I need help/advice. I'm 44 and married and have finally accepted, after all these years, and with the help of a good therapist, that I am gay. That is scary enough, but I do not know what to do. Do I come out and leave my wife? I love her very much and enjoy being married to her. But I crave being with a man. Yet I have never been with a man in any way. What if I break up my marriage, overturn my life and then realize I don't like sex with another man? I mean, I'm really turned on by the idea and I enjoy gay porn, but maybe I don't know what I'm getting myself into. I think I would be a bottom, but would I like it? Would I like dating men and having a man in my life? I do want to find out, but am so scared of the life change and the leap of faith it would require that I am battling depression. Part of me wonders if I should explore being with a man/men before I go so far as break up my marriage. But that would not be fair to my wife. Please help.