legerdemer
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Very nicely put, MST. You speak for me, and I belong to a writer group of one. And all those who feel the same as you just described so well.
To me, the money part of the contest does have meaning. To the people it means something to.
Stay with me here.
When I first got started on Literotica , back in 2011, I wrote a contest story but when the winter contest rolled around I looked at the stories already posted I didn't enter. Why? I was intimidated by the quality of writing I saw there.
Valentines rolled around. Same. And same for the other contests till Summer Lovin' 2012. That was a very bad year, I was flat broke and scrounging. I wrote my heart out and entered a story. I was swinging for the fences trying for any amount of money.
I posted a story called "Gray Iron" It placed 9th out of 170 (ish?) stories.
Well, not long after that life took a turn for the better, I had money again and I had that courage as a writer that I didn't have before. ($150.00 was again not a lot of cash, I make several times that much a week as a bricklayer.) I have entered every contest since then. Sometimes I place stories where I again swing for the fences, sometimes I just place one there for playing sake.
As everyone here should know by now, writing is a hard game to play. Oh, it's easy to mash two thousand words together and make them have some kind of meaning. But the hard part comes when you have to face the fires. To put that piece of yourself out there to be seen. Now anything that builds a writer's confidence is golden when it comes to that.
99% of all writers kill their own dreams of being a writer * Jim Butcher.
And that is so very true. I've seen so many say they don't think they can write when they do beautiful work.
So no, a $150 bucks isn't that big of a deal and yeah Lit could make the contest for just bragging rights. But there are writers on here just getting started, people with one story, or not even that much, who need the confidence to get a foot in the door on this site. And winning a contest for money can give that.
A lot of people who post here in the AH have become jaded. The huge story lists that build up from years of posting make them forget what it felt like to have one story out there and come home to find a comment. To see that someone favored their story.
Or to give it your best effort and nearly place in a contest.
Or to win.
Look down my list, you will see one W on it.
https://www.literotica.com/stories/memberpage.php?uid=1384609&page=submissions
Second place in a Summer lovin'. That felt so wonderful to see when I got in from work ... then.
Now ... well if I won a contest now it would still be great. But, like the money, it no longer has the same level of ecstatic delight it once did. Knowing I will be opening a package here in a week with my copy of a paperback book with my work in it, that has taken its emotional place. I'm giddy as a little kid to see my words on a printed page.
So why do I still enter contests here on Literotica?
Habit for one, but the main reason is still to grow as a writer. I love the challenge. Literotica has some of the most talented writers this world has, living lives of quiet desperation, yearning to be heard. But make no mistake you are not my competition. The only writer I'm in competition with is myself. I'll happily cheer on the winners. Not for writing a better story than me but for writing. Just writing!
And if you feel that you enter contests to beat your fellow writers then bring it. Bring your A game. Bring your very best work to the surface. Don't write something simple, push yourself. Write what you think you can never write. Show every writer on Literotica that you're the very best writer that has ever picked up a pen or typed a key. Do it.
Win or lose you've done better that a $150 gift card just by doing that.