I don't know what else to say except that I feel very naive right now . If he does have any STDs, at this point, so do I . He has been around the world (unprotected), so to speak. I'll have my Ob Gyn test me when I go in tomorrow, I don't see any shame in asking for that. Again, call me naive or stupid, but I do believe what he has told me and that he is "clean".
I have thought long and hard about the baby and while I love babies and would love being a SAHM, I would be ~58 years old when this child was graduating high school. versus under 45 for my two current children. He is accepting that it wouldn't be the best thing for my children or us to bring a new baby into the world,particularly the world as it is headed right now.
Mr. G is allowing me to masturbate (with his permission) so it is much easier to keep a clear head, being denied is very discombobulating for me.
Mr. G is not allowing me to drink, which is a good thing and it has been easier than I was afraid it would be . Just a few headaches and perhaps a little moodiness.
As a sidebar, I wanted to get back to the original reason for starting this thread. I submit that once we establish and assume our respective roles in the relationship we are just like any other couple with one partner being the dominant one, to varying degrees, of course. So that brings us to the sex, in reality, what percentage of our lives is sex? 2.5% is where I would put mine at right now. If we were living together it would go a up 1-1.5 percentage points. I guess what I'm trying to get at is that we are not that different than vanilla people, it's just that our roles are defined differently and the sex we have is different, but it is still a route to intimacy, however circuitous that path may be. I'll stop rambling now. Thanks for listening, I know we all have our own lives and we don't necessarily want to hear the moment to moment details of each others lives it's just that I can share things here that I could never, ever tell my friends, I can see it now "What do you mean you have to ask permission to go to the bathroom when you two are together? Are you okay?" I do enjoy hearing the mundane parts of others D/s and other complicated relationships, because I feel less isolated.
I have thought long and hard about the baby and while I love babies and would love being a SAHM, I would be ~58 years old when this child was graduating high school. versus under 45 for my two current children. He is accepting that it wouldn't be the best thing for my children or us to bring a new baby into the world,particularly the world as it is headed right now.
Mr. G is allowing me to masturbate (with his permission) so it is much easier to keep a clear head, being denied is very discombobulating for me.
Mr. G is not allowing me to drink, which is a good thing and it has been easier than I was afraid it would be . Just a few headaches and perhaps a little moodiness.
As a sidebar, I wanted to get back to the original reason for starting this thread. I submit that once we establish and assume our respective roles in the relationship we are just like any other couple with one partner being the dominant one, to varying degrees, of course. So that brings us to the sex, in reality, what percentage of our lives is sex? 2.5% is where I would put mine at right now. If we were living together it would go a up 1-1.5 percentage points. I guess what I'm trying to get at is that we are not that different than vanilla people, it's just that our roles are defined differently and the sex we have is different, but it is still a route to intimacy, however circuitous that path may be. I'll stop rambling now. Thanks for listening, I know we all have our own lives and we don't necessarily want to hear the moment to moment details of each others lives it's just that I can share things here that I could never, ever tell my friends, I can see it now "What do you mean you have to ask permission to go to the bathroom when you two are together? Are you okay?" I do enjoy hearing the mundane parts of others D/s and other complicated relationships, because I feel less isolated.