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Nirvanadragones said:Dear C
I know that the last couple of days have been really tough. and I know that I haven't been in a good space recently, and I know how that affects you. You're old enough now to start understanding that life doesn't always go our way. And sometimes it's just really crappy.
You have your own issues that you're dealing with - your own pressures and fears. I know of them, but recently we haven't shared like we used to. I miss that. I miss knowing that I am your safe place. And perhaps it is my own doing, because I've been so caught up in my own pain, that I haven't really reached out to you the way that I normally do.
But, you know, in my way, I have tried. I have gone out of my way to do the little things that is really hard to do right now. And I know that you don't understand this. I know it is not for you to know of. But I'm really having a hard time being your mom right now. That's not the only thing I'm having a hard time doing. Living in general is just really a struggle right now. And if I don't try and keep some type of control over where I am, I absolutely fear where it will take me.
I'd really like it if you would just try and be a little more gentle with me right now. I'd like us to move into our comfortable space again. But right now, you're really being hurtful, and I don't like it. I want to see you trying. Really trying. Because I am, and always will be.
I love you.
Your mom.
Dear Vana
*hug*