't hear myself think when I am around you and I worry that you can hear the beating that loudly drowns out everything.
I know things are hard and I know things need to be dealt with before we can be together.
But I can't tell you how badly I want to be with you.
I don't want to push and I don't want to rush you.
I just want you to know I am here for you always. No matter what happens I will be at your side.