the captians wench
sewing wench
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Hmmmmm, that is a thought! Just like "ta-da, I'm here, so spank me!"
*giggles* yeah something like that.
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Hmmmmm, that is a thought! Just like "ta-da, I'm here, so spank me!"
I don't know if it's that I haven't had much time with Jounar lately, or if I've been working too much, it could be the holidays coming, or PMS but I'm feeling the signs of depression coming on.
*sigh*
What kind of things do you do to avoid depression?
Exersize mostly. Shopping is my first instict but I realized spending the money depressed me more but walking around made me feel better. So I take a long walk, or go to the mall where I just can't bring myself to pay the prices I see but can still get the feeling of shopping.
I also clean. Something about that makes me feel better, but I'm past the stage where I even desire to clean.
Those are both things that make me feel good about myself as well but I can't bring myself to even do those. I don't know what to do to get myself back into doing that stuff.
Yeah, I'm kind of in the same boat meself.
I can't even get myself excited about new costumes or decorating for the holidays.
Well....after a lot of heart searching Daddy and I are no longer in a D/s relationship.
We are still together but I am not the sub I was the last time I had a Master. I am way too headstrong and brat does not even begin to touch what I am like. All I have been doing is causing us both pain, so it was time to step ourselves back a notch.
I would still walk away from everything I have if I could to be with him, but the distance and my own impatience has got us to this point. I am still going over next April and to all intense and purposes very little now has changed but I am still sad. I know we have made the right decision and I know we will still be together in many years time.
I'll poke my nose around the door occasionally to say hi and see if everyone is ok. Thank you all so so much for your support, I cannot even begin to tell you how much it has meant to me, particularly Wenchie
Be well and safe each
Well....after a lot of heart searching Daddy and I are no longer in a D/s relationship.
We are still together but I am not the sub I was the last time I had a Master. I am way too headstrong and brat does not even begin to touch what I am like. All I have been doing is causing us both pain, so it was time to step ourselves back a notch.
I would still walk away from everything I have if I could to be with him, but the distance and my own impatience has got us to this point. I am still going over next April and to all intense and purposes very little now has changed but I am still sad. I know we have made the right decision and I know we will still be together in many years time.
I'll poke my nose around the door occasionally to say hi and see if everyone is ok. Thank you all so so much for your support, I cannot even begin to tell you how much it has meant to me, particularly Wenchie
Be well and safe each
<<Big hugs>> The important thing is you are still in a relationship together. Distance is very difficult. The overt D/s in my own relationship goes from intense to barely there at all. Except for the knowledge in our hearts that he does own me, and I belong to him. Other than that many times real life simply take priority.
Please keep us updated. I would be interested to hear how the transition from D/s to vanilla (would it be vanilla or kinky or D/s in the bedroom when you do get together???)
I see Daddy and I together for the rest of our lives. I also see a point when we will be 90% vanilla.
back to you!
Okay, so I can't see Jounar ever giving up bringing me to tears by some means of violence, but I can relate. *giggles*
I mentioned before that while I was there we weren't overtly D/s, but it was there just in the way we interact.
I've been feeling really sick lately and Daddy has been sick, too. Put that together with me being in my mid-late 40's and he being a bit older...I guess I am just feeling like I am approaching my expiration date as far as my body being able to keep up with my mind (and His )
Sorry I'm being a downer...for whatever reason getting older has been on my mind lately.
Mom's can surprise us. I am willing to move to Canada to be with Sir. Mom took a moment to say what yours did, and then realized quickly, yes, this is what I want. What we want. Good luck CW.I had lunch with my mom today and we got to talking about the posibility and likelihood of me marring and moving to be with Jounar.
She's always said that she doesn't think I could do it. "Maybe for a year, but it would get to you"
But the more we talked about it, it hit her. "well maybe you could"
She said that she couldn't imagine uprooting like that, but the more she talked to me, the more she realized that I can, and will when asked to.
I think she finally sees how desperately I want this life for myself.
Hope things work as you would like them to Keki.Just popping in.. Things have been crazy busy for us and me.. I hope everyone is doing well.. My divorce will be over in a few weeks and I can move on with my life.. now we are waiting on his ...
HUGS to all. .
I'm not doing so well with the distance right now. It seems like it's only serving to pit my logical, rational side against my emotional, slightly crazy side (or so it feels). When things get super busy for one of us and we can't talk like we normally do, I worry about everything under the sun happening. Logically I know it's just because he's busy and it'll pass, but I've always been the type that has to actually see something or have it proven to me to believe it. I'm fine for a couple of days, but then the insane worry side of me takes over and even though I do trust him completely I can't help but wonder at everything.
The worst part of this, I think, is that I feel bad, almost guilty, for worrying about him. I should know better, and know that it's illogical to expect to hear from him all the time. Missing him so much sucks, though. Part of me thinks it would solve everything to just be able to see him and feel is arms around me, even if it was just briefly.
hi (*shy wave*) uh, sorry to interupt the thread...noobie question for those of you who have been in this a while...
what's the best way of dealing with the "overstretched rubber band" feeling after playing? not in a physical sense, an emotional one... it doesn't normally hit until i wake up. He is five clock hours ahead of me, play time is the last hour before his bedtime. i have plenty to keep me occupied until my own sleep time so i don't notice it. but waking up with that feeling is hard.
any advice welcome...please.
Can you explain this feeling a little better? I'm just not sure what you mean by "overstretched rubber band".
Can you explain this feeling a little better? I'm just not sure what you mean by "overstretched rubber band".
Jounar is 5 hours ahead of me so I can relate there.