I’m a 19 year old girl & is currently in college.
I’ve been worried about this fetish of mine ever since I found out that I get turned on by the idea of myself getting raped or taken against my will by someone.
The thing is, the university I study at actually has a reputation because of the many rape cases it has been subjected to. The campus is pretty much accessible to anyone. It concerns me that countless women have been raped and experienced such a nightmare (for them) while I fantasize about it.
I live in a quite conservative country and haven’t had any sexual experience even though I’m 19. I’ve had boyfriends before, people my age, but the furthest I’ve been with them was making out. I tend to lose interest after a 1-3 months (for which I’ve been given a lot of grief by my friends), sometimes even less, so we never really got to anything steamy save for a few make out sessions.
I’ve read that people with rape fetishes usually have some sort of history with it, but I actually don’t. I just developed this kind of love for forced, rough, experimental sex, despite never having experienced it.
I got increasingly worried hearing comments from people how fucked up this kind of fetish is, how people like me may not be right in the head, and most of all, I’m lowkey scared I’m never gonna be able to find a future life partner understanding enough.
I wrote this out of genuine curiosity & what could people think of people like me. So, any thoughts?
I’ve been worried about this fetish of mine ever since I found out that I get turned on by the idea of myself getting raped or taken against my will by someone.
The thing is, the university I study at actually has a reputation because of the many rape cases it has been subjected to. The campus is pretty much accessible to anyone. It concerns me that countless women have been raped and experienced such a nightmare (for them) while I fantasize about it.
I live in a quite conservative country and haven’t had any sexual experience even though I’m 19. I’ve had boyfriends before, people my age, but the furthest I’ve been with them was making out. I tend to lose interest after a 1-3 months (for which I’ve been given a lot of grief by my friends), sometimes even less, so we never really got to anything steamy save for a few make out sessions.
I’ve read that people with rape fetishes usually have some sort of history with it, but I actually don’t. I just developed this kind of love for forced, rough, experimental sex, despite never having experienced it.
I got increasingly worried hearing comments from people how fucked up this kind of fetish is, how people like me may not be right in the head, and most of all, I’m lowkey scared I’m never gonna be able to find a future life partner understanding enough.
I wrote this out of genuine curiosity & what could people think of people like me. So, any thoughts?
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