MattIsRight
Experienced
- Joined
- Oct 25, 2018
- Posts
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This is a tough one...
My Spouse took her life 5 years ago around this time of year. I would like to write about it at some point, as I put my sexuality before the marriage, before her, cheated on her with her friends... I hurt her deeply
I don't have a good explanation for it other than the usual BS from therapy (absent drunk father, cheating bi-polar mother)
I never shared with my wife any of this.
Nothing that would humanize me or give her a clue (hell I did not have a clue)
I basically stopped adoring my wife and began fucking everything fro men, tranny's , crack whores, sugar babies, her friends, high end escorts... nothing was off limits to me except loving my wife.
I have her journals. Found them after she died... she knew so much and loved me anyway. I guess in a way I hated her for it ...I had LONG term relationships outside my marriage that my wife found out about and never said a word.
She got sick... stayed in bed in a dark room.
I was honestly disgusted by her. I did not know her.
What I would not give to be able to go back in time and Love Her Right.
I read about her childhood.
She was a survivor
kept it to herself.
I guess she thought she didn't deserve love either... she wasted it on me. She covered for me , behind my back.
My Spouse took her life 5 years ago around this time of year. I would like to write about it at some point, as I put my sexuality before the marriage, before her, cheated on her with her friends... I hurt her deeply
I don't have a good explanation for it other than the usual BS from therapy (absent drunk father, cheating bi-polar mother)
I never shared with my wife any of this.
Nothing that would humanize me or give her a clue (hell I did not have a clue)
I basically stopped adoring my wife and began fucking everything fro men, tranny's , crack whores, sugar babies, her friends, high end escorts... nothing was off limits to me except loving my wife.
I have her journals. Found them after she died... she knew so much and loved me anyway. I guess in a way I hated her for it ...I had LONG term relationships outside my marriage that my wife found out about and never said a word.
She got sick... stayed in bed in a dark room.
I was honestly disgusted by her. I did not know her.
What I would not give to be able to go back in time and Love Her Right.
I read about her childhood.
She was a survivor
kept it to herself.
I guess she thought she didn't deserve love either... she wasted it on me. She covered for me , behind my back.