NewSubQuestions
Experienced
- Joined
- May 3, 2016
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- 58
Hi Guys. First so nice to have found you all. I have kinda known for a long time that I'm submissive and have recently been lucky enough to have found a relationship that is willing to role play with me. My problem is that I'm confused in so many ways that I think I confuse him. I have never had anyone willing to role play with me before so it's all brand new. Learning what I like or don't like as I go. I feel desire to be tied up and then feel guilt for wanting that! Is that normal for some of you? I got my first real spanking yet felt guilty because he was only role playing and did not have the need to want to deliver it. Then was not sure I liked the pain but realized it did turn me on because after the pain would stop I desired it to start again. I'm confused. I think I'm ashamed and even fearful others would know this about me. Also he is really good with fantasy text and brought fantasy that I did not know I would be interested in and now feel a strong guilt for wanting because I'm not sure if he really wanted me to want it and it haunts me....continually thinking of this fantasy. I'm not sure if I'm turned on wanted to make him happy or if it's what I want. I have a tendency to mold into what my mate wants. Is this normal submissive behavior? Or something else?