Quite correct. The businesslike, harsh approach, has turned me off to many helpers. Any form of humanity has been rejected as overprotective.
Hmm...
Do you mind being examined in a ... relatively safe enviornment?
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Quite correct. The businesslike, harsh approach, has turned me off to many helpers. Any form of humanity has been rejected as overprotective.
I want to go back and read what I have missed in the conversation, but what I would like to do right now is offer a link to any who are interested in reading about new research on genetic factors.
A few years ago while I was studying medical transcription, genetic links to depression were a personal interest of mine because so many of us are symptomatic in the family. Cardiovascluar and the lymphatic systems were also areas of interest because we suffer much death from heart disease and cancer.
My grandmother has epilepsy, and she is the queen of mean. For a long time, she was just queen of mean because I had no idea she had epilepsy. It was this (yet another) dark family secret which was kicked out of the closet when she had a grandmal seizure. I was fourteen and alone when it occured. I recognized the event as a seizure and called an ambulance. The dispatcher on the other end of the line was annoying, but I knew the dude was only trying to keep me calm. I was upset, but I was still rational.
She is on medication, but she exercises choice on when and if she takes it on time. I get why she has a love and hate relationship with not only the meds but also reminders given to her. She is an intelligent lady who lived in a culture... yeah, we all know that drill.
I've only recently begun to understand the scientific link with behavior which seems inappropriate and irrational. This is due to self reflection, education, and conscious effort at relization. I write this not to project onto others.
One thing I want to do with my life is exercise my choice in my own behavior, probably in spite of my depression, and not take it out on everyone else. Tis my goal to become a new and enlightened genesis: humanity.
I didnt mean to implay anything you seem to understand my interest
I accept that I only seek to benifit from your interest on the subject
It's been a while but yes. I remember you! *hugs* Glad to see you come around again!
Of course we remember you, silly goose. *hugs*
Have coffee with us!
It always feels good to be remembered. I had forgotten myself lately but hopefully that is changing.
Coffee is always good!!
i would love to roleplay such an senario
This is completely out of place here. Also you need to learn how to write, including words, sentences and paragraphs if you want to "role play" in that section of the board.
Of course putting your comments here could be considered a form of mental illness I suppose. A "special" trollish form.
This is completely out of place here. Also you need to learn how to write, including words, sentences and paragraphs if you want to "role play" in that section of the board.
Of course putting your comments here could be considered a form of mental illness I suppose. A "special" trollish form.
As far as mentally ill people and their meds go--I have been hard on the non mentally ill in my last few posts, but on this subject, I'll be hard on those of us who do have illnesses.
TAKE YOUR GODDAMN MOTHERFUCKING MEDICATION.
You have a responsibility to take care of both yourself and the people around you. You cannot do that unmedicated. Regardless of what your illness is trying to tell you, most of the time, if you were prescribed medication, you need it. You are not some goddamn special snowflake who is just "misunderstood" by everyone around you and being held down by The Man or whatever. Yes, there are cases of people being over-medicated or medicated when they didn't actually need meds, but those cases are the minority, not the majority. Serious (and oftentimes, even moderate) mental illness requires medication. Remember, lack of insight to one's condition and one's need for treatment is a hallmark of many illnesses.
If your meds aren't helping, go back to the doctor. If the side effects are too hard to live with, go back to the doctor. If that doctor won't help you, find another one. There are a ton of meds out there. The odds are in your favor that you will find something where the good outweighs the bad in terms of efficacy vs. side effects.
There's no such thing as a medication with zero side effects. That does not mean that you shouldn't take meds. Learn the difference between intolerable side effects and inconvenient ones. Intolerable side effects are dangerous ones (like an anaphylactic reaction or insulin resistance) or ones that truly interfere with your quality of life (like something that either makes it impossible to sleep or impossible to wake up). Inconvenient side effects are things like acne and mild weight gain.
If your meds give you intolerable side effects, have them changed. If they give you inconvenient ones but otherwise help your quality of life, suck it up and fucking deal with it. Wellbutrin gives me a mild tremor that becomes a major one if I'm hungry, tired, or sick. Lamictal makes me stumble over words when I talk. These things are annoying, but I can live with looking like a stuttering Parkinson's patient if it means I feel better and don't hurt the people around me.
Which do you prefer? The inconvenience of taking meds and their side effects or harming yourself and others? Take responsibility for your own actions; being mentally ill is no excuse for being a selfish cunt.
Also, non mentally ill people, for the love of God, stop encouraging us crazies to stop taking our meds. You are not us. You are not our doctors. You, as an outside lay person, do not have the ability to make that judgment call. I don't give a shit if you are "Master" or "Mistress." You cannot take the place of somebody's meds, and please go fuck yourself if you think you can.
/rant
on taking your meds...here's the thing, they don't always work. and i'm not talking about "i feel better but they make me sleepy and nauseous" not working, i'm talking about every single day you still fantasize about and elaborately plan your suicide not working. no drug cocktail has ever silenced that voice for me, or even quieted the demons down enough so that i can get through 24 hours without crying. yes, a precious few have given me the ability to superficially function in the outside world for short spurts (and then once home alone cry or scream or SI), but then Daddy can do that, and with him i get hugs at the end.
i would love to have found meds that worked for me. but i no longer have the strength or energy to maintain hope and avoid crushing despair (when yet another drug or drug combo doesn't work) while experimenting.
Bunny, I fucking loved your last post. You get coffee any way you want it, girlfriend. I have not seen anyone encouraging people to stop taking their meds. Did I miss something?
I ginormously you right now.
Amen to take your motherfucking meds, amended ever so slightly.
Sometimes you have to figure out what's actually working and what's not.
Around here, we are made sleepy, more depressed and less functional by antidepressants of all five life saver varieties (seriously WAY more ledge talks when on them) but life without adderall would be incomprehensible.
Figuring out time on this problem? About a year. BAAAAAAD scene.
As the non-med partner person, I've learned to take a deep breath and give it a month if someone decides to flush everything, as long as they're willing to add things back to the mix.
on taking your meds...here's the thing, they don't always work. and i'm not talking about "i feel better but they make me sleepy and nauseous" not working, i'm talking about every single day you still fantasize about and elaborately plan your suicide not working. no drug cocktail has ever silenced that voice for me, or even quieted the demons down enough so that i can get through 24 hours without crying. yes, a precious few have given me the ability to superficially function in the outside world for short spurts (and then once home alone cry or scream or SI), but then Daddy can do that, and with him i get hugs at the end.
i would love to have found meds that worked for me. but i no longer have the strength or energy to maintain hope and avoid crushing despair (when yet another drug or drug combo doesn't work) while experimenting.
on taking your meds...here's the thing, they don't always work. and i'm not talking about "i feel better but they make me sleepy and nauseous" not working, i'm talking about every single day you still fantasize about and elaborately plan your suicide not working. no drug cocktail has ever silenced that voice for me, or even quieted the demons down enough so that i can get through 24 hours without crying. yes, a precious few have given me the ability to superficially function in the outside world for short spurts (and then once home alone cry or scream or SI), but then Daddy can do that, and with him i get hugs at the end.
i would love to have found meds that worked for me. but i no longer have the strength or energy to maintain hope and avoid crushing despair (when yet another drug or drug combo doesn't work) while experimenting.