New and so confused

Sorry, this post was a bit off the rails, and too personal so I edited it off. I'm new to the kink community, and actually the Internet community as a whole.

My next post should be much more professional and at least include proper grammar.

Trust is the major thing in this type relationship. you must trust yourselves and each other. When you reach the full trust it will feel natural, do not rush or push it, if you have longing or cravings for the other that is the emotional part, Love.
There is nothing wrong with loving your Dom.
Not having to worry about "being governed by reason" is the best part of being a sub, the Dom is in charge of this part.

If you wish to PM sissy, pleas do and sissy will try to answer some of your questions.