xtinelauren1
Really Really Experienced
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- Aug 15, 2014
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I felt really silly writing that out, and it probably is so, but I don't know how else to put it. I'm currently 24, I live with my mom and younger brother, and will be finishing up school this upcoming spring. I'm really excited at the prospect of being on my own and moving to the city (I will either be attending school in Boston or Queens, NY. I live in Long Island atm)but the more I think about it, the more I want to literally curl up into a ball and disappear or just cry if I'm feeling a little less dramatic. I don't think it's the fact I'll be alone, more than the fear of failing and having to crawl my sorry ass back home to my mother when all of my friends have great jobs and apartments.
Mind you tons of my friends, stuck with massive student loans and bullshit high rent payments had no choice but to move back home in order to save up movey, and that's understandable and a lot less pathetic than being afraid to leave home in the first place. I feel so far behind (in more ways than one), and I'm just wondering, how did some of you get over that fear of failing and the fear of being an actual adult who doesn't have much, or anything (or anyone) to fall back on?
Mind you tons of my friends, stuck with massive student loans and bullshit high rent payments had no choice but to move back home in order to save up movey, and that's understandable and a lot less pathetic than being afraid to leave home in the first place. I feel so far behind (in more ways than one), and I'm just wondering, how did some of you get over that fear of failing and the fear of being an actual adult who doesn't have much, or anything (or anyone) to fall back on?