WckdnWild
The CAREFUL you wish 4
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I can't imagine the pain you've endured...and your right...when you love that deeply it is a matter of living or dying. However, I will add... there is a part of you that dies....and stays dead. It's like a scar...it heals, but the reminder is always there. My angst is not from a death but betrayal, which scars differently. Both unimaginable pain.
I can't speak for anyone but myself, but when you love deeply, with everthing that you are, and that love is betrayed, it is implausible to expect that you will ever reach that euphoric state again. Perhaps close, or in a different way, but the damage is still done. Like putting a nail in the wall. You can fill the hole, repair and patch, but it is NEVER the same.
When it happens enough times, it's NOT that you don't put yourself out there, but do some MORE cautiously, LESS freely and with a pensive process that can be infuriating for the "other person". Forgiveness is easy.... forgetting impossible with out the benefit of time, tenderness and someone patient enuff to understand. The eventuality is that you become detached .... and are incapable of loving beyond the surface, which is GREAT in some cases. Horrible, but the truth is... I've developed an I feel good, you feel good mentality. The moment the lust moves beyond those emotions... I am unwilling and incapable of anything more...
I can't imagine the pain you've endured...and your right...when you love that deeply it is a matter of living or dying. However, I will add... there is a part of you that dies....and stays dead. It's like a scar...it heals, but the reminder is always there. My angst is not from a death but betrayal, which scars differently. Both unimaginable pain.
I can't speak for anyone but myself, but when you love deeply, with everthing that you are, and that love is betrayed, it is implausible to expect that you will ever reach that euphoric state again. Perhaps close, or in a different way, but the damage is still done. Like putting a nail in the wall. You can fill the hole, repair and patch, but it is NEVER the same.
When it happens enough times, it's NOT that you don't put yourself out there, but do some MORE cautiously, LESS freely and with a pensive process that can be infuriating for the "other person". Forgiveness is easy.... forgetting impossible with out the benefit of time, tenderness and someone patient enuff to understand. The eventuality is that you become detached .... and are incapable of loving beyond the surface, which is GREAT in some cases. Horrible, but the truth is... I've developed an I feel good, you feel good mentality. The moment the lust moves beyond those emotions... I am unwilling and incapable of anything more...