Know Whether or Not to Say Anything

I'll try and keep it short. For a short while, I and another person I know had an agreement of sorts where we might be each others first time. As I knew them, I was a lot more hesistant in saying what I actually wanted to do, as opposed to people I'd spoken to online before, where I was able to fully talk about stuff I'd like to do and so on. I don't know if me being like "well maybe if you let me maybe I could maybe do this" is why it ended and they seem uninterested to talk about it again, or if it was for the best given our friendship and that I should just leave the topic alone and be happy with the friendship.

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All relationships are negotiated. Some of that is doen overtly as in spoken words and some unspoken. As an OLD guy, it is my considered opinion that the bet, most treasured relations with others are when things are clear and straightforward. From the tone of your post, clarity may not be possible in this one so take what is given, if that is the bet you can do.