Lord_Poseidon
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It was strange, being back in town after all this time. Five years had passed since he packed his bag and bought a ticket to one of the big cities near the coast. When he finally got on the train and settled down in his seat, he swore he wouldn't return until he had found himself. As though he couldn't face the truth about himself and his world until he had matured and found some sort of peace.
But now, fate had caught him and forced him to go back. All the old places in town looked just like they did when he left. 'Dalon's Coffee Corner' were as tidy and crowded as usual. Youngsters still wasted their time hanging out in front of the 'BB Shop', and the flower park at the center of town was as inviting as always. Okay, small details in the scenery had changed somewhat, but that was only natural.
Judging by the reaction of those he met on his way through the streets, he hadn't changed much either. Not on the basic, shallow level that people remembered him by. They all wanted to shake his hand, wanted to know if lady luck had smiled down upon him while he was away. Most of them also felt compelled to tell him how sorry they were and how much they sympathized with him and his family. But underneath their kind words, he noticed the sorrow in their eyes. Their endless condolences were also a display of their own grief. That was the effect Ian had on people around him. It was even more evident now that he was gone.
He went to the old house of his childhood. The place where uncle Bob and aunt Katie always awaited his or Ian's return when they were young and careless and out late at night. Even now, the elderly pair greeted him as though they had expected him to arrive sooner. It was as though he had never left in the first place.
Words mattered little at the moment. He saw it in their faces. He noticed the traces of tears still lingering on his aunt's cheeks. When he joined them in a long embrace, he heard them both sob and let go of their sorrow. His presence was a comfort to them, and when he realized it, he felt how his own eyes teared up a bit. But he forced himself not to let it go any further. All the anger and pain would remain locked up inside him.
He had left them alone for a moment to look around in his old room. Sure enough, things were as he expected them to be. Posters with classic art on the wall, dusty books on dusty shelves and a certain atmosphere that time was standing still. He went to his old desk and stared at the empty photo frame. He had brought the photo along when he went away; but now he just wanted to forget about the scene. But the book lying next to the frame brought back dear memories. The most precious treasure from his childhood. Silly letters, carved carefully into the leather cover;
This Book Belongs To Jeremy Morris.
When there was only two days left before the funeral, he had yet to visit his brother's house. More interestingly, he still hadn't made contact with his brother's wife. He couldn't find the courage to call her or write a letter. He thought about her and the undeniable fact how disrespectful it was to ignore her. His aunt had confronted him, as only she could. Gently, but with an underlying sense of disappointment in her voice. He had to meet Ian's wife eventually. It was inevitable. He couldn't go to the funeral without talking to her first.
When he finally gave in and left the house, he was caught up in mixed feelings. He began the trip to his brother's house with heavy feet and slow movements. Each step felt like a struggle. When he finally caught sight of the house, he almost lost his nerve completely. The lawn around the house was neatly cut, short and green and full, just like his brother liked it. Everything about the house was like he remembered it. Although, they had painted the house in a new, fresh color. He felt embarrassed by the sudden hope that his brother would appear in the doorway. Just like he had looked for any sign of his presence at the train station. But it was all an illusion of his own mind. Ian was gone.
But nothing was as bad as the realization that he had only returned to the town to put his brother to rest. He was back in town because his dear, dear brother had suddenly passed away, before they had managed to work out their problems. People always believed they had so much time to deal with bad stuff – but it was a foolish attempt to stay on the bright side of life.
Jeremy climbed the stairs leading up to the porch and extended his hand to ring on the doorbell. But the action demanded so much more of him that a simple activation of muscles. Various contradicting emotions overwhelmed him where he stood. He managed to tap the doorbell, but then he turned his back at the door and went down the stairs again. He wanted to flee. But his escape came to a halt when he heard a noise behind him. Something that send shivers down his spine and straight into his diaphragm. It was fear and longing all in one.
He closed his eyes with a single name in mind:
Faith...?
But now, fate had caught him and forced him to go back. All the old places in town looked just like they did when he left. 'Dalon's Coffee Corner' were as tidy and crowded as usual. Youngsters still wasted their time hanging out in front of the 'BB Shop', and the flower park at the center of town was as inviting as always. Okay, small details in the scenery had changed somewhat, but that was only natural.
Judging by the reaction of those he met on his way through the streets, he hadn't changed much either. Not on the basic, shallow level that people remembered him by. They all wanted to shake his hand, wanted to know if lady luck had smiled down upon him while he was away. Most of them also felt compelled to tell him how sorry they were and how much they sympathized with him and his family. But underneath their kind words, he noticed the sorrow in their eyes. Their endless condolences were also a display of their own grief. That was the effect Ian had on people around him. It was even more evident now that he was gone.
He went to the old house of his childhood. The place where uncle Bob and aunt Katie always awaited his or Ian's return when they were young and careless and out late at night. Even now, the elderly pair greeted him as though they had expected him to arrive sooner. It was as though he had never left in the first place.
Words mattered little at the moment. He saw it in their faces. He noticed the traces of tears still lingering on his aunt's cheeks. When he joined them in a long embrace, he heard them both sob and let go of their sorrow. His presence was a comfort to them, and when he realized it, he felt how his own eyes teared up a bit. But he forced himself not to let it go any further. All the anger and pain would remain locked up inside him.
He had left them alone for a moment to look around in his old room. Sure enough, things were as he expected them to be. Posters with classic art on the wall, dusty books on dusty shelves and a certain atmosphere that time was standing still. He went to his old desk and stared at the empty photo frame. He had brought the photo along when he went away; but now he just wanted to forget about the scene. But the book lying next to the frame brought back dear memories. The most precious treasure from his childhood. Silly letters, carved carefully into the leather cover;
This Book Belongs To Jeremy Morris.
When there was only two days left before the funeral, he had yet to visit his brother's house. More interestingly, he still hadn't made contact with his brother's wife. He couldn't find the courage to call her or write a letter. He thought about her and the undeniable fact how disrespectful it was to ignore her. His aunt had confronted him, as only she could. Gently, but with an underlying sense of disappointment in her voice. He had to meet Ian's wife eventually. It was inevitable. He couldn't go to the funeral without talking to her first.
When he finally gave in and left the house, he was caught up in mixed feelings. He began the trip to his brother's house with heavy feet and slow movements. Each step felt like a struggle. When he finally caught sight of the house, he almost lost his nerve completely. The lawn around the house was neatly cut, short and green and full, just like his brother liked it. Everything about the house was like he remembered it. Although, they had painted the house in a new, fresh color. He felt embarrassed by the sudden hope that his brother would appear in the doorway. Just like he had looked for any sign of his presence at the train station. But it was all an illusion of his own mind. Ian was gone.
But nothing was as bad as the realization that he had only returned to the town to put his brother to rest. He was back in town because his dear, dear brother had suddenly passed away, before they had managed to work out their problems. People always believed they had so much time to deal with bad stuff – but it was a foolish attempt to stay on the bright side of life.
Jeremy climbed the stairs leading up to the porch and extended his hand to ring on the doorbell. But the action demanded so much more of him that a simple activation of muscles. Various contradicting emotions overwhelmed him where he stood. He managed to tap the doorbell, but then he turned his back at the door and went down the stairs again. He wanted to flee. But his escape came to a halt when he heard a noise behind him. Something that send shivers down his spine and straight into his diaphragm. It was fear and longing all in one.
He closed his eyes with a single name in mind:
Faith...?