MissShelly
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- Nov 17, 2014
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Did you ever have a "is something wrong with me" moment regarding your BDSM kinks?
In the begining of your kink, or even later, have you ever asked yourself, "Is there something wrong with me for liking this?"
I'm just curious. I can't be the only one. Can I?
Please don't judge too harshly. It's a serious, quetion.
When I first started exploring BDSM with my husband (and we are, admittedly still new at this), I didn't feel bad, remorseful, naughty, whatever you want to call it...I just accepted that this is what gets me off, and was grateful that my husband was willing to play.
Then I watched a T.V. show this week.. and while yes I realize it is fiction, and no subs were harmed in the making of the film.... I had to stop and ask myself, "Wow? Is somethin wrong with me?"
Spoiler alert: It's the show Cirminal Minds, and the episode was recorded either this week or last.
So, the team of FBI profilers catch a case where a serial rapist/killer ties his victims at the wrist and ankles, sexually assaults them, and then strangles them repeatedly, not actually killing them for several hours.
Later we find out that the women are actually willing partners at first, and don't realize this guy is a killer.
So about the time we figure this out, it shows said Killer tying up his newest victim and wrapping a red cord around her neck.
Well, I KNOW he's going to kill her... but I was instantly turned on, and wished my husband was home, and spent all night fantasizing.
Okay.. so, seriously? It's okay 'cause it's fiction right? But aren't we supposed to be disgusted and appalled? I SOOOOO wasn't.
So now comes in that little niggling piece of doubt that asks..."What the heck is wrong with me?" Because I know nothing so simple as a single scene in a t.v. show can turn my kink off.
In the begining of your kink, or even later, have you ever asked yourself, "Is there something wrong with me for liking this?"
I'm just curious. I can't be the only one. Can I?
Please don't judge too harshly. It's a serious, quetion.
When I first started exploring BDSM with my husband (and we are, admittedly still new at this), I didn't feel bad, remorseful, naughty, whatever you want to call it...I just accepted that this is what gets me off, and was grateful that my husband was willing to play.
Then I watched a T.V. show this week.. and while yes I realize it is fiction, and no subs were harmed in the making of the film.... I had to stop and ask myself, "Wow? Is somethin wrong with me?"
Spoiler alert: It's the show Cirminal Minds, and the episode was recorded either this week or last.
So, the team of FBI profilers catch a case where a serial rapist/killer ties his victims at the wrist and ankles, sexually assaults them, and then strangles them repeatedly, not actually killing them for several hours.
Later we find out that the women are actually willing partners at first, and don't realize this guy is a killer.
So about the time we figure this out, it shows said Killer tying up his newest victim and wrapping a red cord around her neck.
Well, I KNOW he's going to kill her... but I was instantly turned on, and wished my husband was home, and spent all night fantasizing.
Okay.. so, seriously? It's okay 'cause it's fiction right? But aren't we supposed to be disgusted and appalled? I SOOOOO wasn't.
So now comes in that little niggling piece of doubt that asks..."What the heck is wrong with me?" Because I know nothing so simple as a single scene in a t.v. show can turn my kink off.