seethelightattheend
Virgin
- Joined
- Aug 26, 2017
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- 11
Hi, my name isn't important, but I'm beginning to go crazy. The problem is simple: I have no idea how to feel. I am new to all this shit. No BDSM experience. No sexual experience. I'm a fucking "good girl". I'd better get down to the nitty-gritty before I get too many tl;dnr comments.
Despite my lack of experience I feel like a Domme. But, that's BS. That doesn't matter. The part that worries me... is I don't feel like a sexual sadist. Sometimes, I don't feel like sex has anything to do with the way I feel. And my real descriptor may just be... sadist.
My evidence? Not much really. As I said, no sexual experience and definitely nothing BDSM related. Let's see... when I see something attractive, something PAINFUL, my heart rate increases. But, it isn't the same as regular attraction. It's deeper. Hungry. Y'know. Most of you probably feel the same. It doesn't feel sexual, and it's not always triggered by sexual situations.
...Is that just the way it is? Am I not alone? This isn't really the sort of thing you can talk about freely.
Despite my lack of experience I feel like a Domme. But, that's BS. That doesn't matter. The part that worries me... is I don't feel like a sexual sadist. Sometimes, I don't feel like sex has anything to do with the way I feel. And my real descriptor may just be... sadist.
My evidence? Not much really. As I said, no sexual experience and definitely nothing BDSM related. Let's see... when I see something attractive, something PAINFUL, my heart rate increases. But, it isn't the same as regular attraction. It's deeper. Hungry. Y'know. Most of you probably feel the same. It doesn't feel sexual, and it's not always triggered by sexual situations.
...Is that just the way it is? Am I not alone? This isn't really the sort of thing you can talk about freely.
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