Shy Little Me

when am i gonna stop getting hurt? why are guys like this?
If you're the type who throws yourself into a new relationship, you may need to hold back for a while until you see how things are going. Play it cool & don't rush in. Get a sense of the guy and how he acts in different circumstances. Of course, that's easy to say, but hard to do!

.. anyway.. got a few pics i wanna post. its gonna take a little time, so please please be patient.
*waits patiently* :D
 
are you fucking kidding me?!
ok, so i didnt get a chance to post my story... our internet sucked for the past week...
well he broke up with me. cause i tagged him in 2 things on facebook and stupid Bs... he tried saying he has multiply personality disorder and other shit. he played me from the begging and he was a liar.
when am i gonna stop getting hurt? why are guys like this?
.. anyway.. got a few pics i wanna post. its gonna take a little time, so please please be patient.

omfg im so so sorry and if you ever want someone to talk with im here and well im kinda excited to see the newer photos of you :D
 
If you're the type who throws yourself into a new relationship, you may need to hold back for a while until you see how things are going. Play it cool & don't rush in. Get a sense of the guy and how he acts in different circumstances. Of course, that's easy to say, but hard to do!


*waits patiently* :D

yes yes, i no. i need to stop jumping into things. i no that.
 
getting ready to work on some photos. like i said, our internet sucks, so it does take a while.
... mind if i ask some opinions?
so i met this guy.. we hit it off. we ended up making out a lot and thats it.. errr, he did end up fingering me when i was in the back seat and he was in the passanger seat. my cousin was driving, well now she says im a porn star -_- and is jealous cause im a moaner.
we keep talking and talking, well he told me last night he just wants to have fun... that im talking to different guys and playing him. when i told the only other guy i was talking to that i fell for this guy and that i wanna be with him. i even told the guy i wanna be with him.
... he said my level of clingyness and shyness is to much to handle. that i need to open up and be myself. that my shyness isnt attractive.
so mind if i ask... whats not attractive... and how do i change my shyness and clingyness.
my one ex messed me up emotionally, and i told this guy the story and he agreed that it messed me up badly.. but i still gotta break my habbits.
 
getting ready to work on some photos. like i said, our internet sucks, so it does take a while.
... mind if i ask some opinions?
so i met this guy.. we hit it off. we ended up making out a lot and thats it.. errr, he did end up fingering me when i was in the back seat and he was in the passanger seat. my cousin was driving, well now she says im a porn star -_- and is jealous cause im a moaner.
we keep talking and talking, well he told me last night he just wants to have fun... that im talking to different guys and playing him. when i told the only other guy i was talking to that i fell for this guy and that i wanna be with him. i even told the guy i wanna be with him.
... he said my level of clingyness and shyness is to much to handle. that i need to open up and be myself. that my shyness isnt attractive.
so mind if i ask... whats not attractive... and how do i change my shyness and clingyness.
my one ex messed me up emotionally, and i told this guy the story and he agreed that it messed me up badly.. but i still gotta break my habbits.

Okay, I don't know you personally, so please take this advice as being well-intentioned but possibly not very well-informed.

It sounds to me like maybe you should just take a bit of time away from dating. Don't let yourself be defined by the guys you hang out with. Hang out with some girls for a while or with groups of guys and girls, but only as friends. It sounds like you're trying to be what the guy you're interested in wants you to be (which we all do, to some extent), but you need to determine who you ARE and who YOU want you to be, first. Otherwise, I'm afraid you're going to keep jumping for someone who shows interest in you, and then redefining yourself to meet his desires, and wind up losing yourself completely and having nothing to show for all of your troubles, pain, and efforts.

You are a woman of great worth. Treat yourself as such.
 
Okay, I don't know you personally, so please take this advice as being well-intentioned but possibly not very well-informed.

It sounds to me like maybe you should just take a bit of time away from dating. Don't let yourself be defined by the guys you hang out with. Hang out with some girls for a while or with groups of guys and girls, but only as friends. It sounds like you're trying to be what the guy you're interested in wants you to be (which we all do, to some extent), but you need to determine who you ARE and who YOU want you to be, first. Otherwise, I'm afraid you're going to keep jumping for someone who shows interest in you, and then redefining yourself to meet his desires, and wind up losing yourself completely and having nothing to show for all of your troubles, pain, and efforts.

