rik_steele
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Very true.
My method is to use humor, to make requests (and I used to, often) in very plain but playful language... for instance, on Christmas day, we don't celebrate. But I said to him "It would be kind of nice to have something to unwrap." He agreed with a smile. So I said with a twinkle, "You could unwrap me." And I got the gentle laugh and 'You're incorrigable' response. No unwrapping! lol And I am usually more explicit than that even.
I use humor to give myself an out. His rejection is not so painful that way.
The other side of my method is to downplay his 'disinterest' and ED. For 12 years, I've held fast that is 'no big deal' even as the 'deal' has become whopping. I don't want to make him feel badly for something he can't help. But it also makes me angry that he has taken no measures to rectify the situation. How many times I've very gently told him that a cock is not crucial to a woman's sexual satisfaction. But he doesn't want to hear me, or face it.
So here I am. I'll allow him to keep his head in the sand, and he allows me the freedom to do whatever I like.
So does this mean that people on this thread have resolved this issue?
SG
Apologies, lost track of the thread.
No. I don't have sex with other men. Never been with anyone but him. But I do seek the fun and attention of places like Lit, and he's aware, though I am respectful and don't rub it in his face. I realize how tough a problem it is. We've gone through it together. I sought fucking counseling for HIS problem. He refused to attend. My problem with him is not his ED, it's his unwillingness to address it. That he's given up.
I've given him the path. He chooses not to take it. There's nothing more I can do, except leave him or stay with him. And I've chosen to stay with him, because there's more to us than sex.
Oh man, do I get sucked into these threads. I'm like the most open-minded, least judgemental person and I cannot figure this thing out. I'm sorry for all y'all in a situation such as this.
I don't know? Baffles me. Overall, a seemingly universal problem with so many different levels of complexities, different, and unique configurations of similar situations, each unique in their circumstance yet all are subjective from the perspective of every single, individual person involved.
And, I get it. I was blessed (cursed?) with pretty open mind (or is it, 'opened-mind'?... maybe the correct phrasing is 'opening-mind').
I can understand how—and maybe why, it happens.
I want to help somehow. I see your anger, your hurt, your heartbreak, your resentment, et all. I see you all struggle in your own way, each legit in the right light, or with proper focus. And, I have so many questions. I long for insight.
I'm not married, either. So what the hell do I know? I don't.
My longest LTR ended over 35 years ago. I feel that loss now. Yeah. The selfish and petty part of me wonders which is better: Sleeping in a warm bed next to a person you onced loved deeply enough to marry, but no longer feel that same love for... or, going to sleep every night in a warm bed longing for human touch—a soft caress, a warm hug; human warmth—listening to their breath rise and fall as they sleep; feeling the warmth coming from their body?
I don't know.
I can't come up with a solution for any of ya'all. Anybody, but me, that is. I can blather on, I can brainstorm, I can try to look at all the different sides, the differetnt opinions, emotions and perspectives of a such tragic story as this.
I can only know how I feel, what I would do, how I would behave (or, how I think I want to behave, right now at this moment... not in the immediacy of the actual situation). I'd have to do what worked for me in my head, my heart and my mind.
I can't do that for ya 'all. Only for me. I'd imagine it's like that for everyone, don't you think?
The only thing I know is that people who love each other ought to be able to talk about anything... everything... without fear. Yes. Fear. Without fear.
*gawd. It's late. I've bla bla bla-d... and I might not proofread before posting*
Oh man, do I get sucked into these threads. I'm like the most open-minded, least judgemental person and I cannot figure this thing out. I'm sorry for all y'all in a situation such as this.
Overall, a seemingly universal problem with so many different levels of complexities, different, and unique configurations of similar situations, each unique in their circumstance yet all are subjective from the perspective of every single, individual person involved / I'd have to do what worked for me in my head, my heart and my mind / The only thing I know is that people who love each other ought to be able to talk about anything... everything... without fear. Yes. Fear. Without fear.
*gawd. It's late. I've bla bla bla-d... and I might not proofread before posting*
Hi pfflyerhot,
Thank you for not jumping in there and judging - I see that happen here on lit, the judgements made about married people and like you I am not about to judge anyone for their own choices.
My choice has not been a easy one - as you said: do you walk away because it is not the same as how you entered or do you stay. I have been with my husband for 19 years and for me, I am not prepared to walk away from this because of sex. A lack of love, yes. A lack of friendship, yes. I personally am not looking 'to connect', to build an online relationship that would turn into an emotional affair (imo this is more harmful to my relationship). I - to put it bluntly - need orgasms, need physical pleasure.
I fully agree that we should be able to say absolutely anything to the person we love without fear however my husband already feels inadequate enough that if I were to say I was meeting my needs with other men online (he knows I use porn etc already) then would that not have a further negative impact on him? so do I suffer, put his needs before my own - indefinitely? Or do I leave a relationship, break a family, because I need sex, not love - sex.
For me none or these are an option. Instead I find short-term pleasure with another, for a short while I feel desirable, for a short while I feel like me. I would love to achieve this without deceit, without fear of hurting another person. I may be viewed as selfish by many, but I would say to anyone to walk a mile in my shoes before judging.
Thank you pffylerhot, for not judging
^^^^^^ This makes so much sense (to me, anyway!)
Apologies, lost track of the thread.
No. I don't have sex with other men. Never been with anyone but him. But I do seek the fun and attention of places like Lit, and he's aware, though I am respectful and don't rub it in his face. I realize how tough a problem it is. We've gone through it together. I sought fucking counseling for HIS problem. He refused to attend. My problem with him is not his ED, it's his unwillingness to address it. That he's given up.
I've given him the path. He chooses not to take it. There's nothing more I can do, except leave him or stay with him. And I've chosen to stay with him, because there's more to us than sex.
