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Teri was half out of her seat when Walker started talking about walking in the woods. She sank back down into the chair. What the heck? She had barely made it through this luncheon without doing anything too horribly embarrassing. Although she hadn't missed his glazed look when she talked about music. It was the same look that she would have had if he had started talking movies. But could she make it through another day with Walker? Did she want to? Did she have a good reason not to? To be honest, she wanted to say no, but to be fair, he had provided lunch today, so it was only fair that she provide lunch for their walk. Walk in the woods, where it was private? What did Walker have in mind? Oh jeez, she needed to say something. But what?
“A walk.. in the woods.. on Sunday?” she stammered. Oh, good grief. She shut her mouth and swallowed hard. This was a good sign to say no. Didn't she need to do something that day? Anything would work. She opened her mouth again, “Sure, I would like to do that.” She wasn't sure who was more surprised, Walker and her. But they both seemed shocked that she had agreed to go. In a fog, she stood and muttered a simple good-bye and walked out leaving him sitting at the table.
What had she done? Now she was committed to seeing Walker. She spent the rest of Friday and half of Saturday freaking out. What should she do? How could she get out of it? What should she wear? What food was she supposed to put together. Thank goodness, it was the weekend and she didn't have any major cases as she didn't seem to be able to get her thoughts together. Finally out of desperation, she talked to Beth.
The two were in Teri's apartment sitting at her kitchen table over a glass of wine. “I don't know what I am doing,” Teri exclaimed. “He wants to go on a hike in the woods, a picnic of sorts I guess. I don't know how to date. I don't know how to do small talk. I don't know what I should do!” she wailed.
Beth tried to look serious but it was obvious that she wanted to laugh. “What is the big deal? So you go tramping in the woods and eat something. You like to do those things. You do them all the time on your own, so why are you all freaked out?”
“I don't know, I just am.”
“Wait, do you like this guy? I mean really like him? It is okay if you do, you know,” said Beth carefully.
“I don't know. I don't know how I feel. Sometimes I think yes, other times I think no, I don't know what to think, but all I seem to do is think about how much I don't know what to think. It is driving me crazy,” The plaintive tone in Teri's voice made Beth laugh.
“Well the first thing you should do is relax. You have gotten yourself all tied up in knots. Why don't you take a deep breath and slow down. Maybe we can figure this out.”
Teri took a deep breath and slowly released it. Then another and another. The manic disorder in her brain began to slow and she closed her eyes, taking more deep breaths. When she felt she had some control over herself, she began to speak, keeping her eyes closed. She wasn't sure she wanted to see laughter or worse pity in her best friend's eyes.
“I have always had a like/dislike thing with Walker. He is good looking but it is more than that. He sometimes has a sense of fairness even when fighting for his client that I appreciate, other times he seems to let little things slip by or exaggerate something. I can't tell if he is a good lawyer or a haphazard one. Then there was the incidents in the last couple of weeks. I came upon him at Quincy's after he had done a total hissy fit in front of my client during one of the meetings in the divorce case. He just went crazy yelling stuff and slammed out of the room. Later, at Quincy's, I saw him sitting in the corner with several empty beer bottles in front of him. So I know he drinks too much and that scares me. Later that day he called me up and it was obvious he was drunk. He went on this long rant, half of which I couldn't understand, but it had something to do with other lawyers in town making comments about my clothing. It didn't make any sense, it was actually kind of funny, but still …”
“Why didn't you say something at the time, Teri?” asked Beth. “We could have reported him to the Legal Oversight Committee for the county.”
“That's why I didn't say anything,” explained Teri. “I knew you would say we should report it and I didn't want him getting in trouble for doing a stupid thing. Like I said, I thought it was sort of funny at the time. But, now, I don't know what to think.”
“Is it possible that you didn't say anything because you like him?” wondered Beth.
Teri blushed. “I don't know, maybe. But what is the point? It isn't like there is going to be any kind of relationship. You know I don't do relationships. So what is the point?”
“Well, maybe, you don't have to worry about a relationship, maybe you could, I don't know, maybe just do something with him and have fun. See if a friendship could develop? It might be nice to have someone to do things with, now that I don't have as much time to spend with you since Jack and I got married.”
“I suppose,” Teri replied slowly. “I guess it wouldn't hurt to get to know him better, maybe we could develop some sort of friendship. I hadn't thought of that.” Her eyes flashed as her sense of humor kicked in. “At least if I get to know him, I will learn how to take him down faster in court,” she laughed. She stood up and walked around the table and gave Beth a hug. “Thanks, I needed to talk all that out. I am still not all that comfortable about the idea of “dating” but if I focus on friendship, at least my brain doesn't go into overdrive.”
Beth stood, “Then,” she said,”my work is done here.” She laughed, “I better get home before Jack goes into overload and I have another crisis to deal with.”
Teri laughed. Jack was the most laid-back human Teri had ever met. The idea of Jack Samuels's head about to explode just wasn't something she could picture. “I wouldn't want to be responsible for that. So, yes, you better get home and prevent the house from exploding when his head does.” The two women laughed as they walked down the stairs to the front door.
“Remember to have a good time and RELAX!” Beth said as she headed down the sidewalk to her car.
