ThomasPain
Virgin
- Joined
- Jan 28, 2018
- Posts
- 14
I had no idea how kinky my fantasies were until I started writing them down. I mean I knew i was a little kinky, but only as I started writing out a narrative or two did I realize how quickly I went into some pretty taboo, dark areas involving non-consensual sex, use of force as well as inappropriate age match ups. Not little kids, but the late teenager discovering sex with someone a little older. In real life, I am quite clear that these fantasies describe assaults that could traumatize someone. I have no interest in actually causing harm or molesting a teenager, but when I start writing this dark stuff seems to come out. Politically I want to undo structural inequalities that victimize women, while in my stories ... well, ... victimization occurs. I have been afraid to share much of this stuff, with well, anyone. I don't know if these fantasies are just an internalization of oppressive gender dynamics or something deeper. But once I start writing a story, I get obsessed and can't stop until i have lost sleep and had to change many pair of underwear. Should I share these stories or should I throw them on the trash heap as counterrevolutionary anathema? Its not as if there is a shortage of stories about people being overpowered and coerced and finding it a turn on. Am I going to add to the problem and cause harm by writing down these fantasies? I know ... I am asking this in a BDSM writers forum, and will probably get a slew of YKIOK responses ... but I don't really know who to talk to about this to get some clarity and I don't want to fuck up my personal or professional life with any of this.