i posted a thread a few weeks ago here: http://forum.literotica.com/showthread.php?t=846502
in it, i describe some boundary issues i acted in lieu of.
upon reflection, i can't help but see that my own mother growing up had boundary issues with me. it wasn't quite sexual abuse, but there was a lot of unwanted love and attention. there were times as a kid i knew i needed to do the normal growing up thing, and there my mother was just putting her business into mine or making all sorts of weird injections that made me feel uncomfortable. it was really unfair because this person used her career success to make me feel like i was powerless. i often received criticisms and it seemed backed up by the iron stick that they had credibility.
i just felt like i had to say that somewhere. it took me a really long time to actually feel it. obviously it was confusing. for a guy to be "sexually abused", the aesthetic is usually much more subtle i feel. it is also my own mother so it's a special relationship which has an obvious impact. it makes it harder to speak out on and figure out and i am just confused.
she never looked for other men after her divorce, she just kept to her "boys" which in my mind is messed up.
i felt like i needed to say this somewhere. it's kind of messed up. i just don't want to carry it because i obviously have and it has affected me from even being a normal person in a lot of instances.