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On my way to bed but still wanted to stop by and say a quick hello. Life isn't allowing me much socialising time, in RL or otherwise, but you never know, hopefully I'll catch a break and be able to stop by more often :rose:
 
On my way to bed but still wanted to stop by and say a quick hello. Life isn't allowing me much socialising time, in RL or otherwise, but you never know, hopefully I'll catch a break and be able to stop by more often :rose:

Here's hoping you get to drop by again soon and stay longer.
 
Turns out my sexcraves are things that cycle or ebb and flow more than they cleanly start and stop. The parts of me in play can vary so much that it wildly different experiences can feel equally satisfying. Sometimes certain parts are speaking while others quiet even if they are both in attendance so describing the experience seems much harder.

Then match this part up with pain dance where I feel and crave that tension point of wanting it to hurt and knowing it's going to. Where I feel pain unwrap me to where I experience my submissive self in new more focused light.

Am aroused because I feel my submissive skin more or is it that The masochistic sides feel soothed? What was so great for me? No really, what the hell just happened?! I crave the neat and tidy understanding of this sexuality gig because what I really want is to know is what the hell it is so I can learn how to ask for that again because damn, more please.

I have no idea if this speaks to your post, MWY. But it's what occurred to me after I thought about it and some other things going on with me lately more.
 
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There's a lot to chew on there, young lady. I'll have to let it percolate for a while, let it simmer, so to speak.
 
Sex cravings roll throughout different parts of my body and cycle through as well. I just do my best to communicate them and accommodate them. It's nice to hear that I'm not alone, as it never occurred to me to compare notes before :)
 
Sex cravings roll throughout different parts of my body and cycle through as well. I just do my best to communicate them and accommodate them. It's nice to hear that I'm not alone, as it never occurred to me to compare notes before :)

Yup, yup, definitely not alone! Some of it, for me at least, is circumstantial. Is most of my life rainbows and unicorns? I might crave teasing and somewhat more gentle approaches. Is there stress going on? Then I desperately need an increasing degree of control and pain. It's my precious (and rare, these days) reset button. "Please, Sir, I need you to hurt me" becomes my mantra.
 
Sorry for the extra words up there, MWY. I cleaned it up a little.

The idea that desires change based on mood or reaction to life stuff makes good sense. I just get muddled thinking trying to sort out what happened rather than just allowing it to breathe. Given all the areas of my life I'm rather good at that, it's nearly comical how much I can struggle here.

I'm clearly still learning the how to of my accommodation and acknowledgment of my own needs and desires. I guess so much of this is the wisdom gained from living into answers instead of guessing at them. Messy, but so good.

I know I will get there, and feel so grateful to what I have learned here from the voices I have come to respect and patient friends that have helped me travel this far. Thank you.
 
Yes, needs and wants do come in cycles.
Circumstances play one part and at least in my case, hormones play another large part in this.
 
Sorry for the extra words up there, MWY. I cleaned it up a little.

The idea that desires change based on mood or reaction to life stuff makes good sense. I just get muddled thinking trying to sort out what happened rather than just allowing it to breathe. Given all the areas of my life I'm rather good at that, it's nearly comical how much I can struggle here.

I'm clearly still learning the how to of my accommodation and acknowledgment of my own needs and desires. I guess so much of this is the wisdom gained from living into answers instead of guessing at them. Messy, but so good.

I know I will get there, and feel so grateful to what I have learned here from the voices I have come to respect and patient friends that have helped me travel this far. Thank you.

You left plenty to chew on and I'm delighted to see that some with similar experiences were able to chime in.
 
I do like to think of myself as a kinky fucker. :D
I think we'd get along great!

Its a special kind of relationship where the bottom Is willing to spank ones self to acheive the needed amount of spanking that Is normally put for by a spanket that topa in moat spanking sxenes.

Having said that. Im all for equal opportunity spankings :D
 
I think we'd get along great!

Its a special kind of relationship where the bottom Is willing to spank ones self to acheive the needed amount of spanking that Is normally put for by a spanket that topa in moat spanking sxenes.

Having said that. Im all for equal opportunity spankings :D

I do think there's a special satisfaction in knowing that your submissive partner's devotion to your happiness is strong enough to lead to painful self-spanking. And it sounds amazing, too. :D
 
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