My sory and fantasies

[mikenight]

I am not sure that this post belongs here, but couldn't find any other that would be better.

I am 43 and married to a wonderful woman. I have one kid.

When I was in my early 20, I was dating this girl and we ended up living together.
Early in our relationship we became friends with a gay girl. And we started toying with the idea of having a 3some, but never happened.

We I broke with my girlfriend, she confessed that while we were together, she had had a very torrid affair with our lesbian friend. I felt a bit disappointed, but I moved over ( or so I thought).

A few years later, I started getting more and more into lesbian erotica. Masturbating to lesbian erotic stories and movies became almost a daily habit.

I imagined different scenarios until one day one let me shaking. My ultimate fantasy became being married to a woman who has lesbian affairs behind my back.

This fantasy also started to have variations, sometimes would be my daughter ( a fantasy one, because I have none in real life), or I was a teenager and it was my mom who was having the affairs.

I guess that all this is a way to sublimate the pain of being cheated by turning it into a pleasurable fantasy.

I really needed to get this ot of my chest. Does anybody have any similar fantasy or real life experience? I am also willing to chat about this if someone is interested.

Mikenight