JCSTREET
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- Apr 12, 2004
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I have been drinking terminaly for maybe two weeks or so and my life is running down
During that period i haven't written much good either
I am approaching 62 years of age and sometimes I just kind of give up for a few days--and then I always get it back--the life force and my abolity to write
but it gets harder
I know other people on this board also have issues--with age--with sickness and have griefg--so I never feel that my troules exist in an unknown chasm
but I have moments--I was in amotel up country on tuesday night and thinking of an old girlfriend who went back to her husand in late 2002--and I thought I could never love again
and the thought of just giving the motel owner my credit card and charging two weeks during which one might drink two bottle of vodka a day and then die was sweet
but i made it home with just enough vodka to send me back to sleep for eight hours and wake up and make the day and be productive again
SO
who knows
I want to live and write and produce and publish
but i am now old enough to appreciate that i may not ever again
and there are moments when I find that difficult to cope with
I have found this board the best one I have ever found having been on my first board in 1987
that's a long time
and i have acquaintances here that i have developed a very deep affection for --quite a few
During that period i haven't written much good either
I am approaching 62 years of age and sometimes I just kind of give up for a few days--and then I always get it back--the life force and my abolity to write
but it gets harder
I know other people on this board also have issues--with age--with sickness and have griefg--so I never feel that my troules exist in an unknown chasm
but I have moments--I was in amotel up country on tuesday night and thinking of an old girlfriend who went back to her husand in late 2002--and I thought I could never love again
and the thought of just giving the motel owner my credit card and charging two weeks during which one might drink two bottle of vodka a day and then die was sweet
but i made it home with just enough vodka to send me back to sleep for eight hours and wake up and make the day and be productive again
SO
who knows
I want to live and write and produce and publish
but i am now old enough to appreciate that i may not ever again
and there are moments when I find that difficult to cope with
I have found this board the best one I have ever found having been on my first board in 1987
that's a long time
and i have acquaintances here that i have developed a very deep affection for --quite a few