One of the best threads on this, that focused on discussing the issue and not finding an affair partner, was the old Happily Married, Sexually Unfulfilled thread. It got shut down for exceeding the 5K message limit:
http://forum.literotica.com/showthread.php?t=397302
I've been hoping to revive that, and this seems like a good opportunity. We really had many great posts about what it means when other aspects of a marriage seem to be working fine (partnership, parenting, sharing household chores, etc.) but the sex is a big disappointment for one or both parties. (Keep in mind, some spouses are also very upset if their partners are asking for sex TOO often.)
My personal perspective is that dissatisfaction in sex is because one or both parties doesn't really want to have a heart-to-heart talk about what they need in the bedroom--or one will talk about it and the other will then ignore it. That speaks to a lack of intimacy. If you try to talk about something sensitive, that puts you in a vulnerable position...and if you get ignored or slapped down over it, you get hurt. Have that happen enough times, you become very reluctant to "go there" again, and you close up--which is exactly what should NOT be happening in a marriage.
I'm not in the camp that would argue that in all situations, if you're unhappy you should pack up and leave. If there's a chance of working things out, isn't there value in teaching your children that their parents can have a conflict and then resolve it? Is sex SO important that it's worth disrupting the lives of others who aren't directly involved in the relationship? The answer is going to be different for different people.
This loss of intimacy, though, is a bigger issue than sex. Regaining that intimacy once it's lost is very difficult, and may be impossible (and I do have experience in this area). I think that counseling helps, if both parties are open to what the counselor brings to the table. The big danger is that the sexual dissatisfaction will linger and fester and lead to a lack of intimacy and openness in other areas of the relationship, and then things WILL fall apart, most likely in slow motion, leading to more years of frustration and disappointment. That's the greater danger to keep aware of.
And yes, people could easily attack me for not necessarily practicing what I preach. I'm a work in progress like everyone else.
SG
Hi pfflyerhot,
Thank you for not jumping in there and judging - I see that happen here on lit, the judgements made about married people and like you I am not about to judge anyone for their own choices.
My choice has not been a easy one - as you said: do you walk away because it is not the same as how you entered or do you stay. I have been with my husband for 19 years and for me, I am not prepared to walk away from this because of sex. A lack of love, yes. A lack of friendship, yes. I personally am not looking 'to connect', to build an online relationship that would turn into an emotional affair (imo this is more harmful to my relationship). I - to put it bluntly - need orgasms, need physical pleasure.
I fully agree that we should be able to say absolutely anything to the person we love without fear however my husband already feels inadequate enough that if I were to say I was meeting my needs with other men online (he knows I use porn etc already) then would that not have a further negative impact on him? so do I suffer, put his needs before my own - indefinitely? Or do I leave a relationship, break a family, because I need sex, not love - sex.
For me none or these are an option. Instead I find short-term pleasure with another, for a short while I feel desirable, for a short while I feel like me. I would love to achieve this without deceit, without fear of hurting another person. I may be viewed as selfish by many, but I would say to anyone to walk a mile in my shoes before judging.
Thank you pffylerhot, for not judging
Thanks for your response. I certainly empathize with your situation. You sound like a take charge kind of gal and I respect that.
However, again you comments draw me back to one thing. Your husband more than likely feels weak and emasculated by his ED. Clearly he could be doing more to address it. But to the extent that you try to help it isn't just a matter of what you do but who you are. There is an enormous risk that by stepping in where he is failing you will further emasculate him in spite of your best intentions.
Instead of seeing your efforts as being to help him he may see them as you trying to get yourself some hard dick (again I totally get that) which highlights his failure to deliver.
Think of it this way. Imagine you are overweight and sensitive about it. Even if joining weight watchers or a gym is the obvious or rational thing to do......for him to go and do it on your behalf then surprise you with the membership stands a very high chance of being poorly received. That isn't because it is irrational but because of what it says about how he regards you. At least that is the way I would feel. I wouldn't think "that is a great idea, thanks." I would think "oh so you think I am fat."
I actually created the Happily Married, Sexually Unfulfilled thread years ago.
But I'd change the name to Unhappily Married, Sexually Unfulfilled now.
There is an enormous risk that by stepping in where he is failing you will further emasculate him in spite of your best intentions.
Instead of seeing your efforts as being to help him he may see them as you trying to get yourself some hard dick (again I totally get that) which highlights his failure to deliver.
I think this incredibly judgmental of you. No one knows the intricacies of another's marriage.
Felicity is not responsible for the happiness of her husband. Only he is. She's only responsible for her own, and therefore can't stop her husband feeling "emasculated" or anything else. She is not responsible to help him, support him or make him feel better. Only he can do that.
There's been a lot of people finding support and understanding on this thread. If you can't support, then keep it to yourself. As far as I can see, Felicity is a kind, caring and loyal person who has been honest with her husband and her marriage and is doing what she needs to do for her own happiness.
And everyone here should do the same. Find what makes you happy, and move towards that goal. But if you're happy judging someone else for the decisions they've made, feel free to go lecture somewhere else.
Well, if that's the case, and my fears are confirmed that it is indeed 'me and not him' I would thank him to step up and release me from the contract.
My closest friends accuse me of just the opposite. They say that I am too gentle with him, an enabler, of sorts, that I don't stand up for myself for fear of hurting him. The opposite of being an emmasculator.
The fact remains, if he would talk to me about it, any of it, any one part of it, I think we could come to terms that would satisfy us both.
I think I get that you are playing devil's advocate. But I'm not sure you know me well enough to do so. I have my own set of insecurities, and on any given day am pretty well convinced everything is my fault, all the time.
I'm doing the best I can.