You are a woman of great worth. Treat yourself as such.

thank you for taking the time to put your input. :)
i actually got back into the dating game in june. ive been separated from my one major ex for a year and a half now, and since then i really havent been dating. just ended up seeing people. (not fully proud of)
im not wanting to change myself for anyone which is why i dont. but he does have a point, that i need to open up. stop being so shy. nd nobody likes clingy. but i like having a man i can be proud of, why not love being with him?
but i do jump for people. and im actually not with this guy. i wasnt forcing him out with me, or asking him out and blah blah bhlah, i was just talking with him and i noticed he was acting different towards me. thats when it all came out..
 
thank you for taking the time to put your input. :)
i actually got back into the dating game in june. ive been separated from my one major ex for a year and a half now, and since then i really havent been dating. just ended up seeing people. (not fully proud of)
im not wanting to change myself for anyone which is why i dont. but he does have a point, that i need to open up. stop being so shy. nd nobody likes clingy. but i like having a man i can be proud of, why not love being with him?
but i do jump for people. and im actually not with this guy. i wasnt forcing him out with me, or asking him out and blah blah bhlah, i was just talking with him and i noticed he was acting different towards me. thats when it all came out..

Everyone wants a partner they can be proud of. I don't understand anyone (usually it's women, but not always) being with someone who they have to make excuses for.

You're right that very few people want someone who is clingy, but I'm not exactly sure how you can be both too clingy and too shy.
 
Everyone wants a partner they can be proud of. I don't understand anyone (usually it's women, but not always) being with someone who they have to make excuses for.

You're right that very few people want someone who is clingy, but I'm not exactly sure how you can be both too clingy and too shy.

i learned to close myself out to a point. so i dont show myself that much. im tired of getting hurt, so i thought... if i didnt expose myself completely then i wouldnt get hurt as easily. well i guess im wrong/.

im not making excuses tho? at least i didnt think i was.
 
i learned to close myself out to a point. so i dont show myself that much. im tired of getting hurt, so i thought... if i didnt expose myself completely then i wouldnt get hurt as easily. well i guess im wrong/.
Maybe you should just take some time for casual dating? If you think you're a) shy and b) too clingy, then meeting a bunch of different people without deliberately looking for a commitment may help you learn how to be more at ease by getting rid of the expectations that come with a relationship. Interact with different people and, if you find someone you like, tell them you're not ready for anything serious at the moment. Just relax and be yourself. If you want to have sex, that's up to you - just be safe! And obviously people are interested in you sexually, so you can afford to be choosy. Of course I have no idea if this will work for you. :)

EDIT: Hm. I think RawHumor said something similar a few posts up.
 
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Maybe you should just take some time for casual dating? If you think you're a) shy and b) too clingy, then meeting a bunch of different people without deliberately looking for a commitment may help you learn how to be more at ease by getting rid of the expectations that come with a relationship. Interact with different people and, if you find someone you like, tell them you're not ready for anything serious at the moment. Just relax and be yourself. If you want to have sex, that's up to you - just be safe! And obviously people are interested in you sexually, so you can afford to be choosy. Of course I have no idea if this will work for you. :)

EDIT: Hm. I think RawHumor said something similar a few posts up.

its all good, and thank you :)
i was doing that to be honest. :/ i was talking to someone on this site and he was being all cute and stuff. then i was just talking to my cousins bf's brother as a friend. ... it seemed like the one on the site changed after a few days, as if he lost interest in me.
the other one wanted to no me better. and he was the one i was falling for. im still falling for him.
 
ooh goodness, i keep thinking about it. soo funny.
i cant believe he fingered me while my cousin was driving. the poor girl now knows a little more about me then she should! hahaha!
i told her before that i was a moaner, and she couldnt understand how. well now she definitely knows im a moaner! a loud one at that. shes been calling me a porn star, cause she said thats what i sounded like!
im gonna take that as a complement and a gift, for it turns everyone on for some reason.
that is the closest thing to incest i will ever get, and i think getting that far, was to far. hahahaha!!!
i wont lie tho, that was an extreme turn on, having someone there and hearing me as i was being pleasured <3 it was a first for me, and i rather liked it.. a lot! <3
 
ooh goodness, i keep thinking about it. soo funny.
i cant believe he fingered me while my cousin was driving. the poor girl now knows a little more about me then she should! hahaha!
i told her before that i was a moaner, and she couldnt understand how. well now she definitely knows im a moaner! a loud one at that. shes been calling me a porn star, cause she said thats what i sounded like!
im gonna take that as a complement and a gift, for it turns everyone on for some reason.
that is the closest thing to incest i will ever get, and i think getting that far, was to far. hahahaha!!!
i wont lie tho, that was an extreme turn on, having someone there and hearing me as i was being pleasured <3 it was a first for me, and i rather liked it.. a lot! <3

I think that is hot as hell. I Love a woman who is not afraid to let people know she is enjoying herself. I love a woman that is vocal and doesn't just lay there!! You go girl!
 
I just found your thread and let me say that you have a fantastic body and I am so glad that you decided to share it with us.

I also read a bit of your drama and I am so sorry that the boys in your life don't appreciate you like they should. You seem to be quite an amazing woman, and I don't mean just physically, that I am sure things will turn around.
 
i wont lie tho, that was an extreme turn on, having someone there and hearing me as i was being pleasured <3 it was a first for me, and i rather liked it.. a lot! <3

That is rather hot. Makes me want to 'accidentally' leave the windows open...
 
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