Burning (my story)

Warning: intense and "not for the faint of heart" I think part of what I really like about BDSM is the ability to conquer my fears in a sexual way, and I've always had a fear of being burned. I remember the pain being so incredible when accidentally touching the stove as a child, and it's always the most intense sensation of pain that I want to chase in my BDSM play.

It seems that there's relatively little pornography and discussion out there that involves erotic burning, with the exception of wax play. The BDSM artwork of the artist "Damian" depicts women being tortured with hot irons, and I find it incredibly erotic, but the scenes depicted are entirely non-consensual and too extreme to practice... on the other hand, the wax and fire play I have seen in bdsm films never seems to go far enough to be profoundly exciting to me, whereas there's plenty of whipping, piercing and breast bondage that goes too far in my opinion.

Perhaps to find out for myself, or perhaps just because I was drunk and wanted to feel anything to continue my "buzz" I decided to burn my right nipple with a lighter about a week ago. I clipped it in a type of hair clip that allowed me to tug it away from my body but keep the tip of the nipple exposed, and I tortured it with the flame until part of it turned bright pink and a tiny layer of skin sloughed off... As disgusting and horrifying as that sounds, I have been shocked by the amount of pleasure this burn has brought me. My right nipple is incredibly sensitive and brings me some of the most intense pleasure I'm capable of feeling. I had a fear that I would lose sensation and sensitivity there as a result of the burn, but I have been pleasantly surprised (and confused) by the discovery that my nipple seems to be becoming an even more sensitive pleasure-giver as a result of the burn. The constant pain it produces feels like a constant pleasure for some reason, and as the scab has formed and begun to come off, the healed nipple underneath the scab feels even more precious, even more sensitive when I touch it. You'll catch me with my hand under my shirt now and it's hard to regret this act of self-destruction, even though I'm fighting hard to stay sober these days and probably would not have done it sober...

Has anyone else burned themselves or someone else badly enough to form a scab or blister and found that the victim took great pleasure from the burn, as I have? Is this normal? Clearly not, but I'm curious to hear whether it makes sense to others in the BDSM community, or if I'm just a freak.

Who's to say if you're a freak or not? The only thing that alarms me a bit is that you mention your inability to stay sober and that you wouldn't have done this if sober. I think that when participating in play that has potential to cause severe damage one must be of clear mind and fully able bodied. Please be careful. Maybe talk to someone about your inability to stay sober and know that not all therapists are prudes and many understand bdsm so don't let your fear of being judged stop you.

I'd say that if you're going to keep up the burning play you really need to be sober. I also think that using something that brands or burns like an iron may be better to control than a flame.

Lastly, be careful with an open wound from burning. I got burned recently and had to be very careful with the wound because it is very easy for burns to become infected.

I doubt it's on many porn sites because it is to physically real. Most of the time, things generally are accepted more when you believe that there's a possibility that it can be fake, take punishment vids for example. Sure they can be real with real tears and real pleas to stop, but the site needs to be able to convey that it's just acting. Legitimate rape doesn't tend to fly on porn sites. The act of burning someone with a lighter is so raw and physical, as well as hard to fake, that it likely is too illicit for the masses, let alone a porn site.

As far as your case in particular, I have never heard of someone liking it that much, but I don't pass judgement, nor do I think it's bad. You are free to like whatever! Just be safe with it and try not to overdo it, as well as try to be sober when you do. Drink/Drugs do not mix with fire. If you feel the absolute need to do it while influenced, it would probably be best to have someone do it for you.. I defiantly agree with Domesticity though, its best to control flames. Maybe a pinhead heated up over a candle flame instead? that also sounds much more... Cinematic, if you would. Either way, good luck and happy burning!
-MasteringMaster

Domesticity said:

Who's to say if you're a freak or not? The only thing that alarms me a bit is that you mention your inability to stay sober and that you wouldn't have done this if sober. I think that when participating in play that has potential to cause severe damage one must be of clear mind and fully able bodied. Please be careful. Maybe talk to someone about your inability to stay sober and know that not all therapists are prudes and many understand bdsm so don't let your fear of being judged stop you.

I'd say that if you're going to keep up the burning play you really need to be sober. I also think that using something that brands or burns like an iron may be better to control than a flame.

Lastly, be careful with an open wound from burning. I got burned recently and had to be very careful with the wound because it is very easy for burns to become infected.

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This.

If you can't do it sober, don't do it. Your judgement is so impaired. Please be careful.

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Thanks for the warm replies! I'm touched by the caring in this community, although I have seen a more judgmental type of response at times on these message boards, this response really warms my heart.

I agree that alcohol and bdsm don't mix... I guess that's why I was so surprised that I enjoyed the aftermath of the burn when I was sober. I often regret the things I do when drunk, but I didn't regret this... Nevertheless, I won't be too eager to repeat it, at least not on a regular basis.... Having those "crossed wires" where pain registers as pleasure can be beautiful, but it can be dangerous too. I *don't* think I would enjoy a burn if it became infected.

I also appreciate the statement that therapists sometimes understand bdsm. The only one I have been to in the past certainly did not seem to understand it.

fulvius said:

Thanks for the warm replies! I'm touched by the caring in this community, although I have seen a more judgmental type of response at times on these message boards, this response really warms my heart.

I agree that alcohol and bdsm don't mix... I guess that's why I was so surprised that I enjoyed the aftermath of the burn when I was sober. I often regret the things I do when drunk, but I didn't regret this... Nevertheless, I won't be too eager to repeat it, at least not on a regular basis.... Having those "crossed wires" where pain registers as pleasure can be beautiful, but it can be dangerous too. I *don't* think I would enjoy a burn if it became infected.

I also appreciate the statement that therapists sometimes understand bdsm. The only one I have been to in the past certainly did not seem to understand it.

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This is a start for therapists who understand kink / bdsm.

https://ncsfreedom.org/resources/kink-aware-professionals-directory/kap-directory-homepage

I'm not sure if you're interested in getting involved in your local bdsm community. You can check a site called Fet Life for local groups - it's a bit like a kinky facebook. Or just google bdsm and your town - something might pop up. I say this because I've met some people in my community who are experienced at fire play. I bottomed to someone who loved working with fire. I wanted to know what it felt like. It wasn't burning as you describe, but it was an adreneline rush for sure. Just a thought as you continue exploring.

good luck!!

What you enjoy is down to you - don't worry about it being unusual or niche or weird. We're all weird - most of us just don't admit it. The only point of concern in reading your story is harm, and your own self-control. Exploring the pleasure you get from burning is all good fun, but you have to be careful to set limits for yourself, and be sober when you play t ensure that you don't do yourself permanent harm. If you feel as though you really want to do yourself permanent harm, speak to someone professional about this desire.

Domesticity said:

Who's to say if you're a freak or not? The only thing that alarms me a bit is that you mention your inability to stay sober and that you wouldn't have done this if sober. I think that when participating in play that has potential to cause severe damage one must be of clear mind and fully able bodied. Please be careful. Maybe talk to someone about your inability to stay sober and know that not all therapists are prudes and many understand bdsm so don't let your fear of being judged stop you.

I'd say that if you're going to keep up the burning play you really need to be sober. I also think that using something that brands or burns like an iron may be better to control than a flame.

Lastly, be careful with an open wound from burning. I got burned recently and had to be very careful with the wound because it is very easy for burns to become infected.

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