“Relax, right. Okay, I can do that. All I have to do is just show up with some food and walk. I can do that. Relax.” Teri repeated the refrain several times the next couple of hours. “But what am I going to pack for a picnic lunch? Wait, relax... relax...you can do this.... relax.”
“A walk.. in the woods.. on Sunday?” she stammered. Oh, good grief. She shut her mouth and swallowed hard. This was a good sign to say no. Didn't she need to do something that day? Anything would work. She opened her mouth again, “Sure, I would like to do that.” She wasn't sure who was more surprised, Walker and her. But they both seemed shocked that she had agreed to go. In a fog, she stood and muttered a simple good-bye and walked out leaving him sitting at the table.
What had she done? Now she was committed to seeing Walker. She spent the rest of Friday and half of Saturday freaking out. What should she do? How could she get out of it? What should she wear? What food was she supposed to put together. Thank goodness, it was the weekend and she didn't have any major cases as she didn't seem to be able to get her thoughts together. Finally out of desperation, she talked to Beth.
The two were in Teri's apartment sitting at her kitchen table over a glass of wine. “I don't know what I am doing,” Teri exclaimed. “He wants to go on a hike in the woods, a picnic of sorts I guess. I don't know how to date. I don't know how to do small talk. I don't know what I should do!” she wailed.
Beth tried to look serious but it was obvious that she wanted to laugh. “What is the big deal? So you go tramping in the woods and eat something. You like to do those things. You do them all the time on your own, so why are you all freaked out?”
“I don't know, I just am.”
“Wait, do you like this guy? I mean really like him? It is okay if you do, you know,” said Beth carefully.
“I don't know. I don't know how I feel. Sometimes I think yes, other times I think no, I don't know what to think, but all I seem to do is think about how much I don't know what to think. It is driving me crazy,” The plaintive tone in Teri's voice made Beth laugh.
“Well the first thing you should do is relax. You have gotten yourself all tied up in knots. Why don't you take a deep breath and slow down. Maybe we can figure this out.”
Teri took a deep breath and slowly released it. Then another and another. The manic disorder in her brain began to slow and she closed her eyes, taking more deep breaths. When she felt she had some control over herself, she began to speak, keeping her eyes closed. She wasn't sure she wanted to see laughter or worse pity in her best friend's eyes.
“I have always had a like/dislike thing with Walker. He is good looking but it is more than that. He sometimes has a sense of fairness even when fighting for his client that I appreciate, other times he seems to let little things slip by or exaggerate something. I can't tell if he is a good lawyer or a haphazard one. Then there was the incidents in the last couple of weeks. I came upon him at Quincy's after he had done a total hissy fit in front of my client during one of the meetings in the divorce case. He just went crazy yelling stuff and slammed out of the room. Later, at Quincy's, I saw him sitting in the corner with several empty beer bottles in front of him. So I know he drinks too much and that scares me. Later that day he called me up and it was obvious he was drunk. He went on this long rant, half of which I couldn't understand, but it had something to do with other lawyers in town making comments about my clothing. It didn't make any sense, it was actually kind of funny, but still …”
“Why didn't you say something at the time, Teri?” asked Beth. “We could have reported him to the Legal Oversight Committee for the county.”
“That's why I didn't say anything,” explained Teri. “I knew you would say we should report it and I didn't want him getting in trouble for doing a stupid thing. Like I said, I thought it was sort of funny at the time. But, now, I don't know what to think.”
“Is it possible that you didn't say anything because you like him?” wondered Beth.
Teri blushed. “I don't know, maybe. But what is the point? It isn't like there is going to be any kind of relationship. You know I don't do relationships. So what is the point?”
“Well, maybe, you don't have to worry about a relationship, maybe you could, I don't know, maybe just do something with him and have fun. See if a friendship could develop? It might be nice to have someone to do things with, now that I don't have as much time to spend with you since Jack and I got married.”
“I suppose,” Teri replied slowly. “I guess it wouldn't hurt to get to know him better, maybe we could develop some sort of friendship. I hadn't thought of that.” Her eyes flashed as her sense of humor kicked in. “At least if I get to know him, I will learn how to take him down faster in court,” she laughed. She stood up and walked around the table and gave Beth a hug. “Thanks, I needed to talk all that out. I am still not all that comfortable about the idea of “dating” but if I focus on friendship, at least my brain doesn't go into overdrive.”
Beth stood, “Then,” she said,”my work is done here.” She laughed, “I better get home before Jack goes into overload and I have another crisis to deal with.”
Teri laughed. Jack was the most laid-back human Teri had ever met. The idea of Jack Samuels's head about to explode just wasn't something she could picture. “I wouldn't want to be responsible for that. So, yes, you better get home and prevent the house from exploding when his head does.” The two women laughed as they walked down the stairs to the front door.
“Remember to have a good time and RELAX!” Beth said as she headed down the sidewalk to her car.
“Relax, right. Okay, I can do that. All I have to do is just show up with some food and walk. I can do that. Relax.” Teri repeated the refrain several times the next couple of hours. “But what am I going to pack for a picnic lunch? Wait, relax... relax...you can do this.... relax.”